Disclaimer: I do no
own Inuyasha or any of its characters. I do own Charha and her sister Kara.
Buried Memories Remembered.
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(Flashback)
(Hey what do you expect?) I looked at the road
ahead of me. My parents just didn't understand me. My little sister is a pest.
Why would they buy me a car and then tell me to take that brat everywhere she
wanted. I was paying for it, even though they bought it for me. "Insurance
doesn't pay its self" they said, "Your getting a job whether or not
you like it.
On weekends they would force me to take that poser sister skating from 7 to midnight. I wanted to spend my extra time with
friends not babysitting. With extra cash I would get my car new parts that
would increase its speed. A new paint job caught every-ones attention. Dad
asked why I got one. I told him white wasn't my color.
I met Jordan
one day while looking at N.O.S. He told me, that my car was a piece of art,
while my parents called it a death trap. He asked if I ever tried drag racing.
If I didn't get involved with it my parents would still be alive. I was angry
with them 24/7. I never got to hang with friends, due to my sisters stupid
after school activities and whatever else she could come up with. Drag racing
was my new best friend. Jordan
helped me find places to race and with him by my side I got my first win.
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I took the time while Inuyasha was recovering from his spill to collect my bag
and head back to the well if I came here through it I was going home that way
too. It was pitch black and I was sure any more time here and I'd be some
demons dinner or worse. Inuyasha appeared before me in the dim moon light as I
marched on.
My one woman march ended abruptly with a scowling hanyou. "Don't touch me
I'm going home" I was kicking and fighting Inuyasha. He had grabbed my
arms and was now dragging me to his camp. My legs were bare and the dirt strewn
ground mixed with pebbles and rocks nipped at my delicate skin.
"You're not going anywhere, you're my Miko now and you have to help me
find the Shikon no tama shards." My eyes widened did he just say Shikon no
Tama but mom had told me Gram was just telling lies about it being real. "Its
just some old tale they tell."
I felt my arms fall to the ground and knew he was tired of
dragging me, because I had begun to whimper. My legs were cut up from the
roughness of the ground he had already hauled me across. "You know I'm
human and I can get hurt worst than you?" I said remembering Gram say that
demons heal faster and aren't affected by mortal wounds like human's are.
"Shut up wench." He picked me up from my lazy rag doll position. I let
myself lay limply hoping he would drop me.
"I'm going home and I'm not your Miko." I raised my hand that had a
tattoo on the palm. Jesse James trademark tattoo, but instead of reading Pay Up
Sucker mine read, Fides Nullus, Serva Ad Nullus, which is Latin. (Look it up if
you don't believe me)
"What is that mark, you belong to someone?" He said in a jealous yet cocky
tone causing me to hold back a small childish giggle.
"No, fool it's a tattoo." I glared at him in an angry way. "As a
matter of fact it says, I trust no one and I'm a slave to no one." The
jealous expression faded quickly making me feel a little less disturbed by his
reaction to my tattoo.
He dropped me on a sleeping mat, and called Shippou to tend to my wounds.
"What language is it?" Shippou ran over and wrapped my injuries not
taking an eye off Inuyasha. It made me wonder if the little adorable cutie
fears the big mean dog beast. I returned to the question at hand and answered,
"Latin not that you know what it is anyway." A fury little body sat
on my chest looking at me with its bare face.
"How did that happen?" He looked at my bandaged legs.
"Osuwari!" I glared at the face planted Inuyasha, "He did
it." I pointed at the now flat-faced Inuyasha whom had lifted his face to
grimace back at me.
"She would…" He hit the ground face first yet again. "Don't say
that!" He ran and sat above me knowing I didn't want to be crushed by him,
and so I wouldn't say sit.
"He was dragging me by my arms across the rocky ground."
"Yeah but she wouldn't listen to me. She reminds me of that last miko,
Kagome." He said with a disappointed look. Something clicked in my head,
not that things always do but now it was coming together clear as day.
"Kagome Higurashi?" I looked at him wondering if he knew Gram, my Gram.
"You know Kagome?" Shippou yelled ecstatically.
"She doesn't smell like the wench." Inuyasha said coldly smelling me
lingering on my mid section which made me shudder. He certainly had a way with
making someone feel uncomfortable in any situation and I had just recently met
him. I felt a sudden pity for Shippou who must have dealt with the sick humor
of the hanyou for a while now.
"Yes she is my grandma." I gave him a groggy, look and yawned.
"If your tired go to sleep no-one is stopping you bitch." He gave me
a look that made me shudder once more. If anything the last thing I wanted to
do was sleep no matter how tired I got I just didn't trust him.
"How can I sleep, when I can't trust you?" I got up and leaned
against a tree to hold me up, and stop me from falling asleep.
"What you're the one who can't be trusted." He bit back making me
jump, from my tired state. "You're the one who is related to that liar
Kagome."
"How is she a liar?" I wasn't confused but in disbelief. My dear Gram
a liar, never. She was the most truthful person I had ever known, well her and Jena
my best friend.
"She said she would come back, she promised. She never did. I couldn't get
to her time because the well was sealed." He said tears swelling and
threatening to roll down his cheeks. "She lied to me." He turned away from me
letting me know he didn't want to be seen this way.
"She was married at 17. I bet she couldn't come because of that. I
personally don't know why would she come back here with you. She sealed the
well. Must have been because of your arrogance." I tried to comfort him
but my pride and love for my Gram would not allow me to let him call her a
liar. She wasn't one not at all. She was always there for me until now at least
but this was different. She hadn't lied to him she had just found out bad news
that's all.
I went through me back pack searching for something to cover my legs.
"So how did you get here?" He said changing the subject.
"Fell down the well, DUH!" I looked up at the half demon that was
taking off the first layer of his kimono. He must have heard me shivering. He
walked to me and covered me. "You can sleep if you want no one will hurt
you wench." I felt a slight tingle and looked at him before letting myself
retort.
"That's really assuring, you tell me no one will hurt me, but you still
call me a wench." I threw his top as I got up and smacked him. "You
have the nerve." I smacked him again. "And I don't belong to you or
anyone else." I smacked him once more and ran into the forest. Tears
streaming down my face I realized more than I wanted to. I couldn't take the
days events. The fight and than being sucked out of my world my life to this,
this hell. I wanted so much to just curl up on my bed and cry cold tears for no
one but myself.
"No one understands me. I hate everyone and everything." I stumbled
over a tree root and fell to the ground in tears. I let everything that ailed
me flood my mind as I cried lying on the ground. Everything hurt so bad.
"Why did they have to die? Its all my fault, if I were just there Kara
wouldn't be in that wheelchair. If I didn't do all those drugs she would be
here where she belongs." More tears hit the ground. I couldn't handle all
the pressures. "Why not me?" I heard footsteps behind me and I lifted
my eyes to see him.
"Why are you crying?" Inuyasha had followed me to where I lay crying.
Crying for all the things I had done and all the things that were a result to
my behavior.
"You don't need to know, it's not your problem." He grabbed my
shivering, crying and now wet body. His stare caught my eyes and I pulled
closer to him. All I wanted was someone to hold me and tell me it would be ok
but it wouldn't be. What was done was done and I couldn't change it no matter
how hard I tried.
He pulled me closer than I expected and leaned his face down to look at me.
"Why are you crying?" He dried my eyes with his kimono as I pulled
closer to him. I was out of Character by comforting myself in someone else's
embrace. I was a loner the one who people came to for help not the other way
around. I guess I broke when my walls crumbled before me. I needed someone to
hold and tell me it was going to be ok. I just wanted someone's warm embrace
and at this point Inuyasha would do.
"I can't tell it will awaken to many sleeping memories." I turned my
face away from his.
He gracefully maneuvered his clawed fingers to lift me face back towards his.
"They can't be that bad." His eyes sparkled in the moonlight, as I
looked deeply into them. Had he just let his barrier down was he willing to
listen to what others wouldn't? I wanted to tell him just to let the pain go.
But I couldn't I didn't want to let the memories surface and run wild and hurt
me more than they had already.
"They're too painful." He gave me his puppy eyes and slowly began to
carry me back to camp. Did he really care what had caused this sudden change
was he actually willing to listen? I bit my lip and let the memories boil
through my mind. As I did they boiled over with his next question asked.
"What was your fault? Why do you wish to be dead?" He jumped into the
biggest tree near the camp. He jumped branch to branch and stopped at the
highest one above everything around us. I felt the ties holding my memories in
break and I couldn't hold them any longer.
"My parent's death." 'I can't believe I just told him that. He makes
me feel so angry.' I cleared my throat and began my long agonizing story.
"They died because of me. I was being a...
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Jordan
thought I should stop dragging for the rest of the night and go to a rave,
after my 23rd win. I was having fun, even though it was a dumb way to do it.
"Here try this." Jordan
handed me a pill with Tweety on it. I thought it was cute. I was already high
from smoking some weed and drunk on top of that but I took the Tweety faced
pill anyway.
I heard a commotion outside and went to see what it was. I looked out to the street to see a gold colored van smashed and on fire. My vision was blurry but I began to panic. The other car was on the other side of the van in worst shape, but the driver was walking. Blue lights flashed and clashed with the red ones. I realized the van was my parents, and my whole family was trapped inside. I ran as fast as I could, but it felt almost impossible to get there. Sis was the first one pulled out she was bleeding from her nose. She told me she couldn't feel her body, and that mom and dad were searching for me.
Mom was next, her face was pale and she wasn't moving. That's when the tears fell. "No not mom not my mom." Jordan was nowhere to be found. She coughed up blood and died a few minutes later. The last thing she told me was that she loved me and to take care of Kara, as she held my hand.
A paramedic pulled dad out. "Dad are you ok?" I looked at his lifeless body as the paramedic tried to revive him. I swear he could have tried harder. I sat there on the bumper of the ambulance for a few minutes. A cop came over to me to see who I was. He noticed I was drunk and had me walk the line. I failed so he checked to see if my eyes were dilated. That's when he knew I was high. He read me my rights and arrested me.
I was in placement for a year. I got out and was told I was going to live with my aunt. My sister was living with her as well. I was fighting at school at least twice a week so my aunt sent me to live with my grandmother. I had really screwed up.
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Tears rolled down my cheeks. "I caused all of it. My sister shouldn't be
in a wheelchair, I should." I felt the grip Inuyasha had on me tightened.
He didn't back away like my aunt had when I only wanted her to hug me or at
least show some sign that she cared about me. It was a shock Inuyasha still
held my close even though I was at fault.
"What is done is done and can never be changed." His words were almost like a wake up call for me. I remembered people telling me the same thing but they weren't so truthful sounding. I felt some of my pain calm but the feeling of disappointment hurt me still. It had disappointed my entire family. Gram was the only one who said she loved me and that what happens is destiny and not you're choice.
I thought it over and over for what felt like hours and
pushed away from him. I needed space, and I wanted to be alone now to think. "I
want to go home." I couldn't bare the fact that he understood my story so
I wanted a way out.
"You can't go." He said looking at me with his amber yellow eyes.
"Your grandma told me she is going to die. She said she had cancer. She
knocked you into the well you didn't fall. She told me she was going to seal it
for good." I pulled further away not believing him. Gram wouldn't do this
not to me not now. He pulled me back into his embrace he was still trying to
comfort me and I wanted so much to go and just die with my Gram. How could she
not tell me and let me make my own choice. My heart shattered I couldn't do
this; not another loss. I wanted everything to end then and there. It was all a
dream like I had thought before.
"What, I can't stay here." I tried to get free from his grip.
"What else did she tell you? Tell me now, why do I have to stay here with
you?" He grabbed my arms and pulled them in one of the sleeves of his
kimono. Tears were falling freely as I struggled to get loose from him.
"Look your not going to like this, and not at a time like this but I have
to tell you everything. Your grandma told me you were a little hard to handle.
That was true and she asked if I would sire and you to keep you safe. You have
to stay because no one will take care of you in your time, and something about
a system." He pulled me closer holding me in just the right position that
I could hear his heartbeat. It calmed me for a second as his words swirled
around in my head and I tried to put them together to form some kind of
meaning.
I pulled away from him and sat down across from him on his branch. "I
won't get lost in the system, and what do you mean by sire?" He grabbed my
hands again. He was getting to close for comfort. "Siring is when I give
you my blood and make you mine. She told me you would be impossible. You're
pretty thick headed. Just let me sire you, be my mate." His eyes were
glued to mine. Had he just asked me to be his mate? I wasn't ready and I didn't
think I'd ever be ready for such a thing. This was turning out to be some Mary
Sue story only written on the internet for fan girls. Was he serious?
I yanked my hands away and stepped back from him and thought, 'It's not going
to be love. He'll never love you. Love doesn't even exist.' I leaned back
dropping backwards like the Brandon Lee in the movie The Crow falling from the
top of a building, but from a tree instead hopping I'd hit the ground and die.
A flash of red caught me. "Let go of me. I can't stay here, and I'd never
survive here. I'm too weak, you told me yourself." We landed on the ground
below from where we were sitting. His face had a sincere look about it as he
adjusted me.
"I also promised to protect you, whether it be form any demon or yourself.
Never do that again." He placed me on the ground. Had he just said he had
promised protect me? I opened my mouth a bit to question him when he ran into
the forest and returned with a yellow backpack.
"She told me to give this to you." He handed me the stuffed backpack.
I went through it finding shoes clothing and a diary. The diary wasn't mine but
the rest was. "She touched my stuff, all my shoes are in here, and so are
all my cloths." Pants, heat I ripped a pair of baggy black jeans with red
pockets out of the oversized back pack. I glared at Inuyasha and blinked my
eyes while saying, "Inuyasha go away, while I change my cloths."
He walked away gingerly looking back only once. Shippou was sleeping so I was
ok with him being around.
"That damn girl, I wish she would answer
me…" I heard him say as he disappeared. The rest was muffed but it was probably
of no importance. I put my favorite pair of pants on and looked around. He was
there and than no where in sight, furthermore his stealth ability bugged me. He
couldn't have gone far which made me cringe. There was a possibility he was
crouched behind a bush somewhere. 'Hentai.' I thought.
"I'm done." I called. I heard a slight galloping sound when I saw him
come running. He knocked me to the ground below him. "What are you
doing?" He smelled my body from top to bottom.
"You smell different, you're wearing pants, and as a matter of fact you
have two layers on. Is it that cold? I'll keep you warm. Be my mate I want you
as my mate", he pulled his eyes to mine they were different less compassionate.
"What your mate?" I grabbed his kimono and rolled him over so I was
above him instead of vice versa. "Let me get to know you?"
"No wench, I don't need to get to know you, take off a layer of clothing.
I can't smell you scent." He pulled my hoodie, and than scratched at my
heavy jeans. "Take them off."
"Wait a minute, what are you doing? Why do you need to smell my scent?"
I looked into his eyes, lust, and more lust all I saw was lust, a sin.
"I like your scent. Let me smell it?" He kept pulling on my pants.
"Please let me smell it please?" I was scared he was freaking me out.
"Why can't you smell my scent from my face or my chest?" I looked
down at him, he was in pain, and I didn't know why. I rubbed the back of his
head trying to calm him and he snapped a way from me burying his face deeper
into my jeans.
"It's so sweet, just let me? I want you and no one else as my mate."
He rolled on top of me and held me down. I couldn't get free and I started to
push up on him but he didn't budge. He was going crazy like my male cat did
when alley cats were in heat. That's when it hit me.
My body was screaming yes and by mind was saying no. "Inuyasha, I can't…
be..." I sensed something and it reminded me of the tingle I had ignored
earlier that evening. It was strong, but not strong like a formidable opponent
for Inuyasha but like stomp Inuyasha to mush opponent.
"Inuyasha what is that? I feel something strong." He peeled his body
away from mine instantly. This is his chance to prove to me that he could be
trusted and that his feelings were true. I wasn't a whore I didn't jump in
anyone's bed but I had felt like being that way but decided otherwise.
"Get back and stay behind me bitch." He pulled a transformed
tesusaiga from its sheath, and smelled the air. "It's strong."
I felt a tingle in my spine. "There's a shard." I said unsure of it.
'How can I be sure of that just because I felt a tingle?'
An arm wrapped around my waist, making me scream. "Inuyasha, behind
you." He turned to see me being pulled away. Tears instantly poured down
my cheeks and into my screaming mouth.
"Stupid wench!" He ran after me, but he began to fade into the dark.
"Come back here and fight me." He faded all the away into the dark
when I saw him drop to the ground in tears.
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She was gone I let her be taken by him why did I make her move away from me. I
should have known he would stoop so low to use that little bastard of a
sidekick as a shard carrier to throw my senses off balance. "Why did I
stop? He was too strong. I have to find her." I ran through the forest
searching for her scent. It was faint, but still there. "If she would take
off those damn pants, I would be able to smell he better."
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"Let me go you stupid freak." I was kicking at the demon that looked
almost exactly like Inuyasha. He had a crescent moon on his fore head and two
slash marks on each cheek. I felt his power and it was an immense aura. I
feared him as it radiated through my being.
He stopped at gates to a mansion. "Why didn't anyone tell my brother about
your other secrets?" He threw me over his shoulder. His clothing was magnificent.
Mostly white, with some red yellow and blue, and a light grey boa wrapped
around him. 'Secrets what secrets?' What was I some prize to be thrown around
and carried like someone's luggage.
"Did you say brother?" I shook
in fear hoping he wouldn't bite back at me, like Inuyasha, as I felt the power
grow stronger. It seems to be coming from the sword at his side. A magenta mist
rose and fell from it as I watched. He was making its power augment so strong I
felt it stream up into me like a wave passing through my body rather than over
it.
The door creaked open revealing a toad like creature standing before a huge
corridor. "Yes he is my pathetic half brother, and he doesn't deserve you.
Are you even aware of your telepathy and psycho kinesis?" He placed my
feet on the ground and lifted my chin, so I was looking at him. After he
carried me in. Was it possible I had these "Powers" or was he crazy? I watched
his eyes shift slightly as the door close with the same creaking noise it made
when opened. There was no sign of uncertainty, so I questioned him.
"What, how is that possible? I'm human and I 'm weak." I remembered
what Inuyasha said. "Lighting like what comes out of the sky" "Feh"
"It doesn't suit you; you're too stupid and weak." I looked down at
the floor. The hand on my face slid downward and I felt somewhat relieved. I
wasn't to sure if he was like Inuyasha or not. He could have ripped my throat
out and left me to bleed to death like the demon from that evening looked like
he wanted to do but he didn't.
"Jaken set the girl a bath and get her a robe." The demon grabbed my
arm as the toad went up a huge staircase. "You don't even know what you
are. How sad." My eyes darted up at the tall demon as he pulled me up the
huge marble staircase. 'What am I?' I thought, 'How could he know when I don't'
I glared at the demon. "Wha... What am I!? I yelled tired of his stupid
antics. "Tell me now!" A faint smile stretched across his face only
to make me shiver. Some how that smile didn't look natural. I regretted my big
mouth for even opening before anything really happened.
He pulled me up by my arm he held with his left hand. "Don't yell at me.
It won't get you anywhere." He dropped me letting me fall on the hard
floor with a cold expression one that didn't look like it left its owner very
often. It's was stoic yet somehow as cold as an artic winter. "Jaken, is
that bath ready yet!?" The toad came down the stairs soaked and nodded.
"Take a bath and change you ridiculous clothing." He turned and left me
alone with the stupid looking toad. It grabbed my hand and shuddered. I felt in
control he was the one who was shaking warily as if I would turn and bite him
at any moment for touching my hand.
"Follow me." He headed up the stairs. "Master Sesshoumaru really
feels for you, but you can't be rude to him. He has a short temper. Its
something he and his dumbfounded brother share." He led the way into a
white marble bathroom filled with steam. "You bath is set and your robe is
here on the partition." He set a black robe down on the partition, and
tripped over one of my shoes on his way out. I laughed as he stumbled a few
more times before closing the door behind him. This was much more like it I was
comfortable in a warm somewhat cozy mansion.
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I walked to my study to think. I Sesshoumaru had just acquired a human woman, but why because she had telepathy and psycho kinesis. Of coarse she could be of some use to me but I only took her to be my mate. Rin had asked me numerous times if sis would ever have a mom. I waited in the forest that morning when that miko Inuyasha had fallen in love with came through the well. She had aged significantly from the last time I had seen her. What I heard next was intriguing. "Inuyasha you have to protect my grand child please. I am dying from cancer and the power she has I can no longer keep at bay. Her Mahoutsukai's Sasshi (Witch's Book.) has been restless and I fear the only thing that I can do is leave her in your time where someone can help her control it." A mere human with such power was all I needed to hear. Inuyasha would never control suck an accent form of power.
I smell ed the air taking in the fresh scent of her bathing. The steam carried
down to me stronger than it might have been with out the steam."Humph, and
she's in heat. Such a sweet stench, Jaken when she's done in the bathroom take
her to my chambers." The smell was strong overpowering but she would be mine so
it didn't matter.
I removed all my armor and headed upstairs to wait for my soon to be mate. The
smell was stronger as I passed the bathroom Jaken had left her in. Rin was
asleep but soon I would give her a brother or sister. This was my mate, human
or not; her strength was what mattered to me and not her species.
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"Get up you stupid brat, Charha's gone." I knocked Shippou Out of his
dream.
"Huh, where did she go?" The kitsune sat up and stretched. "I
can smell her, hum, she smells different.
"What?" I smelled the air and caught her scent. She was naked
somewhere." A low growl reverberated through my chest. "That son of a
bitch, he better not even think about touching her." I let the growl sound
still but as I spoke.
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Standing up I covered myself, and walked to the petition to grab the robe that
the toad had left me. I heard the toad talking to himself or so I thought, as I
finished dressing. The robe he had left was all I had and I felt like I was
naked.
I opened the door letting the steam escape into the huge hallway outside.
"About time you're done." The little toad stood up from his where he
was sitting. "I'll take you to your room now." I had my own room wow
this couldn't get any better.
I followed him down the hall. Two well-carved doors were ahead of us. My
thought of things couldn't get any better floated into my mind only to be cut
up diced and burned all at once. "Those doors look like the master
bedroom. I can't be staying in there nor am I?"
"Master told me to take you to his chamber." I grabbed the toad.
There was no way I wanted to be in a room with some guy who threw me around
like a rag doll. I was not some guys' trophy for beating his brother in
anything.
"He what, I don't think so, I am not staying anywhere with any man I don't
know." I punched the toad and threw him to the floor. "I want my own
Chamber." I cried stomping over the toad.
"I can't refuse masters orders." He rubbed the bump on his head. I
stopped and looked at him. 'Forget masters orders this woman doesn't do orders.'
"I'm leaving; you're so dumb you probably couldn't stop me." I went
to the toad and stomped him into the floor and walked to the stairs.
Down at the middle landing stood a well-built demon. He looked angrily at me.
"What are you doing go back to my chamber now!" He flashed up to up
to me like lighting. Talk about agility boy he had it. I froze.
"I'm sorry" I stepped back but fell over the stupid toad thing.
"Jaken!" The demon grabbed the toad and squeezed his head in his
hand. "What did I tell you to do?" He squeezed harder. I watched in
horror as the head of the creature started to implode by the pressure being
forced upon it.
"Umhamymasir." The toad tried to say something but failed.
I grabbed the demons arm and tried to stop him from killing the toad. I didn't
care for the creature sensing I didn't know him but hitting him was one thing
but killing him was a total different level. I pulled harder but I was too
weak. Its head popped and I was thrown to the ground screaming. "You sick
bastard."
The demon dropped the body of his loyal servant. "He didn't listen."
He grabbed my hair and feeling its dampness. He stroked it for a few moments
before I felt an agonizing pain shoot down and over my head. He was pulling me down the hall by it to his
chamber. I was screaming and crying for him to stop. I didn't deserve this. I
regretted saying I deserve all the pain possible like death but this was
torture.
"Let go, get off of me." The
doors to the chamber slammed open hitting the walls just beside them. I felt
the pulling on my hair wrench harder than before as he threw me onto his bed
and walked to the doors.
"Sleep now!" He closed the doors and I laid back glad he wasn't
staying. A headache started to form and I closed my eyes tights not wanting the
tears to escape.
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