Chapter 5.5

How dare he! Who the bloody hell does he think he is? It's none of his business how I know Nikolas! That was years and years ago, before I even knew Hogwarts existed!

And Nikolas! That blithering, idiotic, half-arsed, sodding prat! Why won't he leave me alone? Assuming that I don't know what today is? ME! How could I not remember? It happened to ME! NOT HIM! I'm the one who lost the baby! I'm the one who carried it for three fucking months and lost it! I'm the one who had to bury it!

He wasn't there. He was the one who made me love it, who made me see the baby as MY CHILD, not Jalen's, not a "child born of rape." He was the one who made me see the baby as an innocent, and HE WASN'T THERE when I lost it! How dare he!

It was his fucking fault to begin with! It would never have happened if it weren't for him! It was his fault I became pregnant before I was even eleven. HIS FAULT. It might have been Jalen's baby, but it would never have happened if it wasn't for Nikolas.

I hate him. I might have loved him once, might have thought he was my "one, true love," but that all changed when the truth came out.

I hated Jalen, but it's nothing compared to how much I hate Nikolas.

Spero che brucia nell'inferno per ciò che ha fatto a me! (1)


(1) Spero. . . me: I hope he burns in hell for what he did to me!