Sleepless Beauty

by medik

Chapter TWO

Warnings: 6x2; 3x4; 1x5; Lemon, Rape, Angst;

Disclaimer: Duo is mine. Zechs is mine. And I'm never giving them up. Sue me, but I don't make any money.

Summary: Both Zechs and Duo struggle with one another as they are held apart by fate.

Blurb: Gundam Wing has to be one of the most inspiring animes of all time, at least in my personal life. I hope you enjoy this fiction as much as I did writing it. My homepage is if you'd like to take a gander.

Notes: So yeah. I had to finish the song, so this is the rest. I realize the first chapter had a lot of the lyrics from Sleepless Beauty involved in it, but it was just something I wanted done. So I'm going to try to develop my characters in this one, y'know, plot and stuff.

umarekawari no anata yo hitori hohoemanaide hitomi o irodoru

nozonda sekai ga totsuzen hai ni natte mo kiseki wa mada megurikuru

To the reincarnation of you, I say color your eyes without smiling alone.

Even if the world you've longed for has suddenly burned to ash, the miracle could still happen to come again.

After the ride home, Quatre came up to my room, where I lay, staring at the ceiling.

"Duo," he said, "What happened?"

"He...Zechs...he's gone again," my voice trembling with angst.

"Well..."

"It's not fair. Everytime he visits me..."

"Duo, you can't let him do this to you anymore. You have to either fix things...or change them."

When Quatre said this to me, I couldn't even conceive why he would mention such a drastic measure. All that was in my mind was Zechs. The scent of his absolutely beautiful hair, the touch and sensation of his ripped body. The excitement we shared together on moonlit nights when all was right, even if things only got worse the next day. Quatre left the room, leaving me to ponder my reality.

Maybe I should keep him...

After the day alone in my room, I exited the bedroom in hopes of finding Quatre still home. As I looked around, I found the mansion completely amiss Quatre. When I looked in the kitchen, I found a note:

Duo, gone out with Trowa!

Fourth date, so I might not come home

for a while...get your self something to

eat and get sleep.

Love, Quat

I kind of smiled at the thought of Quatre and Trowa...on a fourth date, if you know what I mean. I had only met Trowa once before, but he seemed like a nice guy. He gave a...secure vibe, even though no matter which way you looked at him his bangs always covered his left eye. Quat seemed to like him, so I approved. Deciding that food would probably be a good idea, I looked into the fridge. 3 day old chinese-yuck-and something from who knows when was all that was in the fridge. Settling on ordering a pizza instead, Duo picked up the phone and placed his order with the nearby pizzeria.

todokanu hikari no yukue azayaka ni mau omoi o egakou

michibiku kotoba ga koborete shimawanu you ni utsuru toki o osorenaide

Let's depict the vividly dancing thoughts found in that place of light that is unreachable even now.

Don't fear the passage of time, so that words of guidance won't completely spill out and flow away.

Impatiently waiting for the arrival of my extra-large-pepperoni-sausage-and-extra-sauce delight, which I planned on eating entirely by myself, I sat on the couch in the parlor. About 25 minutes after I had called, the doorbell rang. Oh too quickly, I jumped up and stumbled to the door. Peering through the spyhole to see a delivery guy's back, whistling and looking out onto the front lawn.

"Oooh, pizza..." I said as I opened the door. The delivery guy turned around quickly and as soon as I looked up I was met with someone that was not here to bring me pizza. Well, he had my pizza, but this was not the guy from Tony's Pizzeria. This was Zechs.

"WHAT are you doing here?" I demanded. "You left!"

Not waiting for a response, I turned on heel and ran upstairs to my room. Shutting the door behind me, I dove onto my bed.

"Duo?" He called. I know he wasn't here to deliver a pizza. He was here to use me.

"Get the hell out of here, Zechs!" I screamed, muffled by the pillow and my own tears.

"Duo," Zechs said.

I had forgotten to lock that stupid door!

I heard the click of the latch being opened. The creak of my door, and then footsteps.

"You left..." I said into my pillow.

"Duo."

"No!" I screamed now, tears flooding my eyes.

I wanted him to go, to leave me alone, and let me cry and get it over with. But I wanted him to stay, to make me feel.

"Zechs..." I let out. "Zechs..."

He came to me, sitting next to my body on the bed. I was still laying on my stomach, into the pillow, but he held me. He held me for what must have been an eternity. There was just him, the solid feeling of what he could give me. Security when I felt most insecure. If I wasn't insane for him, I would have made him leave, forever, never to enter my prescence again. But I was in love, love that made me feel like I needed.

(sotto dakishimete zutto tsukamaete motto kokoro made kowasu you ni)

(Hold me gently, always catch me, more and more, in order to break my heart)

I don't know why I let him, but he stayed for the night again. There was no love making, no hot climax of raging desire, there was nothing but our warmth. My dreams were full of confusion, feeling of love but the horrible chance of him going away.

When I awoke, he was there. Zechs was there, slumbering next to me. I slid quietly and softly out of the bed and out of the bedroom. I was a wreck. There was nothing to me, then I fell.

I don't know. I've been starting a new relationship with an absolute god of a man lately, and today I just did not feel great. Nervous really, and I don't know how I'm going to cope, except write more. Thanks to Nikkler for reviewing. More R and R, please! As I can say, just wait a bit more and I will get another chapter out.