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A/N: Sorry it's been so long since I updated but I've been on vacation and people have been visiting and my computer hates me and what not but yeah, so here we go. This chapter's song is by New Found Glory
Chapter 12
I Don't Wanna Know
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
Okay, Hermione asked me to meet her in the Common Room. So I'm waiting here alone because Ron went to meet Gwen at the half waypoint between the Gryffindor and Ravenclaw Common Rooms. He said he'd wait for us there. I really can't imagine what's taking Hermione so long to get ready she said she was going to meet 10 minutes ago. I have half a mind to ask the next girl who comes down the steps to go see what's taking her so long. Someone's coming down now. Oh, good it's Hermione.
"Hey, Harry!"
"Hey, 'Mione!" I can feel myself going red, why am I going red Hermione and me are friends; I'm never embarrassed around her.
"Ready to go then?"
"Yeah, what took you so long?"
"Oh, Lavender was going through my jewelry because she wanted to borrow something, but there were some things I didn't want her to borrow because well they're kind of valuable and you know Lavender isn't the most careful person in the world, so I wanted to be there so I could see what she was taking."
"Oh, ok."
"Where's Ron?"
"We're suppose to meet him and Gwen half way between the Gryffindor and Ravenclaw Common Rooms."
"Which would be where?"
"The steps leading to the Entrance Hall."
"Hey, wait you guys!" Oh, no not now Ginny.
"Hey, Gin." Hermione said to her
"Hi."
"Hey, Harry, Hermione. You guys going down to the Entrance Hall?"
"Yeah."
"Can I walk with you? That's where I'm meeting Draco." Why he's not good enough for you. He's a slimy Slytherin.
"Sure, but we're meeting Ron and Gwen first."
"Alright."
We walked most of the way in silence. There's a weird look on Hermione's face, almost like she's fighting the urge to hit Gin in the face. I mean there's really no reason for her to do that is there? Hermione can't possibly really want to be alone with me could she? No that can't be it. Oh, I don't want to see that.
"Hey, Ron, you guys wanna not do that in public. We don't want to see that, make out with your girlfriend in privacy."
"Very funny, Harry."
Your eyes were covered in sunglasses
When they first met mine
I sat there and stared at you
You didn't seem to mind
The awkward ways we meet
"Hey, Gin." Malfoy you slimy git, stay away from Ginny.
"Hey, Draco." Ginny you can do so much better then him; please just don't even go out with him once.
"Ready to go?" Just say no, Gin, and run back to the tower.
"Of course." No, Gin, you can't go. Wow, I've never seen Ron look so murderous, but I'm sure my expression isn't much better.
"If you dare try anything with my sister, I swear I will kill you, Malfoy." Yeah, Ron, and I'll help.
"Relax, Weasley, your sister's perfectly safe with me." Yeah right like we all believe that.
"Alright, but if you try even the smallest thing, I swear I will curse you." Oh, I'll do more then that, I think I might just kill him.
"Don't worry about Ginny." Oh, it's a little late for that Malfoy.
"Come on, Ron, let's go." Thanks Gwen yes-good idea- avoid a murder scene, for now. We headed out the door in silence and down the slopping hills toward the village.
"Gwen and me are going to go off on our own, if you two don't mind."
"Go right ahead." Hermione said. We watched them walk off.
"So where to, Hermione?"
"Are you hungry?"
"No, not really, are you?"
"No, how about we just wander around for a little while and then get something to eat?"
'Sounds like a plan."
We headed off down the main road; Hermione started talking about how we had just started human Transfigurations. It is actually pretty interesting, and Hermione already knows a lot more about it then I do probably do to the fact that she spends more time in the library reading then I do, but then Hermione spends more time in the library then almost anyone except maybe that overbearing librarian.
"Hey, 'Mione, do you know where we are?"
"Yeah, we're right by the mountain where Sirius use to hide." her voice faded slightly. And I know she noticed the change in my face after she said that.
"Oh, I'm sorry, Harry, I didn't mean to, I know you're still upset."
"No, I'm fine, really." She just looked at me for a few minutes. I know she doesn't believe me, but Hermione knows all too well what will happen if she pursues the conversation.
"Why, don't we go find somewhere to eat, Harry? I'm getting kind of hungry. What about you?"
"Yeah, I'm hungry. Where do you want to go?"
"Hmmm, well why don't we just go to the Three Broomsticks, I'm pretty sure they serve more then just drinks, but if they don't we'll find some place to eat."
We found our way back to the main street and into the pub. Hermione went up to the counter to place our orders while I went to find a table. It was considerably less crowded then normal especially since it was a Hogsmeade weekend. Hermione came back to the table.
"There isn't much in the way of food, so I ordered us a couple of sandwiches and some butterbeer. Sound good to you?"
"Sounds great."
Hermione started off on another one of her house elves rant, I think I was only half listening because I was still thinking about Sirius. I'm pretty sure she caught on though, but in respect of my privacy Hermione didn't say anything. She was always better and more tactful about these types of things then Ron.
First comes heavy breathing
Staring at the ceiling
What will come next
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
Our lunches arrived and they really did look good. I guess maybe because I was more hungry then I thought, or maybe just because it was really good. Hermione and I talked a little during out lunch. We finished and I went to go pay.
"Oh, here, Harry, for mine." she said offering me some money
"No, Hermione, remember this is a date. I'll pay for you."
"You sure."
"Am I sure about what? That this is a date or that I'm going to pay for you?"
"Haha, Harry, very funny."
"Well I thought so, and excuse me, I'm going to go pay the lady for our lunches. I'll be right back." I paid and came right back to the table.
"Harry, you really didn't have to pay for me."
"I wanted to."
"Oh, um, alright then. Um, where to next?"
"Well what time is it?"
"About 1:30."
"Really already? Well unless there is anything you wish to do here, why don't we go back to the castle and walk around the grounds for a little while?"
"Sure, let's go back to the castle."
We started walking back to the castle. We were both quiet for a little while. Then I thought of something that didn't make any sense.
"Hermione, I thought you were still going out with Viktor Krum."
"No, Harry, actually I haven't been going out with him since the summer between 4th and 5th year."
"Oh, really, I thought you really liked him."
"I did, but we both agreed that it would be better if we were just friends since we were so far apart all the time. That's why I kept writing to him because we're friends."
"Oh, well I guess it's nice to have a pen pal."
"Yeah."
We were silent for another spell while we walked around the lake and towards Hagrid's cabin.
"Harry, can I ask you a questions?"
"Of course." Hermione never asks that unless something is really serious. I wonder what's up.
"Why did you ask me out?" Ok, I really wasn't expecting that. Oh, great I can feel myself going red again.
"Um, well, you now we've been spending a lot of time alone together, and well I don't know I think I might like as more then just a friend, you know?" Ok so that's not entirely false, I do sometimes feel kind of I don't I guess attracted to Hermmione. Yeah, I guess that's the way to put it.
"Oh!" She looks a little embarrassed, "Oh, well um, how come you didn't say anything before?"
"Well this is kind of recent."
"Oh, I, um, don't really know what to say."
"Well, um do you kind feel the same way too?"
I never cared how I dressed before
But I cared that night
Anticipation ran through my bones
And my clothes never fit right
I can wait 'til we meet again
Hermione looks a little nervous.
"Yeah, I think I do, Harry." Yeah, I'm not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing here, because she really believes I like her as more then just my bookworm friend, I'm mean I kind of do sometimes but not all the time. Oh, shit what do I do now?
"Really, you do?" I can't believe this is happening; she's like my best friend. I don't know what I really expected to happen today; I mean I did ask her out. What am I doing?
"Yeah, Harry, I do." Merlin, help me!
"Ok, well that's good to know." Way to go Harry that was a stupid thing to say.
"Yeah, um, well what do we do now?"
"Well, um would you be my girlfriend?" No, no, no, no, no why did I just say that? WHY? What's wrong with me, that was possibly the stupidest thing I've ever said. For the love of Merlin say no!
"Um, alright, Harry." Why couldn't you have just laughed in my face and said yeah right, that would have made me feel so much better. Why am I being so stupid?
"Really? That's great!" No this is the opposite of great this is terrible, absolutely terrible. Why couldn't I just keep my mouth shut? Oh, this just isn't good.
"Yeah." Please tell me that's all you have to say. And it looks like it.
"Um, do you want to go back up to the castle?" What am I going to do? This is insane!
"Sure." Good a nice short walk up to the castle, I'll make an excuse and go to my dorm and figure out what I'm going to do now. Oh, no there's Hagrid.
"Hello, Harry, Hermione."
"Hi, Hagrid!" Why is she so cheerful?
"Hey, Hagrid. What are you doing?" Please say it's something of importance so I can get out of here.
"Just getting' a bit 'o fresh air." Of course why not let's make this a long and drawn out conversation. I really wish I were back in my dorm.
First comes heavy breathing
Staring at the ceiling
What will come next
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
"What are you two doing walking alone around the grounds? Nothin' goin' on that maybe I should know about is there?" Stop winking!
"Well, er, as a matter of fact, Hagrid, Harry and I are going out." Hermione said and blushed crimson.
"Oh, really, and how come I didn' know about this sooner?"
"Because it only just happened about five minutes ago." Stop being so nosy mind your own business.
"Did it really now?"
"Yes, Hagrid, Harry just asked me out while we were walking away from the lake."
"Well, no, I always knew you two would make a nice couple." There was a strange twist under his beard. Stop smiling at us like that!
"And when did you plan on informing us of this?"
"When you two were smart enough to figure it out. I really didn' think it would take yeh this long, what with Hermione being so smart and Harry well being Harry."
"Thanks for not telling us, Hagrid." Speak for yourself Hermione.
"Well, yeh, see, Hermione, it's jus' more fun figurin' things out on your own yeh see."
"You're right, Hagrid." Oh, shut up, Hermione
"How long have you known this?"
"Oh, since the first day I saw you and Hermione here getting' along."
"Next time, please share pieces of information you have like that."
"Sure, Harry."
"Well, Hargrid, we were on our way back to the castle. Do you want to come with us?" Please say yes, being alone with Hermione is going to be awkward I can see it coming.
"No, no, I'll leave you two alone." Stop winking!
"Ok, suit yourself."
"See you later, Hargrid!" Hermione called as he walked away and we started toward the castle once more. We were both silent for what seemed like the millionth time today, not knowing what to say to one another. We reached the doors and were inside before one of us spoke again.
"I'm going to the library, Harry, I want to finish that essay Snape assigned. You can come with me if you want."
"Um, no, I actually already finished that. I think I'm going to go fly for a little bit before dinner. See you later."
"Alright, see you at dinner."
We both started to walk away from each other. Flying actually really didn't seem like a bad idea, I want to clear my head and that always does the trick.
Framed pictures start to be put on the walls
Constant visits while I'm out on the road
It's hard to leave sometimes
But you know where I lay my head at night
I didn't see anyone between the time I left the Tower and reached the Quidditch pitch, but I really don't care because I have more important things to think about now. I kicked off, but my head didn't clear like it usually does. This day has been so strange. What am I going to do about Hermione? I feel really bad because I am leading her on, I do like a little more than a friend, but not much more. I don't know what to do. She apparently really likes me. Oh, this isn't good, because I can't tell her the truth because she'll get really mad at me and I wouldn't blame her at all, but I don't want to lose one of my best friends. This is so difficult, and I know I'm going to feel so awkward around her now. It won't be the same as it use to be, even when Ron's around. This is going to be so hard, and I just don't know what to do. Poor Hermione I'm really leading her on, and just make Ginny jealous. Ginny obviously doesn't care for me like that anymore since she's dating Malfoy, which I still can't believe. He's such a slimy git, but right now I guess I'm not much better then him. I don't know I guess I'll just have to try going out with Hermione for a little while and see how it works out, and if it doesn't we can just go back to being friends and I won't ever have to tell her what started this in the first place. But really, what other choice do I have?
First comes heavy breathing
Staring at the ceiling
What will come next
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
A/N: Sorry it's been so long since I updated but I've been on vacation and people have been visiting and my computer hates me and what not but yeah, so here we go. This chapter's song is by New Found Glory
Chapter 12
I Don't Wanna Know
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
Okay, Hermione asked me to meet her in the Common Room. So I'm waiting here alone because Ron went to meet Gwen at the half waypoint between the Gryffindor and Ravenclaw Common Rooms. He said he'd wait for us there. I really can't imagine what's taking Hermione so long to get ready she said she was going to meet 10 minutes ago. I have half a mind to ask the next girl who comes down the steps to go see what's taking her so long. Someone's coming down now. Oh, good it's Hermione.
"Hey, Harry!"
"Hey, 'Mione!" I can feel myself going red, why am I going red Hermione and me are friends; I'm never embarrassed around her.
"Ready to go then?"
"Yeah, what took you so long?"
"Oh, Lavender was going through my jewelry because she wanted to borrow something, but there were some things I didn't want her to borrow because well they're kind of valuable and you know Lavender isn't the most careful person in the world, so I wanted to be there so I could see what she was taking."
"Oh, ok."
"Where's Ron?"
"We're suppose to meet him and Gwen half way between the Gryffindor and Ravenclaw Common Rooms."
"Which would be where?"
"The steps leading to the Entrance Hall."
"Hey, wait you guys!" Oh, no not now Ginny.
"Hey, Gin." Hermione said to her
"Hi."
"Hey, Harry, Hermione. You guys going down to the Entrance Hall?"
"Yeah."
"Can I walk with you? That's where I'm meeting Draco." Why he's not good enough for you. He's a slimy Slytherin.
"Sure, but we're meeting Ron and Gwen first."
"Alright."
We walked most of the way in silence. There's a weird look on Hermione's face, almost like she's fighting the urge to hit Gin in the face. I mean there's really no reason for her to do that is there? Hermione can't possibly really want to be alone with me could she? No that can't be it. Oh, I don't want to see that.
"Hey, Ron, you guys wanna not do that in public. We don't want to see that, make out with your girlfriend in privacy."
"Very funny, Harry."
Your eyes were covered in sunglasses
When they first met mine
I sat there and stared at you
You didn't seem to mind
The awkward ways we meet
"Hey, Gin." Malfoy you slimy git, stay away from Ginny.
"Hey, Draco." Ginny you can do so much better then him; please just don't even go out with him once.
"Ready to go?" Just say no, Gin, and run back to the tower.
"Of course." No, Gin, you can't go. Wow, I've never seen Ron look so murderous, but I'm sure my expression isn't much better.
"If you dare try anything with my sister, I swear I will kill you, Malfoy." Yeah, Ron, and I'll help.
"Relax, Weasley, your sister's perfectly safe with me." Yeah right like we all believe that.
"Alright, but if you try even the smallest thing, I swear I will curse you." Oh, I'll do more then that, I think I might just kill him.
"Don't worry about Ginny." Oh, it's a little late for that Malfoy.
"Come on, Ron, let's go." Thanks Gwen yes-good idea- avoid a murder scene, for now. We headed out the door in silence and down the slopping hills toward the village.
"Gwen and me are going to go off on our own, if you two don't mind."
"Go right ahead." Hermione said. We watched them walk off.
"So where to, Hermione?"
"Are you hungry?"
"No, not really, are you?"
"No, how about we just wander around for a little while and then get something to eat?"
'Sounds like a plan."
We headed off down the main road; Hermione started talking about how we had just started human Transfigurations. It is actually pretty interesting, and Hermione already knows a lot more about it then I do probably do to the fact that she spends more time in the library reading then I do, but then Hermione spends more time in the library then almost anyone except maybe that overbearing librarian.
"Hey, 'Mione, do you know where we are?"
"Yeah, we're right by the mountain where Sirius use to hide." her voice faded slightly. And I know she noticed the change in my face after she said that.
"Oh, I'm sorry, Harry, I didn't mean to, I know you're still upset."
"No, I'm fine, really." She just looked at me for a few minutes. I know she doesn't believe me, but Hermione knows all too well what will happen if she pursues the conversation.
"Why, don't we go find somewhere to eat, Harry? I'm getting kind of hungry. What about you?"
"Yeah, I'm hungry. Where do you want to go?"
"Hmmm, well why don't we just go to the Three Broomsticks, I'm pretty sure they serve more then just drinks, but if they don't we'll find some place to eat."
We found our way back to the main street and into the pub. Hermione went up to the counter to place our orders while I went to find a table. It was considerably less crowded then normal especially since it was a Hogsmeade weekend. Hermione came back to the table.
"There isn't much in the way of food, so I ordered us a couple of sandwiches and some butterbeer. Sound good to you?"
"Sounds great."
Hermione started off on another one of her house elves rant, I think I was only half listening because I was still thinking about Sirius. I'm pretty sure she caught on though, but in respect of my privacy Hermione didn't say anything. She was always better and more tactful about these types of things then Ron.
First comes heavy breathing
Staring at the ceiling
What will come next
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
Our lunches arrived and they really did look good. I guess maybe because I was more hungry then I thought, or maybe just because it was really good. Hermione and I talked a little during out lunch. We finished and I went to go pay.
"Oh, here, Harry, for mine." she said offering me some money
"No, Hermione, remember this is a date. I'll pay for you."
"You sure."
"Am I sure about what? That this is a date or that I'm going to pay for you?"
"Haha, Harry, very funny."
"Well I thought so, and excuse me, I'm going to go pay the lady for our lunches. I'll be right back." I paid and came right back to the table.
"Harry, you really didn't have to pay for me."
"I wanted to."
"Oh, um, alright then. Um, where to next?"
"Well what time is it?"
"About 1:30."
"Really already? Well unless there is anything you wish to do here, why don't we go back to the castle and walk around the grounds for a little while?"
"Sure, let's go back to the castle."
We started walking back to the castle. We were both quiet for a little while. Then I thought of something that didn't make any sense.
"Hermione, I thought you were still going out with Viktor Krum."
"No, Harry, actually I haven't been going out with him since the summer between 4th and 5th year."
"Oh, really, I thought you really liked him."
"I did, but we both agreed that it would be better if we were just friends since we were so far apart all the time. That's why I kept writing to him because we're friends."
"Oh, well I guess it's nice to have a pen pal."
"Yeah."
We were silent for another spell while we walked around the lake and towards Hagrid's cabin.
"Harry, can I ask you a questions?"
"Of course." Hermione never asks that unless something is really serious. I wonder what's up.
"Why did you ask me out?" Ok, I really wasn't expecting that. Oh, great I can feel myself going red again.
"Um, well, you now we've been spending a lot of time alone together, and well I don't know I think I might like as more then just a friend, you know?" Ok so that's not entirely false, I do sometimes feel kind of I don't I guess attracted to Hermmione. Yeah, I guess that's the way to put it.
"Oh!" She looks a little embarrassed, "Oh, well um, how come you didn't say anything before?"
"Well this is kind of recent."
"Oh, I, um, don't really know what to say."
"Well, um do you kind feel the same way too?"
I never cared how I dressed before
But I cared that night
Anticipation ran through my bones
And my clothes never fit right
I can wait 'til we meet again
Hermione looks a little nervous.
"Yeah, I think I do, Harry." Yeah, I'm not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing here, because she really believes I like her as more then just my bookworm friend, I'm mean I kind of do sometimes but not all the time. Oh, shit what do I do now?
"Really, you do?" I can't believe this is happening; she's like my best friend. I don't know what I really expected to happen today; I mean I did ask her out. What am I doing?
"Yeah, Harry, I do." Merlin, help me!
"Ok, well that's good to know." Way to go Harry that was a stupid thing to say.
"Yeah, um, well what do we do now?"
"Well, um would you be my girlfriend?" No, no, no, no, no why did I just say that? WHY? What's wrong with me, that was possibly the stupidest thing I've ever said. For the love of Merlin say no!
"Um, alright, Harry." Why couldn't you have just laughed in my face and said yeah right, that would have made me feel so much better. Why am I being so stupid?
"Really? That's great!" No this is the opposite of great this is terrible, absolutely terrible. Why couldn't I just keep my mouth shut? Oh, this just isn't good.
"Yeah." Please tell me that's all you have to say. And it looks like it.
"Um, do you want to go back up to the castle?" What am I going to do? This is insane!
"Sure." Good a nice short walk up to the castle, I'll make an excuse and go to my dorm and figure out what I'm going to do now. Oh, no there's Hagrid.
"Hello, Harry, Hermione."
"Hi, Hagrid!" Why is she so cheerful?
"Hey, Hagrid. What are you doing?" Please say it's something of importance so I can get out of here.
"Just getting' a bit 'o fresh air." Of course why not let's make this a long and drawn out conversation. I really wish I were back in my dorm.
First comes heavy breathing
Staring at the ceiling
What will come next
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
"What are you two doing walking alone around the grounds? Nothin' goin' on that maybe I should know about is there?" Stop winking!
"Well, er, as a matter of fact, Hagrid, Harry and I are going out." Hermione said and blushed crimson.
"Oh, really, and how come I didn' know about this sooner?"
"Because it only just happened about five minutes ago." Stop being so nosy mind your own business.
"Did it really now?"
"Yes, Hagrid, Harry just asked me out while we were walking away from the lake."
"Well, no, I always knew you two would make a nice couple." There was a strange twist under his beard. Stop smiling at us like that!
"And when did you plan on informing us of this?"
"When you two were smart enough to figure it out. I really didn' think it would take yeh this long, what with Hermione being so smart and Harry well being Harry."
"Thanks for not telling us, Hagrid." Speak for yourself Hermione.
"Well, yeh, see, Hermione, it's jus' more fun figurin' things out on your own yeh see."
"You're right, Hagrid." Oh, shut up, Hermione
"How long have you known this?"
"Oh, since the first day I saw you and Hermione here getting' along."
"Next time, please share pieces of information you have like that."
"Sure, Harry."
"Well, Hargrid, we were on our way back to the castle. Do you want to come with us?" Please say yes, being alone with Hermione is going to be awkward I can see it coming.
"No, no, I'll leave you two alone." Stop winking!
"Ok, suit yourself."
"See you later, Hargrid!" Hermione called as he walked away and we started toward the castle once more. We were both silent for what seemed like the millionth time today, not knowing what to say to one another. We reached the doors and were inside before one of us spoke again.
"I'm going to the library, Harry, I want to finish that essay Snape assigned. You can come with me if you want."
"Um, no, I actually already finished that. I think I'm going to go fly for a little bit before dinner. See you later."
"Alright, see you at dinner."
We both started to walk away from each other. Flying actually really didn't seem like a bad idea, I want to clear my head and that always does the trick.
Framed pictures start to be put on the walls
Constant visits while I'm out on the road
It's hard to leave sometimes
But you know where I lay my head at night
I didn't see anyone between the time I left the Tower and reached the Quidditch pitch, but I really don't care because I have more important things to think about now. I kicked off, but my head didn't clear like it usually does. This day has been so strange. What am I going to do about Hermione? I feel really bad because I am leading her on, I do like a little more than a friend, but not much more. I don't know what to do. She apparently really likes me. Oh, this isn't good, because I can't tell her the truth because she'll get really mad at me and I wouldn't blame her at all, but I don't want to lose one of my best friends. This is so difficult, and I know I'm going to feel so awkward around her now. It won't be the same as it use to be, even when Ron's around. This is going to be so hard, and I just don't know what to do. Poor Hermione I'm really leading her on, and just make Ginny jealous. Ginny obviously doesn't care for me like that anymore since she's dating Malfoy, which I still can't believe. He's such a slimy git, but right now I guess I'm not much better then him. I don't know I guess I'll just have to try going out with Hermione for a little while and see how it works out, and if it doesn't we can just go back to being friends and I won't ever have to tell her what started this in the first place. But really, what other choice do I have?
First comes heavy breathing
Staring at the ceiling
What will come next
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
