Author notes: i didn't really want to post this cause it's short and itisn't really good. But, i was a bit sad cause their hasn't been many full metal panic stories. Umm, Please don't flame me, cause i'll probably cry. But, i'll definately appreciate cristism and if i've done something wrong, please tell me, but not cruelly. and that's why i don't post anything cause i'm scared. but please don't hate me, and if i havedone something wrong. Please! tell me and i will definately try fix up the problem to the best of my ability! So, please don't hate me! i don't want anyone hating me, just thinking about it makes me teary eyed. ; ;

but, about the story. It's about kaname's feelings. The couplein hereis kaname and Sousuke.
Kaname emotions are intense and she feels that sousuke will never love her. and she decides to give up.

warning: may contain spoilers

disclaimer: ofcourse, i don't own full metal panic or any of its' characters!


Looking at you, I realise, you will never return my feelings. You only protect me because of her, "Miss Operations".

I don't want to be hurt anymore. Cause it just hurts too much. You don't love me. I give up. You don't understand how I feel because you are ignorant to my feelings for you…. Or maybe you are just too thick-headed, but knowing that only causes more pain in my chest. I can never wake you from your slumber, everything is too hard. I give up. You're fighting a war, you're with her, and we are both so different. I give up.

And so the voice within me whispers, 'good, give up, let go, he will never want you, someone who is violent and completely un-lady like…." I falter….

'Don't worry' she whispers 'you won't have any pain, if you just let me take over……….'

"No!" I can't, I can't let her control me. Please stop… I plead.

With a shock, the image stays in my mind, that photo, the one she cherishes, the one where he looks so handsome, my heart gives an involuntary squeeze, but crushes even more when I know that they were together happy and they are together now. 'I can't love him, I hate him' my mind, spirit and my heart screams 'I give up!' and everything turns black.

Then a sea of blue, I see myself floating angelically saying "thank you, everything will be alright" as she turns, I thought I saw a selfish grin playing on her lips. But, I don't think about it and fall into a slumber state.


Author's notes:

please review, and i will continue this, if i get a few reviews.

and ummm, please don't flame me but, i will be happy if you want me to improve on things and help me. but, please don't say it cruelly.

BUT, Thank you very much for taking the time to read!