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This Time Imperfect
By; Ginny McCartney

Why do I do this to myself? Just sit here night after night in the Common Room or in the Great Hall, just watching you flirt with other girls. You know I love you and you just ignore me, I'll never be more than just a friend to you, and it kills me. Or maybe I'm wrong maybe you don't know. You always just treat me as a friend and maybe you don't know I love you. Maybe I should tell you. I've gone over this a million times in my head, I know exactly what to say, but I just can't say it. You'd just laugh at me anyway.

I cannot leave here, I cannot stay
Forever haunted, more than afraid
Asphyxiate on words I would say
I'm drawn to a blackened sky as I turn blue

You probably don't even know your killing me. You probably thought I got over that little crush years ago when I started dating Michael. Looks like your wrong, Harry. I'm not over you and I don't think I ever will be. I know it's sad but I can't help it, too bad you don't love me. I've loved you since the first time I saw you at the train station. But, I guess you'll never know.
There are no flowers, no, not this time
There will be no angels gracing the lines, just these stark words I find
I'd show a smile but I'm too weak
I'd share with you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts me

You know I'm starring at you, but you don't care you just glance at me, wave, and go back to your conversation. I wish I were that girl. Why don't you see me, Harry? I know I'm not pretty and I know I'm not smart, but I love you, doesn't that count for anything. Those girls don't love you, Harry, why can't you see that? They just want to go out with you because you're the Boy-Who-Lived. Why can't you see that? You make me so angry, but that anger never lasts long, because I love you and I can't stay mad at you. You're killing me, Harry.
I cannot stay here, I cannot leave
Just like all I loved, I'm make believe
Imagined heart, I disappear
Seems... no one will appear here and make me real
Damn it, Harry! It's almost midnight, and I haven't finished anything because of you. I've been sitting here all night just imagining what it would be like if you were my boyfriend and I was your girlfriend, and I haven't done any of my homework, and my potions essay is due tomorrow! I hate the way you affect me and the hold you have on me, it's not fair! Why can't I affect you that way? Why can't you even pay the least bit of attention to me? I love you, why don't you understand that? Maybe I should tell you, or maybe I shouldn't. I know you don't feel the same way. Why do you have to mess with my mind so much? Love is so unfair.

There are no flowers, no, not this time
There will be no angels gracing the lines, just these stark words I find
I'd show a smile but I'm too weak
I'd share with you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts me

I hope you know you're killing me. Everyday I lose just a little bit more of myself to you and you don't even notice. Life is so unfair. Why couldn't I just love Colin, he's asked me out so many times but I just keep turning him down because I love you. But, you don't love me, maybe I should just go out with Colin, but then that wouldn't be fair to him because I don't love him. You're not making this easy on me, Love; you're all I think about and all I dream about.
I'd tell you how it haunts me
I'd tell you how it haunts me
Cuts through my day and sinks into my dreams
I'd tell you how it haunts me
Cuts through my day and sinks into my dreams
You don't care that it haunts me

I hate being in love with you. I hate the fact that you don't love me back. It's so unfair. Harry you're killing me and you don't even know it. I'm crying now and it's all because of you, and you haven't even done anything that you know about. Harry, I love you. Why can't I just say that out loud? It would be so easy and then maybe you would know. But, I can't, I'm too afraid you'd laugh at me or worse yet not return my love and stop talking to me. I'm going to bed before anyone notices I'm crying, especially you.
There are no flowers, no, not this time
There will be no angels gracing the lines, just these stark words I find
I'd show a smile but I'm too weak

You'll never notice me. You'll never love me. To you I'll always just be your friend, Ginny.

I'd share with you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts me
Just how much this hurts me
Just how much you...