CHAPTER THREE – DEEP FEELINGS

Touya woke up a little dizzy. Light walls around him. Heavy cuts all over and broken ribs. Pain. In the hospital everything was quiet, so he had time to sleep and cry. So many things were in his head, so many days have passed…

"Pain…damn…I wanna get out of here! Damn…Yuki, where are you? Why you didn't come to see me? Why? I wanna see you…I miss you. How long am I here? I caused everybody worries…damn you Touya! Sakura was so worried with you…she cried…I should not make her cry…and dad…oh god! So worried…"

Tears were now running his face down. He tried to fight against them. Useless, in vain. He couldn't take it. He was crying because he's got everyone worried about him, because he was in that bed, in that suffocating hospital room, crying because he missed the most important person in his life.

"Yuki…do you know where I am? Do you know how I am? Do you? Where are you then, where? Why won't you come? Will you come? Guess no…I wish I could touch your face now. I wish I could see you. I need you now. Don't you see it? Everytime, always. I need you. I wanna be close to you. Near you. All around you. But…but…I'm such a fool. Why can't I say how much I care for you? Why?"

He got tired. Tomorrow he could go home because his wounds wouldn't hurt that badly. Tomorrow he would say to him. Everything. Got tired of crying, closed his eyes and fell asleep…

Yukito got home. It was already night, he was tired, tired of looking for Touya, tired of looking. Closed the door, sat on his sofa. Sleepy, went to his bed, he needed it. Soft, warm, gentle.

"Just like To-ya's arms" – he thought

He closed his eyes. Toss and turned. Couldn't sleep. There was something in his heart, a kind of pain, suffocating pain. He felt something hot running down his face. He was crying.

"To-ya. Where are you? I looked everywhere… umf… … remember at that sakura tree, when you told me that you didn't want me to fade, to vanish? And now YOU vanished! Where are you? Is there a problem with you? Are you passing through something? Why won't you tell me then? Aren't we friends? I thought I was, we were. More than that… somehow you became more than a friend to me… you were always this way, quiet. But your eyes…always said your feelings…you always did the impossible to keep me safe and alive. I own you so much. I own you my life. You gave up your powers to help me out…and now all I can say is thank you, all I can do now is smile, even if I'm hurt. You deserve this. You deserve the best, always… maybe…someday…I'll be able to say I love you"

"I won't give up on you. Tomorrow. I'll look for you again"

Fell asleep, warm arms around him

"My dear creature…don't cry…why? You don't have to suffer this much…all I want is your happiness…always…Yue…sleep well, my angel…"