Good Luck & Godspeed
Part 1

A/N: This story has been nothing but a pain to upload, so if you seen it and its disappeared it was all me. Sorry but still having problems with story its cursed I tell ya its not coming up in the just in stories or in the archives.

Also this story has been sitting in my hard drive since The Lost City. I finally finished it! Special Thanks to my beta SA.

Feedback is welcomed and appreciated.

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There's a voice speaking to me and it sounds familiar.

er: "Sir wake up. Come on sir you've been asleep too long. It's time to get those big brown eyes open."

I begin to stir. I grab the blanket cover my head and turned over to my side and moan, "Come on Mom 10 more minutes."

The voice persisted and its tone is getting very agitated with me.

I know I've heard that voice before but I still can't place it.

The voice is nudging me now. Wait, how can a voice nudge me?

"Sir you've got to get up. Did you hear me or do I have to make that an order?"

Order? The voice was issuing orders?

I finally poked my head from under the blanket and look groggily at the voice.

I'm startled awake and almost fall out of the bed. I try to get my bearings and closed my eyes again hoping that this is all a dream. I hear my name called out again.

I rub the sleep from my eyes and try to focus only to see Janet Fraiser in front of me.

Pulling the blanket over my head I moan, "Okay Jack no more eating two month old salsa and chips for you. I definitely have to clean out that fridge."

I feel the bed dip and she's sitting next to me. She's pulling the blanket and I'm holding on for dear life. It comes off and she says, "Boo" and starts to laugh.

I sit up and looked at her and touch her. I swallow and opened my mouth but shut it again. Either I'm dead or this is a really bad dream.

She smiles and says "it's me sir or should I call you Jack since I'm no longer in the military and I don't have to 'Sir' you anymore?"

I'm still speechless. I'm in my bedroom in the midst of a dream with Janet Fraiser sitting on my bed.

This is wrong in so many ways.

In my mind I shouldn't be in my bedroom I should be with my team on in the ice in Antarctica.

My team, hey where was my team? And why am I at home in my bed with Janet sitting next to me pulling the blankets off of me?

Oh boy. I take a deep breath and try to figure out what the hell was going on. But nothing is clear. Everything is upside done.

The only thing I am sure of is that Janet Fraiser has been dead for 6 months but was now sitting on my bed asking me to wake up.

I speak to myself. Okay O'Neill this is definitely very weird you need to snap out of it. I shut my eyes and opened them and but she's still sitting next to me.

I needed answers and I needed them now.

"Doc what's going on? What are you doing here? Where am I? Better question what am I doing here?"

Janet smiled and said, "Jack calm down I need you to tell me what the last thing you remembered was."

I take a deep breath and start to think.

"Last thing I remembered was going off world receiving another download of the Ancients' greatest hits, me asking for time off to get my affairs in order. Being on a ship with the gang and Bra'tac headed for the Lost City getting there and finding out the Lost City was back on Earth in Antarctica. Arriving just in time to find the technology needed to kick Anubis' ass and his super soldiers feeling extremely tired and being made into a human Popsicle. But now I'm at home in my bedroom talking to you. Okay definitely going to have to clean out the refrigerator more then every three months because if this is a bad dream then I am going to need someone to pump my stomach."

Janet shook her head and said that she was here to help, and that she was in here and touched my head.

I touch my head and joke that there's plenty of room up there.

She rolls her eyes and sighs. She looks at me and I ask the obvious.

She nods and says yes she's dead and no she had not ascended and yes she was here to help me.

She smiles and quips, "I leave and the whole place goes to crap."

I miss her wise cracks. Hell I miss her. But how was she going to help me?

I agreed with her. "You're not kidding Doc. It's been hard without you around. It hasn't been the same. We all miss you so much it shouldn't have happened."

She squeezes my hand and tells me how much she's misses all of us but there's nothing that can change what happened, that what was done was done. She said there was another reason for her being here.

"Jack, I'm here to make sure you're okay. I'm answering some very special people's prayers. They're asking me to keep you safe and to watch out for you."

I'm surprised and ask who was praying for me? Janet smiles and starts to name off names.

"Well there's General Hammond he asked that you come back he misses you and wants you home. A Dr. Weir never met her but your name came up during her prayers asking for the knowledge to unlock you from your current state. President Hayes sent a prayer of thanks and asked that a way can be found to find your way back to the SGC he's got some news you'd be very happy with."

I raised an eyebrow and asked what news?

Janet smiled and said "well let's put it this way you're no longer going to be called Colonel and you should get use to being called General as soon as you get back".

I smiled back "Really me? No you're pulling my leg. I have more negative entries then positive in my file. They're only doing that because they think I'm not coming back to the land of the living."

Janet said, "Are you every going to stop with the dumb Colonel act? You deserve it and I'm going to do everything in my power to get you back there to get your much deserved stars."

She went on to name others praying for my safe return and then she started with my team.

"Daniel asked that I watch out for you because he misses you and wants me to keep you safe. Jack he's lost without you and I need you to go back to help him for me. He feels that he's lost me and now you too. It's causing him great pain and I can't tolerate him going through this again."

I took her hand and said I understood. I was there when we had buried Janet and had to pry Daniel away from the grave. He was inconsolable saying he wished he had told her everything that he had held in his heart for her. Janet nodded saying she knew, that she was there after the first couple of days to make sure he'd survive this blow to his life. Daniel was special to her and she said he would always be. He was the man that held her heart and how she regretted they never acted on these feelings.

"Teal'c asked me to keep his brother-in-arms and life safe and to deliver you back to them since there were still battles to be fought and he needs you by his side."

Janet stood and walked over to the window and she whispered, "Cassie's pleaded with me to please return you to her safely. She misses you so much it kills me to hear her cry out at night screaming for you not to leave her. She says she lost me and can't bear to lose you and Sam also."

That got my attention.

I asked, "What do you mean lose Sam? Janet what's wrong with Carter?"

Janet turned around and said that since I had been in stasis Sam had been working night and day to find a solution to the chamber. She said Sam was obsessed in finding the answer to get me back to them. The Tok'ra had not contacted the SGC and Sam had gone off world daily to try and find the Asgard with no luck.

"Jack she's run into one roadblock after another and there's no one there to tell her it's going to be all right and to watch out for her. It's like Edora all over again. She's not eating, sleep eludes her and when she does nod off she berates herself when she wakes up saying that she's letting you down by not trying hard enough to find a solution. Then there's that man who shall remain nameless. He's nothing but a thorn in her side. She doesn't even go home anymore dreading that he'd be there to berate her and to make her feel guilty for not being there for him. He makes her life miserable asking why she doesn't come home and questioning her about her feelings for you. He's taking out his jealously on her. She lets him because she feels it is her punishment for not saving you. I'm afraid she's at her breaking point Jack and there's no one there for her to lean on or to catch her."

I whispered what about Daniel and Teal'c?

Janet nodded her head. "Sam's pushed them away telling them to leave her alone with her work, that she needs the quiet to concentrate so she can find the answers she seeks. They've tried but they're dealing with their own grief over your loss and think she's fine."

"They are all falling apart without you Jack. They need you. You've got to look inside of you for the solution. It's there you just got to trust me and look within yourself."

She was asking me to find my way back home?

"I don't know how Doc".

Janet stood up and started to pace, and stopped, and put her hands on her waist and started her tirade.

"I came back because my baby is hurting as well as everyone you hold dear. I'll be damned if she's going to go through that type of heartache again. It shook me to my core seeing her cry. Hell seeing all of you grieve for me was devastating. You helped them through it Jack and that's why they need you to go back. Wait you do want to go back don't you?"

I put my head in my hands and let out a big sigh. She had to have read my mind.

"I'm not a big part of their lives anymore Janet. They will survive. They'll pull together and move on with their lives."

She looked at me and threw her hands up. She was upset and she was going to let me have it.

"What do you mean they'll move on? They can't move on. Did your brain suffer freezer burn? What ever happen to the O'Neill motto 'no one gets left behind'? Was that a crock of crap or only when it's convenient? You think they'll move on? Well listen up to how well they've adjusted so far to you being gone.

"Daniel can't translate anymore. He's distracted by your absence. He's not sleeping and he's beating himself up because he thinks he's missed something and that he's letting you down. He keeps saying it should have been him. No one would have missed him. He's lost without you Jack and can't find his way back. He's closing into himself and you know this will destroy him. He feels that without you around there is no reason to stay with the program."

I looked away. Daniel always wore his heart on his sleeve. This would destroy him, he had few people he called friends and I was one of these few.

"Teal'c is contemplating leaving the SGC also. He feels helpless not being able to help get you out of that block of ice. Teal'c's a man of action and his hands are tied, and you've worn off on him since he has little patience with anyone or anything. He thinks he's failed you by not keeping them safe. He wants to join his fellow Rebel Jaffa off world to fight against the remaining Goa'uld. He's running away Jack; he can't deal with what he thinks is his failure to keep you safe."

That did sound like Teal'c, everything but the running away part. I thought he would be the one to keep them together if anything ever happened to me.

"Then there's Sam. She's on the brink of a nervous breakdown. She's neglecting herself and is in an unhealthy relationship. She's losing control of herself Jack. Pete has literally taken over her life. He's making her chose between her career, family and friends, or him. He's turned out to be as big a psycho as Jonas. He berates everything she does. She could do no right in his eyes. He's breaking her down mentally and Sam doesn't have the strength, or maybe she doesn't care anymore that he's treating her like this. I'm afraid he might get physical with her Jack and no one will be there to stop him."

That made my blood boil. If he laid a hand on her there would be hell to pay. Just thinking of him yelling at her and making her unhappy made me wish I was there to knock some sense into him.

I looked up Janet had stopped when she saw the anger in my face. I whispered to her to go on and she did.

"Then there's my Cassie, she's losing the family that I asked to look out for her. She can't get through to any of them and she feels like a burden. Thinking it would be better if she just disappeared and left so no one would have to be responsible for her. She's lost Jack she needs you. She needs all of you."

Janet sat down next to me and started again.

"Jack you have the knowledge of the ancients up in that so called empty head of yours. Use it find away to get yourself out of this mess."

I shook my head and said, 'I can't Janet. I don't know how I'm just…'

"Just what Jack what were you going to say?"

I looked at her and said, "I feel like I'm in their way Janet. There I said it. No one wants me around, sure maybe Teal'c and General Hammond but the rest all have lives now. Did you know that we have been growing apart for the last couple of months? The only reason we're together is because of all the tragedy that we've gotten ourselves into lately. The only reason they came over was because they knew it might be the last time they see me as Jack not the walking talking Latin library spouting out the Ancients' greatest hits. Sam has Pete. He might not be what we want for her but she does love him right?"

Janet looked at me and asked how I knew that. I looked away and told her that I had touched her and with the upgrades in my brain I could feel she did care for him. Janet prodded me for more.

"So if you can read her thoughts then you know that she cares more for you then she's letting on. Jack I've been there when you two expressed your feelings for one another. She does care hell, she loves you."

I sighed and told her that I did feel her love for me. It had me awe struck that she would care so much for me. I wasn't worthy of her love that she deserved someone that could make her happy and maybe she wasn't giving Pete a chance.

Janet snorted and said, "this coming from the man that nearly wanted to go tear him a new one for almost botching your stake out and did you forget he had a background check done on her? Yeah Jack, keep telling yourself that. What makes you think you're not worthy of her love? She's right there all you have to do is ask."

I didn't say anything and Janet just shook her head.

I continued my argument.

"Daniel has his work to get him through this, he's also been taking care of Cassie so he's her rock, he'll be there for her and get her through this. I'm not so important to her since she's gotten older. I have confidence that they will both survive."

She shook her head.

"So, what, you're not going back because you think there's no reason to?"

She waited for me to answer.

"I don't know Doc if I have the fight in me anymore. We defeated Anubis; he was the biggest threat to our planet. I did my job and what do I get for being the perfect soldier and following the regulations instead of my heart? I'm all by myself just like when I started this journey. I'm older and a little more worn around the edges. My knees are shot and I have nothing to show for it. The woman I care for is with another man and all I have is a career that looks to be at the end and a cabin with a pond with no fish to retire to."

Janet listened to me as I told her of what I wished had happened but knowing it couldn't.

She nodded and said she understood and wished that things were different.

"What about you Doc, why are you really here? Did you ascend like Daniel?"

She shook her head.

"No, I could have but thanks to Daniel the rules have changed. My memories of all of you would have been erased so I couldn't interfere with your lives. There was no way I would lose my memories of all of you, I cherish them too much, and it's all I have left. So I told them politely to shove it up their..."

I chuckled and said I got the picture.

Janet smiled and said that she was sent here on a mission.

"I'm here to help you decide what you want to do. Jack do you trust me?"

Without hesitation I said, "Without a doubt."

"Good take my hand I'm going to show you what your absence has created in everyone's lives."

Janet grabbed my hand and told me to close my eyes. I cracked if I should click my boots three times and say there's no place like home?

Janet moaned, "jeez wise guy I'm trying to help you and all I get is jokes? How Sam puts up with you I'll never know."

I chuckled and did what I was told. I held her hand and waited to see what she would show me.