I redid this chapter so it might be easier to read. Please tell me what you think about it and about the story line too.

This is the first Fan Fiction I have ever written. If there is something wrong then please tell me. I won't get mad. I'll take as much help as I can get.

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"Do you have to go mom?" the little boy begged his mother with tears in his eyes.
"Yes, you know that. Whats wrong we go out all the time and you don't get this upset."
"I dunno something just feels wrong."The boy whimpered

"Everything is going to be fine son. Listen to your mother Garfield shes right we'll be back in a few hours safe and sound."

Gar hung his head in defeat he had been trying to get them to change there minds since he found out they were going out yesterday.

"Cheer up we should get some good stuff today and maybe some pictures for you." The man said tring to cheer his son up.

"Its time to go know. Mr. and Mrs. Logan" An older man called to them.

"Goodbye son." His dad said placing his hand on his shoulder. "Goodbye" he whispered back. Then his mother bent down and gave him a hug. "We'll be carefull okay.Now can I have a kiss for luck?" The boy just stared at the ground. "Okay. Then goodbye.And be careful while we're gone." The hurt clear in her voice. She got up and started to walk away.

When they got several yards away the boy started to cry. WAIT! He yelled, he ran to them and flung himself at them. His mother picked him up and hugged him. He squeezed her with all his might.

"I'm sorry he sobbed into her shoulder." he started shaking uncontrollably and his mother rocked him back and forth. When he finaly quieted down a little he said
"I'm sorry ma please don't go I know something bad is gonna happen please!"

"Gar its okay. We have to go."
When hi tears were almost dried up.She asked "Now can I have my kiss goodbye?" He gave his mom a kiss. "I love you mom."
"Oh I love you to. And hey look at me" she waited till he looked her in the eye.
"We are coming back do you hear me. We are. We'll be fine okay."

He nodded reluctantly even though he didnt belive his mothers words.

She got up and his dad knelt down beside him. "You have to be strong son be a man." That was a funny thing to say to a seven year old he thought but that was like his dad, he told him stuff like that all the time. He thought it was because his dad wanted him to be strong and not let things like this get to him so it wouldn't worry his mother.
He might be seven but he wasnt stupid.

"Okay" he said. a little more confidently than he felt.
His dad gave him a hug and got up and started to walk away.

"I love you dad!"Gar cried the tears returning to his eyes and threatening to spill over at any moment.
The man stopped and turned around. And looked at his son.
"I love you too."

Then turned around and jumped aboard the boat. He helped his wife aboard and after telling the captin they were ready the boat started to leave. The couple stood at the rail watching there son.

He waved and they waved back, his mother blowing kisses to him.
He stood watching them leave and he knew it was forever.
He stood there with silent tears streaming down his face.

And then it happened what he was waiting and dreading to happen ever since he started having this feeling happened in one life altering moment every thing was taken from a small helpless child. The boat they were on blew up right in front of him taking all he had with it
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Beast boy screamed as he shot up in bed he was drenched in a cold sweat he couldn"t breath at first. He felt like mammoth had hit him in the chest again. He finaly gasped for breath being able to take in some much needed air he started gulping in air to fill his burning lungs and still his spinning head.

It was that dream again, the one that brought all those memorys that he wanted to forget back. he felt like all the stuff in the dream had just happened to him.

The pain was so intence he felt like screaming again but he knew that he would be fortunate if the first one hadn't woken the reast of the Titans up, he wasn't about take a chance on doing it again. He did'nt wan't them to know all his secrets.

B. B. open up! Cyborg yelled knocking so hard Beast Boy was sure the door would fall down at any second.

No such luck he thought I already woke them up. But then again he didn't belive in luck.

He hoped out of bed and rushed over to the door and opened it before he needed a new one from all cys banging.

"Beast Boy are you okay." Robin was on full alert ready for anything.

"Yes friend Beast Boy are you well?"
Starfires consern made Beast Boy uncomfortable he felt he didn't deserve it.
Yes Star I'm okay.

"Well what happened! Cyborg asked.

"Bad dream." Beast boy replied drily.

"Now can I go back to bed?" "But of course Beast Boy we were only worried that something was harming you ."(A.N. Its hard to write the way Starfire talks LOL)

"Yeah BB you don't have to be so rude man."
They all walked away to there own rooms mumbling about how rude Beast Boy was.

He shut the door and turned around he knew he'd never get back to sleep again. Not sure if he wanted to. He looked at his alarm clock it read 2:34am.

"Aw man." He muttered to himself as he sat at his desk and got out a pad of paper.
He rumaged through a drawer till he found what he was looking for and then turned back to his desk.

"Is there something I can help you with?" he asked semingly no one.

"How did you know I was here?" a voice asked from the shadows.

"I know whenever your around." he replied .

"I don't know wether to take that as a complament or an insult." Raven said walking out of the darkness.

"you may not belive me but I meant it in a good way.

" I belive you."She wondered what he meant by what he said.It made her feel embarressed for some reason she didnt know.

"So you gonna tell me what you wanted?" He asked

"You gonna tell me what's bothering you?"

"Oh that."

"Well?" she prompted.

"Its a long story." he said.

"My favourite kind."She told him encouragingly.

"Are you sure you wanna know? I don't want to burden you with anything."

He is not at all what he seems sometimes. He seems so annoying and stupid all the time.

"There is alot more to you then what you let on isn't there?"
"Why do you act the way you do if your not really like that?"

"How do you know what I'm like?"
"I have made sure that none of you know anything about me."
"That all you see is that annoying pest. I have to be that guy if I'm going to get through every day with all this guilt I feel and not make you guys worried or upset."

"What do you feel guilty about?" She asked she was shoked from what he had just said to her. "You can tell me. I want to help you."

He looked in her eyes. It seemed he was trying to tell if he could trust her.
He was surprised she even cared but not in a bad way he was glad she cared.
He didn't want to admit it but he needed someone to talk to.

"What do you want to know?"

"What ever you need to tell me."

This is why he loved Raven she always seemed to know what people were feeling.
Even though she couldn't

He wished he could trade places with her so she could feel.
So she could feel what its like to read a sad book and cry, or watch a funny movie and laugh. And more then anything he wished she could love, even if it wasn't him that she loved.

He new that love was the best thing you could feel and there were two kinds of love.
He wanted her to feel GODs love most,
but he also wanted her to feel his love for her and maybe return it.

He knew it wasnt impossible for her to feel just that she couldn't with out destroying something and she wouldnt alow herself to do that.

"Beast boy please tell me."
Pleading with someone was not something she was used to doing and she didnt like it, but she really wanted to help
Like it or not she had actually started haveing feelings for the green shape shifter.

He remained silent staring at his desk.

"Okay fine be that way. She got up and turned to leave.

" I guess it would be better if you heard this from the begining."

He said finale giving in to the need to tell some one. After all these years of holding every thing in he was starting to wonder if he was going crazy cause he knew it deffinatly was't healthy.

She turned back around and and sat on the edge of his bed to listen.

"I was three when my mom and dad moved us to Africa so they could study animals for there reaserch.
We had lived there for two years When this deadly diseas swept through the whole continent.(A.N. I am just making this up)

It killed thousands. Everyone who got it died."

He looked up at Raven. She was giveing him her full attention.
He wasn't used to that. No one ever paid that much mind to him. Nothing he said ever even earned him half there attention unless they were mad at him.

"Then I got it."

He watched her when he said this wanting to see her reaction.

Most people probably couldn't see her reactions but thats because they didnt pay attention like he did.

He was used to her suttle shows of emotion.
So suttle that they wouldnt set her powers off.

She blinked a couple of times and looked away for a second.

"But obviously I didnt die or I wouldnt be sitting here."
He said trying to lighten the mood.

She resumed staring at him waiting for him to continue.

"At first I didnt belive I was sick. I hadnt felt sick at all I felt normal.
But then I got really sick one day."


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