Kohaku's Emotions
Shippou smiled as Kagome helped him put his things into his bookbag. He didn't have to finish everything, but him, as well as the other children did, Friday. Kagome kissed him on his forehead before he ran off to go and change out of his school clothes. Rin stood up from the table, and avoiding the look that Kagome gave her, bounded up the stairs loudly and slammed her door behind her. What's wrong with Rin? She's acting funny. Sniffing the air, she wrinkled her nose as she heard Kohaku's door slam after he walked by and ran upstairs. Why do I smell a spider youkai, and it's blood? Sighing in absolute relief that it was Friday and that she didn't have to go to work until Monday, she sat back in her chair as Sango walked in with Kazuyu. Taking a seat painfully and stiffly next to Kagome, the young miko had to stifle an outright laugh as Sango groaned
"It's not funny." She accused as Kagome let out choked attempts to keep from laughing. Kagome shrugged as she set Kazuyu in her lap.
"I was thinking, maybe I should take the kids over Mama's house, let it just be the four of us. How do you think that would fare?" Sango shrugged.
"I dunno. It seems that your mother, as well as Souta would like the company. How about you give her a call? I'm sure she would love to do it." Kagome smiled as she set the young baby between his mother's legs. Walking solely over to the living room table, she picked up the cordless and walked back over, taking a seat next to Sango again as InuYasha walked into the room and kissed her on her cheek.
"She's calling her mom, seeing if she would like to take the kids for the weekend." She explained after taking a look at InuYasha's quizzical glance. Nodding, he asked her where was all the kids.
"In their rooms. Why?" InuYasha raised his eyebrows, and Sango shrugged.
"Maybe they are just getting used to being at a place to call home. I just thought of something. Maybe Rin should go and stay with Sesshomaru." Kagome looked over from being on the phone with her mother and nodded as she told her mother Rin was going to go with Sesshomaru.
"I dunno, but maybe, you should talk to Souta before you leave about Kohaku. I don't know what's wrong, but I can smell nervousness, as well as pain coming from him." Sango looked startled, but nodded as Kazuyu began hammering away on her legs. Grabbing her stomach, she looked down and growled at him to stop before she groaned and closed her eyes as the baby gave her a good kick for being rude to her older brother. After Kagome hung up, she sighed and looked at the two people next to her.
"Well, it seems that she'll be more than glad to take them." The phone started ringing again, and after wincing from the phone being so close to her ears, she picked it up rather quickly. "Hello? Yes, this is Kagome Higurashi. Yes….uh-huh….Oh? Really?..." Kagome looked startled as she fell silent. "Ok…thank you I understand. I'll talk to them both. Yes….have a nice weekend. You too. Buh-bye." Kagome sighed as she walked over and sat down in front of Sango. Rubbing her temple in her hands before she spoke, she tried not to notice that look of absolute worry that Sango and InuYasha were giving her.
"That was Kohaku's teacher. Something….happened at recess today." Sango looked completely sick, but said nothing as she picked Kazuyu up. InuYasha straightened his shoulders and frowned deeply. "It seems, that the school has some bullies. I already know, they used to mess with Souta. I do not know what happened, all I know is that when the teacher was notified, Kohaku was fighting, and severly injured the boy to the point where he had to be taken to the guidance counselor for the rest of the day. She doesn't know what happened, but she suggests anger management classes for him." Sango tried to stand up, but InuYasha put a hand on her shoulder, glaring down the hallway, at the stairs that led upstairs.
"No, I'll talk to them. Kagome, we'll talk later." Not staying in time to hear what Kagome wanted to say, he quickly glided up the stairs.
"I don't understand. We always taught him never to harm a human. What went wrong?" Kagome shrugged.
"If he was youkai, I would have smelled it on them. I don't understand either." She said as she began rubbing her temple with her fingers again while she squeezed her eyes closed. Trying to pray that Kohaku had a good explanation for why he pummeled a boy mercilessly, she sighed as she looked at Sango, who looked as deeply worried as she was.
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InuYasha closed the door behind him as he crossed his arms and glared at Kohaku, who was sitting on the floor in front of the television set that Kagome had bought all the kids. Clearing his throat, he could smell the anger, as well as the blood of the youkai that he pummeled all over him, and he stifled a growl as she cleared his throat once more. Kohaku peered at him out the corner of his eyes, never making a slight movement, showing InuYasha that he was angry, had no intention of breaking down. But InuYasha didn't take the bait. He glower was deeper, his scowl heavier, his snarl more frightening, and end the end, Kohaku sighed as he turned his T.V off.
InuYasha opened his mouth to begin talking, but Kohaku beat him to it. "Did you talk to Rin?" InuYasha shook his head as he leaned against the door to stop anyone from walking in. "I think you should talk to her."
"I think I should talk to you. What happened, and I want the truth." He said sternly, so sternly Kohaku turned and gave him a threatening glare, but seeing as the stubborn hanyou didn't flinch an inch, he sighed again and looked at the black screen.
"Well, I was eating lunch. Minding my business, when I saw Rin. She was sitting by herself, all by herself, under the huge tube that all the children were playing with. So, I went to her. She said she was hungry. I went to get her something to eat. I came back, that…insect," He said with a sneer of pure hatred for the youkai. " Was picking with her. She began crying, and he began pulling on her hair, when he asked her something that made her face turn red. Then, he got close to her. Too close."
"So you beat the living crap out of him." Kohaku said nothing as his fists balled.
" He was too close. No one can ever get that close to Rin." InuYasha grimaced at the rising tension growing in the room, and it was hardly the boy's fault. Having to live his teen years, the years where the one woman he choose was for his eyes only, that he got deathly, and fatally possessive, he had to endure on his on. Not having a man, to teach him to control his anger, and put that energy to better use, InuYasha felt that he, was best for this job. "She wouldn't say anything else to me the rest of the day, like she was hiding from me." His voice quavered. "The look on her face when I began laughing, smiling in fact…as she stared at my hands with his blood covered all over it….I don't know. I want her to feel protected, not terrified." InuYasha winced as the image came to his head.
He had a feeling that, even though he was just a preteen, Kohaku have gave the boy something he'd never forget. But, sighing, InuYasha twitched his ears as somebody walked by the door.
"I understand Kohaku. But sometimes, no matter how much you want to do it, pummeling the guy until kingdom come is not the answer. Trust me, I felt the same way that you did. But I had to endure it everyday. I felt that if I didn't, I would lose her, even though she told me time and time again that she didn't have interest in the guy, I was determined to give him something to run for.
That anger, that pure rage and fury that you have Kohaku…you have to put it to better use. Going around and sending every guy you think looks at Rin too hard into the hospital like you did this one boy is going to nothing but get you in this 'jail' K'Gome always talks about, and from the way she describes it, you don't want to go there. But think about this, talk to Rin. Tell her how you feel, and try to get her to understand what went through your mind at those moments. I'm going to talk to her first. I'll see you at supper." Noting how Kohaku kept his gaze purposely on the floor, InuYasha slipped out of the room, and instead, headed to Rins.
He could smell the tears and fear once he hit the hallway, and they did a number on his senses. Wanting to comfort the little girl that eased her way into his put together family, he walked quickly to her door and knocked softly. He heard rustling, before he heard a weak " Come in." Opening the door, he almost fell out as the smell of salt and absolute fear obliterated his senses once more. Looking around the room, he found her on the air bed in the middle of the floor, and walking over to it, he sank down into it. Draping his arm around her shoulder as he smelt a wave of salt approaching, he pulled her into his lap, and pushed her head deep into his chest as the tears startled flowing.
Smoothing her hair back, and whispering comforting words, he waited until her sobs were replaced by soft gasps for air as her body shook and quivered. Moving her bangs from her eyes, he made a low rumbling noise deep in his throat, seeing as that soothed her, he began talking.
"Do you want to talk about it?" She quickly shook her head and sighed as she laid her head back on his chest.
"No, but I guess I have to. He scared me Uncle Yasha." InuYasha stiffened at her new name, but soon relaxed as he felt a warm feeling in his chest that quickly surged through his body. "I was by myself, all the other girls in the class snickered and pointed at me. Saying that I was weird because my hair was too long and pretty, or that I thought I was better than them because I told them my father was Sesshomaru No Taisho." She began tugging at her hair softly, that now was down to the middle of her back absently. Frowning, he pried her fingers loose and gently raked his fingers through.
"So….what else happened?" She shrugged.
"Then, we went outside. I tried to get lunch, but I kept getting shoved out of line, so I went outside. Then I saw Kohaku." InuYasha could hear her heartbeat quicken at the mention of his name, and her fear take a dangerous turn. She gripped his shirt tightly as he began rubbing her back softly. "I was all by myself under the tube, and he kept me company. I told him what happened. He said he loved my hair, that it was perfect, and that the girls were right." InuYasha noticed that she began blushing slightly.
"What else did he say?"
"He said that to him, I was better than those girls could ever be. But then, I told him I was hungry, and he went to get me some food. But then, this boy named Kaneda came over and began picking with me, telling me that I was pretty and he wanted me to be his koibito. I told him that I wasn't interested in him. He kept persisting, and he began trying to pull me out from under. I began crying, and he lifted me by my hair. He was really strong Uncle Yasha. I screamed and tried to hit him, but my arms and legs were too short, then he tried to….do that thing you and Aunt Gome do."
"Kiss you mean?" She nodded.
"Yeah, then next thing I knew, Kohaku tackled him, and beat him bloody. I tried to tell him to stop, but I couldn't scream like I wanted to. When he tackled Kaneda, Kaneda threw me back, and I hit my head. It was ringing, and I felt dizzy. He tried to come over and help me, but blood was all over his hands and chest. I didn't want him to touch me. I saw him when he was fighting. His eyes….his face was tight…fierce….like when Father would transform, the way he would bear his fangs…Like you do." InuYasha raised his eyebrows as his rumbling stopped. Something wasn't right. Kohaku didn't normally just snap like that. Something had to be happening. But, Naraku didn't have ties on his anymore, so maybe Naraku's influence is still in his mind. Kill or be killed…protect what is yours…human or no human…Kohaku was raised by that of a blood lustful youkai. That InuYasha knew. Smoothing her hair one more time, InuYasha kissed her forehead.
"Everything's alright. You'll be ok. I want you to talk to Kohaku, and let me see where you hit your head." She pulled her hair back behind her ear, and InuYasha winced slightly. It was a fairly large bruise going the end of her cheek in front of her ear,until behind it. It was a deep black and purple, and InuYasha had a feeling that she should get it checked out. Maybe I should ask Sesshomaru so that I can see a doctor that he feels suitable for his 'daughter'. InuYasha thought as she placed her hair back to it's previous position to hide the bruise. Kissing her head one more time, and telling her that he'll be back to talk, InuYasha wasn't even standing yet when Kohaku opened the door, fidgeting nervously when his eyes locked with Rin's. InuYasha could feel how she become nervous, she gripped his shirt tightly and looked at him. Rubbing her delicate little fingers softly, she let go, and watched as InuYasha placed her back on the bed, and quietly slip out of the room, closing the door behind him.
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Kohaku sighed as he stared at Rin, who was sitting directly in front of him. Arms folded in her lap, her legs swinging absently under her, he had to admit, he had every right for beating the living crap out of that boy for even touching his Rin. She's not mines you baka. A voice in him sneered, ignoring it, he swallowed the lump in his throat.
"How does your head feel?"
"Fine." She squeaked as she fixed her gaze on the floor. Walking so that he was standing directly in front of her, he could practically hear her heartbeat pounding against her chest as she stiffened. Dropping to his knees, he strained his neck so that he was looking at her face. Eyes stuffy and swollen, puffy and red, but still remarkably beautiful to him, he wanted to reach out, and see if her cheeks were as soft as they looked, if her cherry lips kept the promise of complete satisfaction and her heart if he captivated them…if her eyes were really as clear, and able to allow him to see into her inner soul like he was able to do now; yet, he contained himself.
Watching as her eyes tried desperately not to lock with his, it seemed like an impossible task, as he stared in her face, his expression soft, yet worried, gentle, yet stern at the same time. No after effects of the face that she saw before was visible. Maybe she just imagined it. She hoped she did.
"Rin….I just want to say that I am sorry for doing that to that boy, and for scaring you. I have to learn to control my temper, but it's just that…seeing him with his hands on you…" Kohaku;s cheeks flushed as he sighed, words to complete his statement were now lost as her eyes locked with his. Brown eyes melting into hers, his breath caught in his throat as she blinked ever so slowly, enticingly….
"Kohaku…it's not your fault." She cooed softly as she tried to absently fix his hair. "The boy was going to get what he had coming, whether it was you or not." He closed his eyes and sighed softly as images of Sango rubbing his hair, talking to him softly the way she was doing now. Opening his eyes, he watched as her eyes took on a new glow, a fierceness that he never seen before, but he got lost in them, never wanting to find his way back.
"I never want to feel like that again. I liked what I was doing Rin. I was smiling…I felt free….I only felt like that when….when…Naraku had me under his control." Adverting his gaze onto her slim legs and ankles, he refrained from reaching out and running his finger along the pulsing vein that was visible through her pale skin.
"I understand…we can ask Father about this. He knows how it feels…he tells me that he's constantly fighting to maintain control, that his youkai natural instinct is to kill, how hard it is to maintain control, not letting his blood control him. Maybe….that's what you have to do. You have no choice but to submit to that little voice in the back of your mind….it's all you had for about 3 years. But, now is the time to fight now Kohaku." She said softly as she placed two fingers under his chin, forcing him to look her in her pleading eyes.
Being fourteen, new emotions and feelings rising up that he didn't quite understand, he repeatedly found his lips quivering, begging to captivate hers, wanting to taste them, suckle them, show her how much she meant to him. Once again, his gaze fell to her lips, and his stomach did odd turns as he closed his eyes in an attempt to stay sane.
Smiling, she began running her fingers through his hair again, removing the hair band that kept his mid-length raven hair together, allowing it to run like silk waterfalls over his shoulders. Smiling, he looked completely out of this world to her, and she never knew she could feel this way about anyone. Feeling something odd, like her stomach was doing cartwheels, she watched as his gaze fell to her lips, and she absently licked them, her face flushing deeply when he gave a weak attempt,(which failed) to suppress a groan.
"I'm scared Rin." He said as he scooted forward a little and laid his head in her lap. "I'm not scared of myself, particually, but I'm scared of what I am going to do. But my worst fear, is that I lose control and hurt you." Rin smiled slightly.
"You could never hurt me, whether your blinded by rage, or just lose control. No matter what happens to you, sometimes, a warriors heart is stronger than his mind and soul."
"Your what's in my heart." He said quickly, lifting his head to look at her. Smiling, she watched as his eyes twinkled, burned with a new emotion that she'd seen so many times before, but only now what the emotion was came as clear as day.
"Than in your heart, we both know that you won't hurt me. You don't want to…because…"
"I'm in love with you." Watching as her face took on a darker hue, but her eyes softened and moistened as her breath caught in her throat, he pushed himself up, hesitating a moment, before he fulfilled his windest dreams and took her lips into captivity.
Sharing their first kiss, he led her, nudged her to go on as he placed his hands on her legs to steady himself before he pulled her close to him. Suckling on her lower lip, something that came by instinct alone, he felt a hot surge toward his groan as she sighed against him and shuddered slightly as he raked his fingers through her hair. Sighing once more, she allowed him to show her his inner most thoughts, what led him through the day, what allowed himself to call himself a human in love.
Her. All of her.
Her scent, her very essence, everything about her made him smile, and at the same time, called out to him. But seeing as how they were young, and that he really didn't know much, he wanted the kiss to be so much more, her first kiss to be something that she'lll remember for the rest of her life. Running his tongue over her lower lip, she hesitated a little before slowly allowing him entrance. Slowly edging her on, teasing her with his tongue, twisting around hers, tasting her, he was satisfied as she imitated his movements, and sought to make the kiss deeper, surprising him, but he allowed it.
This time, however, she reached down and began rubbing his arms, making him moan against her as he wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled back. Pulling into a deep embrace, they stayed like that for a while, before they heard the familiar stomping of the hanyou they grown to love. Shifting to move, she tightened her hold on him. Looking at him through pleading eyes, he smiled as he kissed her on her cheek.
"They'll kill me. When you come of age, when I won't be murdered for proposing Rin, then we can make this known, but for right now…we have to keep things to a minimum." Smiling, she kissed him quickly on his lips once more before she let him stand up just as InuYasha walked into the room. Nose wrinkling, she was fully aware that he knew what they did, but the way he looked at Kohaku when he walked out, she knew that it was a secret that he can keep. Outstretching a hand, he watched as she got up.
"Sesshomaru'll skin him alive if he found out." Rin nodded.
"But he isn't…right Uncle Yasha?" Smiling, InuYasha nodded as he led her to the dining room. Seeing as almost everyone was sitting at the table, InuYasha frowned.
"Where's Kagome?"
"She went to see her mother. She asked us to have dinner without her." InuYasha shook his head.
"Oh no she don't." He said as she walked towards the door. "I'll be back. I'm going to drag her hind-parts home."
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Yoko grinned as she looked at the spider youkai that stood in front of her.
"Well, I understand. But….how will it aide me?" She asked sweetly as she adjusted the kimono that barely held over her shoulders. Frowning, she released her hair from the ponytail that she had, running her fingers through the red locks as it streamed over her shoulders, and fell on the delicate skin of her chest and thighs. Yellow eyes shining with excitement, she had never felt better in decades.
"You will become closer to the hanyous…Sesshomaru's brother and his mate. Then, you can work from there. If I don't accidently kill him." Yoko hissed as she bared her fangs and arched her back slightly in a menacing manner.
"You will do no such thing." She spat. " I need the little puppy if I want to obliterate my sister. Just simply wound him severly, and bring him to me. Use all means necessary, just don't kill him or the miko." Nodding, the spider youkai sneered. "What is it you have against the Inu-youkai legacy?" The spider youkai growled.
"My son, he was severly wounded by the kin of their taijiya. I seek revenge, my son has not awaken from his forced slumber." Wincing as she took on the meaning of his metaphor, the neko's sympathy went out to the man.
"Very well. But remember what I told you." Nodding, she spider youkai turned and stomped out of the room. Taking a right, he walked down the long hall and opened the door, taking a step outside, he began towards the Higurashi shrines. Stopping short as he sensed the strong power of a miko as he proceeded up the stairs, he smiled as he kept walking. Sniffing the air, he could smell the miko, and another human, as well as the scents of a female puppy, as well as two more humans. But the fast approaching scent of InuYasha came to him next, and not having the slightly bit of worry, he kept walking.
Glaring in the window, he stopped in the middle of the clearing, and he let out scents that he knew would draw their attention, and have InuYasha fuming. Scents, telling other youkai that this area was his, and would be his until he died or was killed, InuYasha reached for the door, but whirled around as the door flew open as him and his mate got a whiff of the scent. Stomping towards the youkai, InuYasha wrinkled his nose and snorted.
"So your hear cause my godnephew beat the crap out of your kid." The spider youkai fumed.
"Correct, but I also come to warn you, that there is one that seeks your precious sister you filthy half-breeds." InuYasha snorted as he heard Kagome growl in anger.
"Yeah…yeah, yeah. Yadda-Yadda-Yadda…that's all youkai have to say these days. Now, I don't want to draw attention to our kind, so leave before I have to rip you to shreds." InuYasha said as he flexed his claws and cracked his knuckles. Chuckling, the other youkai took a step forward.
"We aren't meant to abide with humans. But your kind had to be born, had to try to prove us wrong. I don't care if the humans find out about us living in harmony with them, they are all going to die anyway." Growling in anger, InuYasha ordered Kagome to call Sesshomaru. Saying something about asking him whether he should let this termite live, InuYasha crossed his arms as he waited. Kagome tapped her foor behind InuYasha impatiently as she used her cell phone to call Sesshomaru. Ringing…she was about to hang up when someone finally picked up.
"Sesshomaru…spider youkai…wants to fight InuYasha. Doesn't think youkai should co-exist with humans…WHAT!" InuYasha listened closely.
"I said destroy him. He is drawing too much attention. Earlier today, there was a city building destruction, and witnesses say they saw a huge spider. I figured it might be him. Get rid os him as soon as possible." Groaning, Kagome ended the call.
"You heard the man. Get it done." InuYasha chuckled as he flexed his claws one more time. Roaring in outrage, the youkai lunged at InuYasha, and both him and Kagome leapt out of the way, retaliating by lunging at him almost instantly after dodging. Taking a swipe at his chest, the two hanyou's missed as she youkai leapt in the air. Allowing his true form to unleash, he bared his fangs and moved his eight legs into a position like a needle to strike Kagome, but she dodged once more before flipping in the air, and pushing herself onto his back, sinking her teeth into the soft hairs. Pushing her claws into his back as well, she looked her jaws as her tail grew stiff and the youkai lashed about in rage. Her blood began boiling as his warm blood seeped into her mouth and down her throat, and she growled menacingly as her growing lust for blood grew.
InuYasha, seeing the moment, ran up to him using his hanyou speed and sunk his right claws into the youkai's throat. Knowing his defeat, the youkai coughed blood onto InuYasha's face smiling.
"You may kill me now, but I have children, and a mate. They will be after you. So best take this victory and make it last as long as you can…you demise will come…." Growling in frustration, InuYasha dug his other hand into his skull, sighing when he burst into ashes and Kagome landed on her feet. Spitting out the blood that had gushed into her mouth before, she still continued to fight the youkai within that demanded more bloodshed. Looking at her claws, that dripped with blood, she moved them up and sniffed them. Feeling lightheaded, she went to lick them, when InuYasha brought her hand back down and wiped it with his shirt.
"It'll help. Your not used to fighting it yet..." He said with a frown. Something inside Kagome screamed with anger.
Kill him...he won't let you have any blood...you want blood...you need blood...
No...I don't...And I won't kill him.
You will sooner or later. You can't fight me forever. Full moon is tomorrow Kagome...my turn to play with the little puppy, since you won't do it...
I won't hurt InuYasha...I won't let you or anybody hurt InuYasha...
Your both the same. Your going to lose control permantly. Fighting me is only making me stronger you fool...Kagome growled and shut off her thoughts as she looked at InuYasha, who was busy wiping his hands clean.
"Sister in law?" She asked. "What was he talking about?" InuYasha shrugged.
"It can't be anybody but Tsukiko. Unless you have a sister." Kagome shook her head slowly. "Well, we have to get to Tsukiko then, and let Sesshomaru know what he said. But before we do anything, let me know what happened when you spaced out three minutes ago." Kagome blanched a little.
"Nothing! Nothing!" She lied. "I was just deep in thought...that's all."
"With your youkai. Tell me what it said."
"How'd you..."
"I smelled it getting stronger, and your nervousness." Kagome shrank down onto her haunches as she drooped her ears a little. Bending down next to her, InuYasha licked her face to give her more encouragement, as well as a soft growl.
"It tried to make me kill you when you took the blood off my hands. Then when I said no, it said that me fighting it is only making it stronger, and that tomorrow, which is the full moon, that its her turn to play. I'm scared InuYasha. Also, it said next time, when I lose control, I won't get it back. Do you frequently have comversations with your inner youkai?" InuYasha nodded.
"All the time. When your in heat," He flushed a little. "I have to leave, because it's calling for you, tempting me to do things to the point where I can't be alone with you in fear that I might hurt you. But, maybe we should talk about this later...like after we see my brother?" Kagome was startled as how InuYasha didn't slip an insult with that. "Even though he is a bastard. He mumbled as they stood up. Sighing, she shook her head as he took her hand and they walked side by side.
Spoke too soon.
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