Answers that would never come
24th April
The next chapter to Lilies of blood. The amnesia isn't really explained. I forgot. (hehehe)
Tidus couldn't think nor move. Yuna was dead. Killed by her distant relatives, the Al Bhed. They had always given Yuna a hard time, but surely this wasn't what she deserved. And now, well, Tidus felt like he could have murdered Rikku, he resisted temptation of grabbing her neck and strangling her violently so she would suffer an agonizing death like Yuna. The reason was only because Rikku was an Al Bhed. Tidus could feel his numb, sodden arms shaking slightly. Pure anger.
Tidus marched off. This was another incident that he had the desire to scream out loud. The way Yuna had told him. Yuna. Every passing second Tidus stood there, drenched, he couldn't escape the haunting thoughts of Yuna. She didn't exist anymore. Her laughter was blown away with the wind, never to return...
He couldn't erase to threatened look on her face the last time he saw her alive. Her eyes wide with fear that had reflected the moonlight on the water. He eyes. Beautiful, but never to been seen again with that enchanting happiness that drove her. Obliterated.
For the first time in a while, Tidus began to feel his face reddening, with an ice cold tear trickling down his cheek. He didn't want to cry. Crying made him feel he was washing it all away. But that's what he wanted didn't he? Or was it really the way of comforting himself? He wanted to forget what had happened...but the memories...they clung to him like a leech, draining all happy thoughts...replacing them with anger and sorrow.
' I am alone...' was the only word that Tidus could think. Tears thundering down on his damp chest, raining down his face. He didn't want to think this...
(:" but I'll take you there! So we can go together" Tidus had mentioned, but Yuna just smiled and turned away. " and when we get there, we can explore, just you and me":)
Tidus remembered that day too well. Her smile...she knew she was to die, from the Final Aeon...but...but not like this. She did not deserve to go this way! A bomb? Is that the only decent way the Al Bhed can think of destroying a life? Destroying the lives of others?
" hey! What you doin'?" called Wakka.
Tidus didn't reply.
" hey, I know you didn't know her all that well, but I'm glad you care..." said Wakka, he looked at Tidus's face, it was riddled with tears. " You can't be as upset as us though...we had known her for years" Tidus knew Wakka was looking for comfort, but Tidus refused to give him any. ' can't be as upset as I am?' he thought.
" Yes, but you didn't love her!" Tidus screamed at Wakka who was left dazed.
" Love her? You don't know her! How can you love someone you've never spoken to?"
" you don't remember me do you?" Tidus could feel the tears gathering under his eyes. " was it the bomb? Was it the explosion that made you forget me!"
" I don't...know..."
Tidus ran away from Wakka as fast as he could. He could not explain the amnesia at all. Everyone but him was effected. Why? There was no answer. Was it because of the fact that they suffered worse? Was it because they wanted to forget him? Or really was it because he didn't really exist anyway?
(:" if we ever get separated, just whistle like this!" Tidus put his fingers to his mouth and blew between them.
" like this?" she blew hard, but no sound came out, just a hoarse growl.
" no, no..." he placed his fingers to his lips " like this..."
Yuna had just nodded and smiled.
" remember, use that if we ever get separated...let's go...":)
Her smile then was magic. Her attempt to whistle echoed around his mind like a ghostly wind. Her words...her words, made him think of the cool clear water that he had drifted on. But these were all just memories, nothing more. Something to revisit. To keep inside.
But even now, they began to erode into dust that couldn't be reassembled. Forever lost... lost...lost...
Those words, he thought rebounded off his skull like a Ping-Pong ball, not to settle. Never staying still until he had found the answers. Answers that would never come...
Well, did you like it? Please review. Thanks,
Nyviay
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