Hahaoya
By: Sevetenks, the Ultimate Fusion
Note: Gash's thoughts might seem OOC, but I believe he might think about those things. Minor spoilers for a lot of stuff.
Disclaimer: I don't own the movie: Konjiki no Gash Bell: The 101st Mamono, or the anime: Konjiki no Gash Bell.
Kiyomaro was worried about Gash when the demon went into Umagon's doghouse, remembering the last time that occurred. It was the first time Gash had ever truly cried since the whole mess started. Now Gash, it seemed, was once again crying.
"But why?" murmured the teenager. Summer vacation had ended, but it had been fun, even though that demon escaped from the Makai and possessed that girl…
Hahaoya… Mother… Why… Why did the other me, the silver one, have to take my memories away? What did I do to him…?
I feel guilty. I feel guilty, because I no longer dream of Koruru and the tournament. I no longer dream of becoming king, with Tio as my queen. I no longer dream of fish, and playing with giant Vulcans. I no longer dream of eating Tio's delicious cooking, even though it looks weird, while she smiles at me with a red face. Well, that one slips through during the day…
I feel guilty because every night, I dream… I dream if I had taken the other choice.
Kiyomaro told me I had a choice. To become maybe become king, and to save my friends. Or to go past the Lake of Truth and into the windmill village. To see her…
My mother. I don't remember anything…
Except for what stopped me from seeing her.
"Don't look back. Forget about me until you are king."
Why, why of all my memories of her that I might have, did that have to be the one I still keep? Why…
Why couldn't I have more time? Why couldn't you have already been at the bridge?
Why couldn't I see you? Why couldn't I hug you?
Kiyomaro… He is my friend… But… I am also a pest to him, I can see that… Megumi, I am the little one that makes Tio smile. Kyanchome, to him, I am the one that should be weak. Brago… I was spared… Because of what? You would know…
To Tio… I don't know…
But… Hahaoya… You would, wouldn't you? You would wrap me in a hug, like Kiyomaro's mom hugs him, and you would explain everything to me. You would tell me why I am so happy to see Tio smile, you would help me when I feel like burning my own book, you would be here, always…
Not there… Why are you there? In my world… Why couldn't I have at least a picture of you? I wish I knew… I don't want to imagine you… I want the real you…
Please? I can't stop these tears… Am I weak? Why aren't you here telling me it's okay?
I know it was right to save my friends… But WHY? Why? Kiyomaro… He takes his mother for granted… I would do so much to see your face… Hahaoya…
Do you love me? Did you tuck me in at night? Did you send me to school with a homemade lunch? Did you encourage me when I failed in my classes, while the other demons excelled? Did you try to make me stronger when I passed out from a single, tiny, bolt of lightning?
Why can't the headmaster dragon person send me a picture of you or something? Will he think I won't fight because of it…? I would lose, just to see you…?
Maybe… I would.
No. You wouldn't want that. You told me, all I remember you, is telling me to win.
But I will always cry… I will continue to cry, even if only inside… And you will never be there to wipe the tears away…
Hahaoya…
FIN
