Journeys
Disclaimer: Don't own the Beyblade characters. Rest of them are mine.
"Talking"
"Thinking"
! Oh my gosh! I just logged in and there are like lots of reviews. WOW! All I can say is thank you, thank you, thank you...did I say thank you. I haven't had a chance to read every single one coz I'm in a rush. But their all appreciatted. I'm sorry this is a kinda confusing story, I'll look into it.
A man once said a dream is a dream floating in your head, a wish is a wish until it is said, and hope is still hope till it is dead.
Dreams, a means of realising what can and what can't be, something to help you visualise the future before it becomes the past. How do I make it come true. How do I make it a reality? I know I am one step closer since last night, but now I am unsure, he was upset then, maybe now that he is in control again he will regret that moment of weakness.
Do I regret it?
All eyes turned to the door as Ray walked in. None said a word. They resumed their late lunch. Kai watched each one of them carefully, they had been discussing Ray when he had come in. Ever since two days ago. When Ray had transformed before them twice, once into a graceful tiger and the second time into a demon from Hell, they had treated him differently. Kai could still see friendship in Max, Kenny and Tyson, the last Kai suspected felt something more akin to lust, but there was a difference. They feared him, what he was capable of.
Kai noted Jaco's empty seat. He had gone with Kiara, after making her oath not to harm Ray again, to learn more about the darker side of the White Tigers. He would be gone for a few days. He had left Judy in charge, as she and the All-Stars weren't leaving anytime soon, and had told them all to be careful around Ray. For their safety as well as his. which brought Kai back to the others. Yesterday they had been talking about what to do if Ray turned on them again, Kai had been furious to hear it, and also what to make of the changes to Ray. Emily suggested they do a few tests on him, see what made him tick, then work out a way to supress or atleast minimise the effects. Kai had silently raged for hours after, they were talking of Ray like he was some lab rat to be played with and experimented on regardless of his feelings. ' To think she had a crush on him.' He glanced at her as the thought crossed his mind. He was rid of one potential affection seeker, but it seemed that Tyson would need more persuasion to see that Ray wasn't his. Persuasion that Kai was more than happy to try. He had shown his feelings for the other now he wasn't going to let anyone else lessen his joy.
He was pulled out of his thoughts when Ray stood and excused himself from the table. Kai noted with a small amount of shock that Ray had finished eating and was going out side.' Have I been thinking for that long?' He shook his head and left as well, taking his mug of coffee with. He ignored the look he got from Tyson, inwardly smirking as he realised Tyson was about o follow Ray. ' Beat you to it pig.' With that thought running through his mind like a song on repeat he ducked out into the garden. His thoughts of victory were cut short ashe saw Ray, and with it came guilt.
How could he claim ownership over Ray, he had said himself Ray was no object to own. He was a White Tiger, wild and free. Untameable, just the way he should be. Ray reminded Kai of the tigers he sometimes saw at home in Russia, in the huge nature reserves. They were wild and free, strong and beautiful. Just like Ray, but with that same sense of fragility. A wild thing could not be kept in the cage, all animals in Zoo's were born there, or atleast had been in cages for the majority of their lives. They lacked the raw power a wild animal possesed, which made it even more horrible when a wild animal was brought in. The captivity destroyed it, the animal died. Perhaps not in body, but in soul. It became a shell that people would flock to admire and then tell their friends of how they saw an animal, fresh from the wild. Ray was the same, to cage him would be to kill him. Kai could make his life comfortable, the money he had inherited meant he could give Ray anything, except for the one thing he would desire, the one thing he needed more than anything else.
His freedom. A golden cage was still a cage. All Kai could do was love him and hope that, though he couldn't tame his wild love, he could live in mutual harmony with that side of him. The side that disliked to be pampered.
Kai smiled, that brought him to another topic. Wild Ray may be but like any cat he had those soft spots, which Kai could say with pride tht he knew each one. It was those gentler traits that had made the more dominant side of Ray more loveable. Ray could be growling and spitting as if he was in the middle of a fit, usually after Tyson had taken his pancakes, and Kai would just have to give him a soft pet in one of those spots and he calmed down. Ofcourse Kai only did this in private, it had never been seen as affectionate, just a way to calm Ray down before he broke something, or in Tysons case someone. Still Kai had never used it against him. It had never occured to him that he could manipulate Ray with those little pets. Now though he was very concsious of them, and their effects.
He was pulled out of his thoughts by the person he was thinking about." Kai, why did you follow me?"
To Kai there was no sound more beautiful, some might have said his voice was like the trickle of water as it played over the rocks while others would call it the tinkle of bells as the wind caused them to sway, Kai though din't think there was any sound that could compare to the sound of Ray's voice. "Kai." Kai looked up, a blush adorning his face, made more evident by his pale cheeks and lack of blue triangles. "I came to see if you are okay. You know what they were talking about?" Ray nodded, pain briefly showing in his eyes as it overpowered him, Kai swore to himself he would see to it that Ray never had to feel pain again. " I kow, they were talking about me. I could hear them while I was getting changed, one of the perks of being me extra good hearing. Come to think of it, everything is getting better. I know I have always had heightened sense, but everythings magnified, when you move I can hear the rustle of the clothes as they brush against each other and under it I can hear as it brushes against skin. I can smell a flower and be able to tell who were the last three people to touch it. It's weird." He shook his head." Anyway, I heard the suggestions that they should do experiments on me. I can see it now. " He stood up and deepened his voice." Come and see, the fabled Cat boy straight from China. You will be astounded. $250 a glimpse. "
" That's not true. That wont happen." Kai watched as Ray sat on the ground. What was happening was taking it's toll on him, Ray could handle pressure, he could handle most things, but this was pushing him to his limits." How do you know it wont happen?" Kai was startled at the tone Ray's voice had adopted. It reminded him of a child that had woken from a nightmare and was asking their parent how they knew there was no Boogey man. It wasn't a tone he ever wished to hear Ray use. He moved slowly, so as not to startle Ray, and sat down next to him. He pulled him till he was leaning against him. Leaning forward slightly Kai dropped his voice to almost a whisper, hoping that his tone and words would convey how much he was prepared to do to help Ray." I know it wont happen, because I wont let it happen. They have to go through me to get to you, and they never will. I know I said I liked you Ray, it was only half the truth. I ...I." Kai couldn't say it. ' I love you.' Ray looked up at him, eyes wide. Kai wandered what had happened, before he could dwell on it a voice filled his head.
' I love you too.'
Kai frowned. He looked down to Ray to see he was smiling shyly, blushing, it dawned on him. Jaco had said he was telepathic and he had heard Kai when he had made that silent wish, he had wished he could take all of Ray's pain away, Ray had thanked him for it.
As his mind narrowed to this startling conclusion his body reacted to it as well. A blush much similar to Ray's graced his face. Ray smiled and gave him a soft kiss. A gentle declaration of love. One that Kai would hold close to his heart for all eternity, and forever after that.
He felt his hand be tugged and Ray led him to sit under a tree. Kai realised that they had been out all day, it was late in the afternoon. He looked at his surroundings to see that Ray had led him to the top of the hill and they were propped against a tree, Ray leaning against him, watching as the sunset. Vanishing for the night, and with it their troubles
tbc
Well there you go, a slightly low key chapter to this story.Lots of mush. I have to say there are some very interesting concepts going through this site. I just had my first taste of the concept of Mpreg. Being me, and unfortunately a little sleepy at the time, my curiousity got the better of me and I ended up reading a Ray/Kai one. I think it was by Pashing. Pandaboe or something like (I'm really bad with names) anyway it was very funny. But the concept is still very new to me so it will take time for me to get used to it. Sorry me rambling again. Once again, any suggestions are greatly appreciated. Thank you to Platinum Rei, either one of the few to read this or one of the few who actually bother to review.
