Chapter 3 – Losing Confidence Starfire's Point Of View

I couldn't believe what fun you could have with snow. Snow was beautiful! It would have been a perfect day but I was still downhearted, it didn't seem like I could ever get across to Robin all the things I needed to tell him. My heart was heavy by now. I'd been stung by love and this pain wasn't going away.

Why was I so stupid? Why did I end up making a fool of myself, I could have told him, but I started to ask him pointless, meaningless questions, making him make all these promises, he must take me for a right idiot. Why was everything so confusing? So depressing. My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of the Titans' siren warning us all of a robbery.

Robin's Point Of View

"Titans' Go!" I shouted hearing the alarm, everybody was ready and we set off to the scene of the crime. Where Dr. Light had found a bank to rob.

"The Teen Titans, we meet again" He said.

"You won't get away with this Light," I shouted back.

I was in no mood for a battle. Not today.

Raven was the first person to strike.

"Azerath, Metrion, Zinthos,"

It was true. Light was naturally scared of Raven; he wasn't any competition for us.

She had him held firmly.

"Starfire! Now!" shouted Raven.

Starfire flew, put up her hand ready for her starbolt, but there was nothing. She tried again, yet there was nothing, she gasped and helplessly tried one last time.

"Starfire! Now!" Raven repeated.

"I… I can't…" and with those words, she dropped. She completely stopped hovering in the air and crashed right down to the bottom.

"Promise me, that you'll catch me when I fall," her words she had spoke to me earlier that day flashed across my mind. So I ran. Below where she fell to the ground. She landed in my arms.

"Robin," she said, meekly.

"I kept my promise Star, I caught you," I said.

She merely responded with a sob.

Starfire's Point Of View

I had failed.

Failed. I am completely hopeless.

How could I do this to them? How could I lose myself? Maybe… maybe they were better off without me anyway.

"Starfire?" Robin's voice at my door interrupted my thinking.

"Come in," I replied. The moment I said this, I regretted it, why did I agree? I had just embarrassed myself.

"Star, what, what happened back there?" he asked sitting next to me.

"I… I'm sorry, I can't be a Titan anymore Robin," I said at once.

"Why? Why can't you?" he asked me, shocked.

"Because, I am no further use to this team," I responded.

"How?" he asked me.

"I have lost my abilities to fly, I have lost my abilities to use my starbolts." I replied. I might as well have told him the truth.

"But why?" he asked again.

"Please, I do not wish to say… if you require the truth, I sugest you ask Raven," I said to him.

He got up and left me.

I am so stupid. I can't even bring myself to tell them myself.

Robin's Point Of View

Starfire had just told me to ask Raven. I did not understand, but I complied.

"Raven." I said, standing before the girl.

"Robin," she replied.

"Listen, Starfire asked me to ask you about why she can't use flight and starbolts anymore, so I came to ask you," I finished lamely.

"It is because, she has lost her happiness. She has lost her confidence." Raven answered me, and surveyed me to sit.

"How do you know that?" I asked her.

"Simple. When the Puppet King switched our bodies, she had to tell me the secrets to flight and starbolts," Raven said.

"Yeah, I remember her telling me ages ago about flight," I thought back to when we first formed the Titans.

"Think happy thoughts," Raven said.

"And Starbolts?" I asked.

"Boundless confidence," Raven replied.

"But why hasn't she got these things anymore? She's normally so full of life," I said.

"I would tell you, but I don't tell secrets," Raven said.

I knew this was my cue to leave, but I needed to know more.

"Raven, I have a right to know," I said, not moving from where I was sitting,

"Robin. Secrets are like a really good book. You know it yourself, and you might let somebody borrow it. But when they do, they don't have a right to lend out your property, do you understand?" Raven said to me, looking me in the eye.

I paused.

"But," I said, "Were you loaned Starfire's book, or did you just decide to read it?" I asked, raising my eyebrow.

Raven blushed.

"I… I did not read her mind!" Raven said.

"Are you sure?" I asked.

"Well, okay I confess, yes, she seemed down, and I looked up the reason, I am never telling anybody Robin, and don't you dare tell Starfire I read her book, I mean mind." Raven warned me in a harsh whisper.

"Okay, Okay, I won't steal Starfire's book, you happy?" I asked.

It still didn't feel right. Starfire was so unhappy, she didn't have any happy thoughts to get herself off the ground. That would mean she was unhappy. Maybe it was my fault. I should really be there for her.

She might turn be away.

Or she might be grateful.

It might be a great opportunity to set my feelings straight.

Even if she rejects me, I want to be there for her. I want to give her every last bit of her happiness back. She deserves it. For who she is. And not what books she owns.

So when I walked past her door I stopped.

I opened it.

I called out.

There was no answer.

That was because there was no one inside.

She was gone.