CHAPTER EIGHT – FORBIDDEN MEMORIES
"Yue? What?...why?" – said Touya a little surprised because it was over three years by now the he last saw Yue. He almost forgot about his life.
"Good night To-ya…" - Said some strange voice but with the same tenderness that Yuki mentions his name.
Something was not right. Why would Yue appear after so long?... something was happening for sure.
"Yue, do you… do you need something?" – said Touya a little afraid, but in a lovely way, after all, Yue was his lover's other half.
"No, I was just… anyway… I was seeing you and… my false form and I…wondered how nice it would be if…if…nothing. Forget it…" - Yue turned away to the living room hiding the blush on his cheeks.
"What Yue? Say it. What would be nice?"
"I … it's been so long since the last time I felt so happy. We were wondering if, since me and my false form are the same, if you could be…do…the same, 'cause Yukito would feel complete, and so would I."
"Same?"
"Yeah, you know? Like you did on the sofa…" - he lowered his head thinking about what he just said. He asked the guy to love him! A strange thing to ask – "No"
"You like Yukito, not me, you could never love me. Me and Yukito we are NOT the same. How could you. How could you love me?" – He realized that he was impulsive and used normal words to talk to Touya and he never talked about his feelings so openly with someone before
"I just needed to know. I should never leave Yukito's mind. I'm just… I'm useless now and I'm bored" – as he turned his way to the living room, Touya put hi hand on the angel's shoulder, turned him and kissed him very passionately.
"Yue and Yuki are the same to me. I love both of you, you should've told me before, and so we could know eachother better by now. Why you kept yourself for so long? 3 years is a long time…"
"Sorry, but I …couldn't understand why or how could you love two people, two totally different people."
"You are sad Yue. I wish I could know you better, learn things about you, your life, your wishes, your desires…what…what do you like? And why don't you eat? Why are you still here without touching me?"
Touya somehow felt about Yue the same he feels about Yukito; his aura was as bright as the letter. He love both the same way.
"I'm useless, the mistress have turned the Clow cards into Sakura cards a long time ago. She got strong and I could calmly and unconsciously return you power back. You are happy with Yukito and I couldn't interfere in your relationship. Nobody needs me anymore. I can't protect no one now, so I slept on yukito's mind for all these years and almost vanished totally, but… I can't, I can't keep this loneliness anymore. It's hurting me. Suffocating me. You are my only hope, so I came today to ask you for a favor…"
"Say it."
"Can you love me?"
Touya was shocked, he didn't know what to say, all he could do was smile, touch Yue's chin and close his eyes
"Yue. If I close my eyes I can feel you better. You are as soft as Yuki and as warm as him… Your hair is like silk and your lips…" - touya gently kissed them
"Your lips taste like…moon."
Yue smiled. The first one in years. And it was a sincere smile. Touya wrapped his arms around the angel's waist pulling him close to feel his body better. Long silver hair was all over Touya's arms. They were kissing deeper now, tongues battle within them. A soft laugh in Yue's head.
"Will you love me?" – asked Yue with a child face. Just like Yukito.
Touya gently drove Yue to his bedroom. Once they were safe and alone Touya started taking out Yue's robe.
"A lot of cloth" – he thought
Yue was wearing a white one piece now with his hair unbraided. He came close to Touya, hugging him.
"You told me you wanted to know me better. Still want that?"
"Yes, then I'm complete. You and Yukito will make me happy. Like always…"
Yue put his lips on Touya's collarbone and spread his wings. Suddenly the room was full with wind and a very strong light. Touya widened his eyes, he was not seeing Yue or his room anymore, and he was in some kind of house on an antique way of living. There was a tall man, with a dark-blue coat with stars. Beside him was a little boy with silver hair, maybe five or six year-old, and a yellow cat with wings. Another scene. The silver haired boy, now with 10 years, playing with some creature that seemed to be made of water. Clow the child kept saying… The man is sitting on his red chair, reading a book, when a teenager enters the room. The same silvered hair boy, with 19 years old. He was crying and screaming something that Touya couldn't read or listen. Suddenly the older guy comes close to the angel, grab him with violence and kiss him full on the lips. 23 years now. A bed. With black silk sheets. A man is sleeping, he has blue long hair and he seems to be calm now. The angel enters the room somewhat nervous. Get on his knees and kiss the Mage's front, making him awake. Suddenly the angel was in bed, getting naked by the older man. Passionate screams and tears all over. The mage was possessing the younger creature and the letter seemed to like it. Somewhat violent. 25 years now. He was again crying his head on the Mage's lap. Touya could read what the angel was saying. I love you Clow . Touya was now feeling a pain in his heart, maybe he was feeling the same pain that Yue was feeling at that moment time. A living room. Silence. Touya walked across the room to find the mage talking to his guardians. The silver haired man was crying and screaming and the golden lion was quiet with his head looking at the floor. A kiss and the angel fall asleep, turning into some kind of symbol. Another kiss and the lion stick into some kind of book that vanishes a second later. The mage turned and faced Touya. He smiled a little and said: Your judgment won't take long to happen . After that, Touya was back to reality, Yue was still hugging him and they were still on his room.
"What? What was that?" – said Touya feeling both sad and amazed
"Those were all of my forbidden memories. Now you know everything about me… I just sent you to my past… sorry for all my memories, they're all sad…" - as he looked a the floor
"Yue…you suffered so much! You don't deserve that! You didn't deserve that! I wish I could do something. No! I will do something! I'm gonna make you very happy. I promiss. Forget these bad memories. I'll be here now, forever by your side… forever with you…" - as they hugged eachother
"I love you Touya"
They kissed as Touya put Yue in his bed. The angel hided his wings and took his clothes off totally. Touya looke amazed by the angel's body, touching the body like if it was going to crack. Touya noticed that Yue had the same spots that Yukito had. The angel was sensible with Touya's touches and became aroused as touya started working on his nipples and stroking him. With love, Touya opened Yue's legs while Yue sucked Touya's fingers lightly, making them moist. First Touya put his fingers inside Yue, making the angel cry his name out. After he placed his erection on that small hole and entered all inside Yue, this one cried, feeling more pleasure that his body could handle.
"It's been so long… I don't feel any pain with you To-ya, why? With Clow, I always felt some pain, but with you… it's different… why?"
The angel went wild when Touya hit that spot inside every man. Touya stroked Yue in the same rhythm as his hips movement in and out, leading them to the total orgasm. They fell in the bed totally breathless. Their bodies covered with heat. Touya fell asleep fast, because he was tired, the angel stood awake, feeling Touya's hair.
"Thank you to-ya, I'll love you forever. He, Yuki is glad… we are… complete now…"
And both were sleeping
