A/N: I know I haven't cleared this up, but I just made this up. Malachite, Nephrite, Zoicite, Jadeite, and Mamoru were sophomores when the five girls came to the college. When the men were in their senior year, Malachite and Makoto started going out. When the women were seniors, Makoto and Malachite started living together. The year after, they got their house and were living in it ever since... well, until just now. So that makes three years that they were together. I hope that cleared it up if anyone was confused... I almost confused my damn self. (L.O.L) But this is Malachite's POV. My brain needs a rest since I just finished the 10th chapter, but I won't post it for a few days... just to make you suffer... (L.O.L) This starts before he and Makoto start going out. It may help you to see his point of view more since you're probably thinking he's a selfish bastard. Don't get it wrong; I'm not condoling cheating because I don't like cheaters myself. Anyways, on with the story!!!! Oh, by the way, the lines tell you it's a time change.
Pleasures For You:
Malachite's POV:
Senior year in college...
I can't believe that I'm thinking of my best friend like this! I've known Nephrite since... since we were toddlers... I can't think like this about him...
A week later...
"Malachite... I've been thinking about something. Now if you start to feel uncomfortable, we don't have to talk about it, but..."
"Neph... please say what you have to... I'll listen. You know we're like brothers."
With a big breathe, Nephrite said, "Malachite, I don't know if you've noticed, but I think there are strong sexual feelings between us."
Did my ears just deceive me? Did he really just say what I think he said? As he stood there and looked at me, I could only think of the day when I realized that I loved him.
Senior year in high school...
"Hey Mally, you want a beer?"
"Neph, you know I don't drink that crap. I don't even know how you can 'cause it's just gross!"
"Hey, don't knock the hustle! Look, after what happened with you and Amira, you need one."
(A/N: Not Amira as in Haruka because I have been using their actual names... well, except for Malachite cuz I forget his Japanese name)
"Yeah, but I deserved it... I was horrible to her."
"How do you figure? You gave that girl the world and she cheated on you. You need someone who's going to love you for you, man."
"Neph..."
"Don't argue... shit... if I was a broad, I'd fuck you... not even just that. You're a really great guy."
I blushed.
"You really think so?"
"Yeah, if I was gay, I think I'd tongue you down right now."
I thought, for sure, that it was the beer talking and not Nephrite, but when I looked in his eyes, I could see the sincerity. I knew I wasn't gay but I couldn't help catching a boner from it from him.
Later that night, we went out to a party. We saw Amira there, but I didn't take much notice. She ran up to me, crying and shit talking about how her man left her and now she couldn't live without me. I was about to forgive her, in my ignorance, when Nephrite came to may side. He told her off, telling her she wasn't shit and that she didn't deserve me. Throughout his whole speech, I thought I saw him look at me in an intimate way, so I blushed. He gave me a questioning look, so I just went into the bathroom. He came in a few minutes later to ask if I was ok. I told him I was and I figured, because he didn't bring it up, that he hadn't noticed my blush.
Back to senior year in college...As I sat there thinking about that time, Nephrite continued. "I know that you like Makoto and I know that you wouldn't dare appear any other way than straight in front of anyone else, but I can't help but to ask you if you possibly want to experiment with me. This would be my first gay experience as well... look; you don't have to if you don't want to... Look, why don't I give you awhile to think about because I can tell you're a bit shocked. If you don't, we won't have to ever talk about this again."
With that, Nephrite walked out of the room. I stood there, stunned and amazed. I didn't know what to say. I wasn't sure what I could say to him next time I saw him. That was another thing... Makoto. I think she knows that I like her... but now... damn it!!! I'm so confused... I don't know what to do about my feelings for her. I don't know what to do about me feelings for him. Maybe I could have them both. Nah... they wouldn't go for that and it wouldn't be fair. But...
A month later...
"Nephrite, are sure about this?"
"Mally, look... we should explore these things... we have been talking about this for awhile now..."
"Nephrite... alright, but this doesn't leave this room, ok?"
"You have my word, Mally."
I was so very unsure about this whole thing. I walked over to Nephrite, who had his arms extended. As soon as I reached him, Nephrite hugged me. After a few moments in the hug, Nephrite tilted my chin up to him. For the first time, I realized how beautiful Nephrite's eyes were.
Since that night a month ago, we agreed that we would do this one-day... I just wasn't sure it would come this soon. I have been battling what I feel for him and Makoto. I feel so strongly about her... and I want to ask her out, but what about Nephrite? He knows how I feel... and he has no problem with being second... No! I can't do this to them.
As soon as I was about to stop this, I snapped out of my thoughts as I felt Nephrite's tongue trying to get into my mouth. I opened my mouth with a hunger that I didn't know was there. I knew there was something I had to say to him, but for the life of me, I couldn't remember. No, the only thoughts I had was that I loved this man that was in my arms. I thought of no one else but him.
Once we pulled back, I remembered what I had to say and felt wonderful, but horrible. I felt like I just opened a can of worms that I should have just left the lid on.
Nephrite smiled at me and I felt like melting at the moment. His smile... so diviner, so... I don't even think words could describe the passion that filled through me. He and I had been friends for so many years... so many years of me wanting him, and now, I have him. I wasn't quite sure that's what I wanted anymore because I wanted Makoto.
After what seemed like an eternity, I found out how to use my vocal cords again. That kiss was something else... something I never thought I would experience.
"Nephrite... I don't know if this is wise. I... I think I'm on the verge of falling in love with Makoto."
It looked as if his whole world collapsed. He opened his mouth to say something, but closed it.
"Mally, we were only experimenting. We never have to do this again if that's what you want."
"Neph... I do want this... us... but I want Makoto as well. This won't be fair to either one of you, so I need to think about this whole situation."
With kissing me on my cheek, he just walked out the room.
The next day...
"Mako-chan, will you meet me in the student hall at eight?" I rehearsed to himself. I was more than elated when I found out that the four girls would be coming to the college that we attended, but even more ecstatic that Makoto would be there. I've known that I have loved her since the first day we met. Well, maybe it wasn't love, but what I feel is very strong about her.
"Ok, now all I have to do is call her... damn!!!"
A few minutes later...
"Hello... Mako-chan? Hi... I'm fine. Yeah, well, I was wondering if... I was wondering if you wanted to join me in the student hall at eight. Oh, you would? Ok, great... I'll see you then."
Well, I sat the whole day and night deciding what I should do... and I chose Makoto. I did have such a strong love for Nephrite... but I wanted to know where me and Makoto's relationship would go. Curiosity killed the cat, but satisfaction brought him back...
Three years later...
"Mally, you can't deny the sexual tension between us during these past two years... you know, I can't believe I let you get out of my grasp before, but I'm not gonna let it happen again."
Nephrite had me pinned up against his office desk. We planned that afternoon to have lunch, but he told me to meet him in his office first. Things between us were pretty much the same as it was three years ago when we first kissed. We acted as if nothing happened between us, but now, this was something we couldn't avoid. I knew this day was going to come sooner or later, but I would have preferred for the later. Way later...
"Neph... you know we can't do this... not here, not now."
Nephrite kissed me. I felt like I was floating, but unlike three years ago, I knew I had to stop it. The only problem was that I had nowhere to go, nowhere to retreat to. I had to stand there and succumb to his will... not that I didn't want to... I knew this was wrong because I loved Makoto with all my heart. As a matter of fact, I want to marry her. But all the while, I couldn't think straight. My blood boiled with passion for this man that was my best friend. I love him... I really do, but...
With all the strength I could muster up, I pushed him away. Nephrite was always stronger than me, but I managed to push him a few steps away from me.
He looked at me with fear, sorrow, rage, and unbelief, all struggling to be the only emotion on his face. He looked like I just slapped him.
"Malachite... tell me you don't want this right now and I will never again..."
"Neph," I put my hand on his face, "I do want this, but this isn't fair to Makoto and this isn't fair to you."
"I know, but... if I can't have you all to myself... I can just share you."
"Nephrite..."
His finger covered my lips to silence me.
"Listen, I know this isn't right, but... I just can't let you go and I don't want to have to. Now, do you want this?"
I knew this day, these minutes, these seconds...this moment would change my life for better or worse.
"...Yes."
Months later...
"Hey baby! I'm so glad... what's wrong?"
I was preparing our dinner when Makoto came home. She looked so angry.
"How could you? After all I have done for you, all that I have given to you... This is how you repay me!"
"Mako... baby... what on earth are you talking about?"
"You were fucking Nephrite behind my back the whole fucking time!!!"
I didn't know what to say to her... I couldn't believe she found out. I just stood there with my mouth opened slightly ajar. I felt so... betrayed. I couldn't believe Nephrite would go behind my back and tell Makoto about us.
"Mako-chan, I..."
Slap!
"Malachite, it is over. I never want to see you again! I can't believe you would do this to me!"
"Makoto, I never meant..."
"Oh, you never meant to hurt me, right? Do you realize you were hurting me even time you fucked him? Or how about all those nights when I thought you had business with him or arguments or what ever else, you were just playing touch me here grab me there with him!" With a quick moment of thought, Makoto put everything together. "It was him, wasn't it?"
"What... it was him when?"
"That night I saw you across the street in the restaurant kissing another girl... it was him, wasn't it."
"Makoto..."
"Answer the fucking question! Was is Nephrite you were kissing or not?"
"Yes, but I told him that he and I couldn't see each other for a while. I told him how much I love you and how I want to marry you."
"Why don't you go and marry him cause it definitely won't be me."
"Makoto..."
"It's over, Malachite. I'll be staying with people who really care about me. By the end of the week, I want all your shit out of my house."
"Makoto..."
With that, she walked into our bedroom and grabbed a bunch of clothes. She stormed out of the door without even giving me a goodbye look. I felt so hurt, but my anger took over me. I knew I had to go to the source of this whole thing and it wasn't going to be pretty.
I drove over to his house like a madman.
"NEPHRITE!" I yelled towards his window.
"Oh, hey Malachite. How are you?"
"Don't be fucking coy with me... come down here, now!"
I couldn't believe he was going to act like everything was all fucking fine and dandy!
"Alright, hold on."
As soon as he started to try and explain I punched him in the face.
"Malachite! That wasn't called for!" Nephrite yelled.
"Oh, I'll tell you what wasn't called for. Why the fuck did you tell Makoto about us?!" I yelled back.
Just as Nephrite was about to answer, I jabbed him in the jaw. Nephrite coughed up a little blood and although I didn't mean to, rage and betrayal took over me. He called upon his power, so I called upon mine. Our skins glowed, light dancing in the shadows. We stood there for a second, just staring each other down. Nephrite charged at me and when I tried to dodge, he tackled me to the ground. We struggled, both trying to over power one another, for a good minute. I finally caught Nephrite in the jaw. Neph gave me a fake out and I went for it. He caught me in the nose and I could feel and hear the bone break.
I couldn't believe it came down to blow-to-blow between us... and not the good kind that I loved to do with him. He continued with blow after blow, body-shot to face-shot... taking all of his anger and frustration out on me.
Well, because we hadn't exerted this much fighting energy since we fought with the Sailor Soldiers, we were both exhausted.
Nephrite rolled off of me.
He simply said, "You're not worth this energy. ...It's over, Malachite... it's over."
I was amazed, hurting, and shocked beyond belief. Before I had any chance to say anything to Nephrite, Nephrite went back inside his house, staggering and all. I just lay down on the cold ground for a minute, realizing what happened.
'Wow... two relationships in one day...a fight... that I lost... what else can happen today?' I thought to myself.
With that thought, I rolled over and got up. I walked, unsteadily, to my car. I cried all the way to the house that Makoto and I had once shared. Then I remembered that she wanted me out by the end of the week made me cry more.
Once I got to the beautiful house that Makoto wanted so badly, I collapsed on the bed because of tiredness and pain, emotionally and physically. I cried myself to sleep that night and the seven days and nights after.
Night after night, I just thought about all the things that Makoto and I shared in this house. I remembered how we got the house... after the fire in our old apartment. And I remembered how she went to Japan to see my mother just to get all my old baby pictures back that had been burned. She even put them in a photo album for me.
I remembered all the times we made love in the last three years, even if I lost count. I remembered when we first got into this house, how we christened every room, from the kitchen to the bathroom to the roof to the front and back porch.
I just couldn't believe it was ending like this and I knew I had to find out why on earth Nephrite would tell her. He told me he wanted to share me... he told me he loved me... why would he do this to me...
This made me remember back to the night before all of this happened. I just saw Nephrite...
I met Nephrite at the spot were we always have lunch. For some reason, I could have sworn I was being followed, so I was looking around nervously.
"You have to stop calling me like this. Makoto may find out."
I have to admit, the little getup Nephrite was in was quite amusing, but this was no time for fun and games.
Wearing a big hat and a big pair of sunglasses, Nephrite replied, "Don't worry; she'll never suspect you're cheating on her. She's too in love with you to believe you'd cheat on her with another woman... let alone a man." He said the last with a warm smile that would make anyone cream in his or her underwear.
I grabbed onto the other man's hands.
"I know, Nephrite, but you never know. We have to keep this low-key... which is why I don't think we should see each other for awhile."
Nephrite grabbed onto my hands tighter.
"Mally... I love you... I need you... Don't get me wrong, I like Mako-chan just as much as the next person, but why do I have to come second to her? You and I were together before you even know her."
"Neph, I know... and as much as I love you, I love her a lot... I want to marry her."
Rising out of his seat, Nephrite almost yelled at me.
"What the fuck! No... hell no!! It's out of the question!"
"Neph, please calm down... just sit and listen."
"Look, why don't we talk about this later."
I stood and put my hands on his shoulders.
"I love you... never forget that."
I smiled at him and he returned his beautiful smile.
"I love you too, Mally."
Nephrite leaned in and gave me a kiss. At first, I was stiff against him since I still had a distinct feeling that someone was following me. I, eventually, melted into in the kiss. My love fed at my tongue, hungrily. A few minutes later, we parted from each other.
Current moment...
I have to find a way to talk to him... but how?
A/N: I know... very long chappie, but hey, you had to know everything going on, you know? I think I'll do Nephrite's POV since no one knows why he told her... I haven't decided. I hope this cleared up some of you guys' uncertainty of any kind and I hope you liked it. Review please!
