AN: Well, due to popular votes, I have continued. Thanks to all the reviewers, I couldn't have done it without your support.
Fifteen minutes later found Sirius in the library. As he stared at the massive amount of books he felt rather helpless. There had to be thousands of books in this place, and since he did not frequent the library often Sirius definitely needed some help. Normally he would've asked Remus for help, but he wasn't quite ready to talk to his friend about this. He didn't consider going to Madam Pince an option either. The woman despised him, and probably would've banned him from the library years ago if she didn't love Remus so much.
Sirius decided the best thing he could do was wander around the library and hope he stumbled upon the right section. The young wizard started at the front of the library and began walking down the row, dragging his finger across the spines of the books as he went. Occasionally he would look at the titles to see if he was close to the right area.
After about 45 minutes Sirius was starting to tire. He had been going for what had seemed like ages, and he was only a quarter way through the books. At this point he was barely even glancing at the titles, he was more or less just hoping for divine intervention. And apparently someone's god was listening, because something rather close to a miracle occurred.
As Sirius dragged his fingers across the spines of the books, he heard a rather large thump. Turning around to see what had disturbed his mission, he saw a book on the floor that he must've accidentally knocked off the shelf. As he bent down to replace the book he noticed the title, which was So You Think You're a Lesbian. And while that particular title was no help to him, he was definitely in the right place.
He searched the surrounding shelves for a little bit until he finally came across a book that would actually serve a purpose for him. The book was titled Homosexuality in Young Wizards: Everything Parents and Children Should Know. However, now Sirius was faced with an even greater challenge.
There were only two more hours left before the library closed, and there was no way Sirius would be able to figure out his mixed emotions before he had to get back to the dormitory. So he had two options. First he could check out the book. However, that would involve having Madam Pince take the book down onto her list. He would also have to explain why he was reading so much to his friends. While he could charm the cover to have a different title, his friends would definitely be suspicious of Sirius reading so much.
His second option was not much more appealing. This idea involved him returning to the library each day until he found what he needed. This however, would mean that he would have to explain to his friends why he was in the library so often. Either way, Sirius Black was screwed.
After about fifteen minutes of weighing the situation he decided that it would just be best to take the book out. It's not as if Madam Pince really had anyone to gossip to, and he could always read at night while everyone else was asleep. Yes, this was definitely a good solution.
Sirius made his way to the front desk, where the librarian was sitting. He attempted to nonchalantly slip the book onto the desk and back off it in a matter of seconds. However, Madam Pince would have none of that, and grabbed the book from Sirius's hand before he could take it back. If she was surprised by his possession of the book she showed no sign of it. As soon as she handed the book back to Sirius he bolted back to the common room. It was going to be an interesting night.
It was well past 3 in the morning by the time Sirius put his head down. He had been reading for four hours now, ever since the others had gone to sleep. At first his search had been to no avail. He definitely wasn't gay; he had an interest in girls. And he wasn't a lesbian, because, well, he wasn't a girl. But he wasn't straight either. He was positive about that. Looking back over the past two years, ever since he had hit puberty, he had been attracted to some boys, especially a certain tawny-haired werewolf. The only reason he had never noticed it before was because he had always assumed that boys just don't like other boys. Of course he had heard of it before, but then it had only seemed like a made up fairytale in a far off land. But after Remus's confession, it just seemed so real.
Sirius had been ready to give up when he had come across a chapter that caught his eye. Bisexual; he hadn't heard that word before, but it sounded promising. Didn't bi mean two, after all? After reading through the chapter he was sure. Sirius Black was Hogwarts's newest bisexual. Now there was only one last thing to figure out. Sirius wanted to know if he was in love with Remus. And he knew just the person to go to when it came to matters of love. James Potter.
AN: I make no promises, but I'll try to update tomorrow. Until then, review my pretties, review! Hahahaha!
