(Become So Numb – 16)
"Just back the fuck off! What the fuck do you know! Nothing! That's what!" Eiri growled storming out of the room. Erica and Ryuichi had cornered him, singing a couple of songs that had touched home with him.
Ryuichi grabbed Eiri's arm trying to keep him from leaving and Eiri turned around clean cocking him right in the face. Ryuichi fell like a brick and Erica came to his side as Eiri stormed out officially. Shuiichi didn't know what to think, he was standing there, tears pouring down his face, torn between his idol and his lover.
"Tohma, he hit Ryuichi!" Shuiichi gasped.
"Ryuichi deserved it." Tohma said coldly. Erica glared over at him and Ryuichi looked at him with wide blue eyes. "That's right Ryuichi. You know exactly how he reacts to things like that. You… and you…" He pointed to Erica. "Deserve anything he dishes out to you now."
"Where are you going?" Shuiichi asked as Tohma emerged from his bedroom moments later dressed and ready to leave.
"I am going to go find Eiri." Tohma growled.
"Maybe you should let him sort it out on his own." Ryuichi said darkly.
"Maybe I should let him slit his wrists too… but I am not going to." Tohma said angrily. Erica thought that Tohma had infinite patience with Ryuichi, but apparently that patience just reached its end.
"Maybe you aren't the best one to go after him." Erica said softly. Honestly she meant that it would be better for Shuiichi to go after him, but Tohma rounded on her, those icy eyes set on hers.
"Really, than, since you broke him! You fix him!" He growled taking her hand in his and slapping the keys down in her hand. She flinched as the jagged keys hit her hand, but Tohma was beyond caring. "You think you can do it, Little Miss Fix-It, be my guest! But when you come back empty handed because he blew his brains out all over the wall don't come crying to me!" He would turn and storm away.
Erica felt like she was in a dream as she went down and got into the car with Ryuichi. She didn't even know where to start looking for him, but she knew that if she wanted to be completely alone in the middle of the night, she would probably go to a graveyard. A big one, so that there was no chance that you could accidentally be found within it's wall.
"I didn't mean for this to happen." She said to Ryuichi as she they pulled out of the hotel parking lot. "I only wanted to open his eyes."
"And you did. It certainly isn't your fault that he didn't like what he saw." Ryuichi answered turning those blue eyes her way. She smiled slightly at him, how was it that he always managed to make her feel better. It was like as long as he was there nothing could go wrong.
"There's Eiri's car!" Erica said pointing to the red sports car parked outside the cemetery. She slipped out of the car and ran in. There was a small building inside that was once used as a small chapel but had long since been converted to a shed for the maintenance people. She got a boost up from Ryuichi who stood below, keeping an eye. Once up on it, she climbed the steep roof, grabbing onto the old cross she would look around. There were very few people there, so, when she saw that tall figure dressed all in black, she knew who it was right off.
"Catch!" She said as she slipped off the edge of the roof, Ryuichi did indeed catch her. "He is over there. Let me go and talk to him. He might take it better coming from me than you."
Ryuichi nodded and walked back over to the cars, leaning against the black jaguar that belonged to Tohma. Erica walked, as if on a funeral march over to the area that she had seen Eiri in. It started to rain as she walked.
"Great." She said coming around a corner, she recognized the large gravestone and then scanned over two to the one that she had seen Eiri leaning on. She heard the distinctive click of his lighter and the smell of cigarette smoke filled the air.
"You certainly have gall." His cold voice said to her. "Following me here. However your efforts are in vain, you can leave now, and do so with a clear mind. I don't want to be your pity session."
"Eiri, I don't see you like that." Erica said. She wanted to tell him that she knew what he had gone threw, but could she, most likely not, because then Shuiichi would get yelled at because Eiri would think that Shuiichi told her.
"Really." He said slowly standing up and turning to look at her, those soulless gold eyes eating threw her. "What do you call it?"
"Understanding." As soon as she said it, she regretted it; the empty look in those eyes seemed to turn to fire.
"UNDERSTANDING!" Eiri growled. "You don't understand SHIT! You don't know anything about me, yet I become your fix it project!"
"No… it's not like that…" She tried to explain.
"Really than tell me what it is like!" He growled.
"I don't know what you have been through really, but I know that you blame it on yourself!" Erica stammered. Trying not to say to much. "Whatever happened to you, you think it was your fault."
Those eyes wavered for a moment before the heat rose again.
"Do I have a sign on my forehead?" He growled. "A little Out of Order sign, are you the Eiri Repair Man?"
"No… I…" She started.
"NO! Let me tell you." Eiri said he stepped forward and put his finger in her face. "You are a teenaged girl dealing with an adult issue. You have no idea what has happened to me. What I have done, what I am feeling? And yet you think, that because you upset me you have to fix me. Well no one can Erica! Not you, Shuiichi, Tohma, Mika, Ayaka… no one! So just fucking give up. Until you know what I have been through, just stop trying to fix it!"
"Tell me than!" Erica was surprised when she yelled at him.
"Fuck you. You don't need to know my life." And with that the black-garbed figure of Eiri Yuki slipped past her. She felt herself draw away from his touch; almost afraid he was going to hit her out of sheer anger.
