Spoiler: I don't own these people!!!!
AN: Hehe, I just had to write this flashback, i think all u Sirius fans deserve to know what happened at the Blacks that night.

Ch. 8 Sirius's Painful Memory

FLASHBACK

A beautiful women with dark black hair and red highlights stood and watched her beautiful husband play with their baby girl, who was turning four that day. There was a small pop and her husbands best friend and her daughters godfather, James Potter, appeared.

She smiled at her friend, "hey James," she said as he kissed her on the cheek.

"Hey," he smiled, "Lily and Harry are gonna floo," he said.

"Ok, cool," Piper smiled as James walked over to Sirius, who was currently tickling the life out of the birthday girl.

In about ten minutes, a full party had erupted in the Black home. There were party accessories everywhere, with banners saying "Happy 4th B-Day Rose" with Roses all over the banners. Sirius had even charmed a bouquet of real roses to sing Happy Birthday every time his baby was near them. "Don't forget to make a wish Rosie," smiled Piper as her daughter leaned over to the homemade birthday cake.

"I wont," the little girl smiled, to her father's great amusement, she closed her eyes tightly for a moment, then reopened them and blew the three candles on her cake

Everyone in the room, including a 10-month-old Harry who was in Remus's arms, clapped and cheered.
"Ok, picture time!" Lily had stated taking a camera.

"Muggle or Wizard?" asked Piper as Sirius and herself got positioned behind their daughter

"Both."

"Cool," Piper smiled. She put her arm around Sirius waist, he smiled at her, and kissed her forehead. Rose, who had black hair and bluish gray eyes was wearing a cute outfit of jeans and a t-shirt her father had bought her saying, "Daddy's Gurl". Though nobody noticed, Sirius had slipped his hand under his wife's shirt from the back, Rose stood on a chair in front of them, and her parents were standing behind her, her mom's hand on her shoulder. "I love you sweetie," Piper told her daughter as Lily got ready to take the picture.

"I love too mommy," Rose had said kissing her daughter.

"I love you," Sirius had mouthed to his wife. He had been so proud of her, she had become such a wonderful mom. She could handle being in the Order, being an Auror, having a four-year-old, and a husband who was 23 but had the mind of a 5-year-old. She had made him burst with pride when she took care of everything domestically, she was such a wonderful cook, and she didn't use magic after discovering that magically cooked food tasted kind icky. He loved her to death.

"Come on auntie!" said Rose who was growing impatient with her aunt.

"Ok, sorry honey," smiled Lily and put the camera to her eye, "say cheese you guys!"

Only Rose said cheese for the Muggle camera, Sirius and Piper just smiled at their daughters father-like antics. Then came the Wizard camera, so the two both kissed their daughter on the cheek at the same time, the room erupted into clapping as Rose was thrown into fits of giggles. The guests included the Weasleys, whose twin boys had befriended Rose, Dumbeldore, McGonagall, Peter Pettigrew, who looked extremely nervous ((AN: I had to put the rat in there!! They're the Marauders for Christ's sake!)) Remus who was holding Harry, James and Lily Potter of course.

Five hours later it was 9 o'clock and the weather outside had turned very unpleasant, thunder was rolling as rain poured over the outskirts of London where Sirius and Piper lived for the tranquility. Except for the Marauders, everyone else had left. Harry had long since fall asleep in his father's arms and was currently laying on Sirius's side of the bed. James and Sirius had plopped down on the ground next Rose and were helping her play with her building blocks, it seemed they were having more fun then Rose. Remus was watching the three with amusement from next to the fireplace, having forgotten the book he had been reading. Peter had disappeared claiming that he had something to do for his mom, after all, Christmas Eve was the next day. Lily and Piper were in the kitchen, watching the dishes do themselves.

"That was an amazement party Piper," Lily said, she was standing with her back against the counter and her arms crossed in front of her chest. A baby monitor in her hand.

"Really?" smiled Piper hopefully, her honey eyes gleaming with happiness.

"Yeah! Rose seemed to really enjoy it," Lily stated, "so did Sirius."

She chuckled, "and my husband is a very hard man to please, I should now first hand," she smiled with an evil Sirius-like glint in her eyes.

Lily laughed, "don't you think its kinda past Rose's bedtime?"

"Yeah, but I figure she can sleep in a bit tomorrow, she seems to be having a lot of fun with her dad and godfather," she said looking at them through the kitchen entrance, "she does look tired, I guess those building blocks will be there tomorrow," she said throwing the cloth in her hands on the sink.

"Unless James and Sirius decide to go Marauders on us, then they wont be there tomorrow," Lily mused with a chuckle.

"True Lillian, very true," smiled Piper. She walked into the living room, "sweetie?"

Sirius and Rose both answered, "yes?"

She laughed, "it would be hilarious if I actually wanted to talk to James."

"Do you want to talk to James?" smiled James.

"Nope, I've had enough Marauders for tonight, I was talking to my daughter," she smiled.

Rose turned around, "yes mommy?"

"Aren't you tired?" she asked.

"A little," the little girl answered.

"Thought so, c'mon, lets get you to bed," Piper smiled.

"Can I stay up with Uncle James and daddy please?" she begged with puppy dog eyes.

But Piper, whose husbands Animagus form was a dog, new how to look past the puppy eyes, "come on honey," she said.

"OK," said Rose, she reluctantly kissed her godfather on the cheek goodnight, then Remus and then Lily a hug.

"Oi! What about me?" Sirius asked looking a little hurt.

"I love you daddy," Rose smiled sheepishly kissing her fathers nose.

He laughed, "I love you too precious," he assured her.

Harry's crying was heard on Lily's monitor, she quickly ran up the stairs to the room where Harry was. Rose jumped into her mothers arms and was ready to be swept away to her room when Lily came down the stairs looking extremely worried with Harry in her arms, throwing a fit.

"I don't know what's wrong with him," she said tear struck.

Harry kept on crying indignantly as James took him into his arms, "come one buddy, what's wrong? C'mon, none of that," he said rubbing the baby's back and ignoring the drool his son had expelled all over his sleeve, "it's ok, no ones gonna hurt you now."

"What's wrong with Harry mommy?" asked Rose who looked scared.

"Dunno baby," Piper answered. It was getting everyone worried because the cry didn't sound like Harry's normal, hold me or feed me cry. It was so gut wrenchingly new and chilling.

Suddenly the front door exploded open and a figure wearing a black cloak entered, they began to appear all over the room. Without saying anything, James handed Harry to Lily and the two disappeared.

No one really knew what happened, but all they saw was Piper crumple to the ground with Rose in her arms, both stiff. Their faces were blank, they didn't know what happened either.

"NO!!!!" Sirius yelled ignoring all the Death Eaters there, he ran to his family.

"Where did they go?" a cold, familiar voice hissed from underneath the cloaked figure who had blown up the door.

"GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE SNIVELLUS! YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!" yelled James and blasted Snape away without even using his wand, his emotions were out of control. "ALL OF YOU!" he yelled.

It was odd, but all the Death Eaters disappeared, feeling happy that they had finally killed someone, well two people at the same time.

James looked at Sirius, he was on his knees next to Piper's body, his head buried in her stomach, crying mercilessly. James tore away his wet eyes to find Remus had gone white, and his eyes had become bigger then dinner plates.

"No," Sirius moaned shaking, "NO!" he yelled in the most earth shattering, gut wrenching scream ever heard. He lost everything. His beloveds death had been as simple as that, no fireworks, no glory. It had just happened.

Three days later, Sirius stood starring at the two newly dug graves. Oblivious to the fact that he was alone, and the rain was falling down like the sky had gotten a huge gash in its water storage place. Sirius didn't mind. Sirius didn't care. He just stood there wearing a black suite, with a black cloak covering his suite.

He suddenly felt a hand grip his shoulder, James's hand, "what can I do to comfort you Sirius?" he asked hopelessly.

"Give me one more second with them," he answered.

"You sound like you've lost the will to live," James stated.

"I have."

"Come on Sirius, you have to move on," James said sharply.

"Would you if Lily and Harry were killed by stupid Snivellus Snape?" Sirius asked turning to face James. He had been crying for hours, and he looked numb, he had lost everything.

"No, but I'd know that they were in a safe place, and they would want me to move on," James said, knowing full well that he would actually commit suicide if someone hurt Lily and Harry.

"I'm gonna kill him James," Sirius said.

"You will do no such thing Padfoot," James said.

"I have to," he said, his breathing becoming sharper.

"Sirius…"

"James…"

It was then that Sirius's legs broke, he fell to the ground weeping. James immediately put his arms around his brother, "they're gone!" Sirius yelled shaking in his best friends arms, "why them?!?! Why me?!?!?" he yelled, "everything I touch goes away!!!" he cried, "SHE WAS ONLY 4! WHY DID THEY HAVE TO TAKE HER AWAY FROM ME?? WHY DID HE HAVE TO TAKE PIPER AWAY?" he yelled, "WHY COULDN'T IT HAVE BEEN ME? WHY DIDN'T I PROTECT HER!? I SHOULD'VE DIED INSTEAD JAMES!"

"Shh," was all James could say. He had never seen Sirius so emotional, so angry and upset. He had seen Sirius cry, but never like this. He let out yells that came out sobs, he opened his mouth and a cry of utter pain came out, he was numb.

"WHY DID IT HAVE TO BE THEM??? WHY DID SHE HAVE TO BE SO LOYAL?? WHY DID SHE HAVE TO JOIN THE FUCKING ORDER?" he roared. James tightened his grip around Sirius.

"Because I made her," a voice said from behind them.

Sirius didn't bother, but James looked to see Dumbeldore standing there, looking perhaps a thousand years old. At that moment James hated Dumbeldore to death, almost as much as he hated Voldermort. "Go away," he said as Sirius kept on crying in the comfort his best friends arms.

"I will do no such thing James, I need to explain myself," Dumbeldore said walking towards them, holding two bouquets of flowers, "there are things that need to be clarified that are of great importance."

"Nothing is important anymore, you and the Order can go fuck yourselves over and over again till you die of exhaustion and we all can rest in peace," Sirius said, deathly serious and dry, he didn't bother lifting his head from James's chest.

Dumbeldore had heard Sirius curse before, but it had never been that "creative". It took him a full minute to comprehend with what his former student had said. "Sirius," he began but was cut off.

"She risked her life for you, she worked tirelessly for your stupid cause, she defended you when you weren't there and you didn't even bother to come to her funeral, and now that you're here, I'm betting your gonna give James and I a stupid assed mission to go to right?" Sirius asked. It was true, since the night Rose and Piper were murdered, Dumbeldore had only made a brief appearance at the Blacks to tell Remus to go tell the Aurors what had happened and had left again without saying a word to the weeping Sirius or looking at the bodies of the two beautiful women on the floor. ((AN: I guess sometimes Dumbeldore pisses me off, hehe))

"That was very wrong of me," Dumbeldore began but was again cut off by the grief struck husband and father.

"No, that was very Dumbeldore of you," he said dryly, he finally left James's grip and sat on his knees in the wet grass, "you don't care about anybody but the stupid Order, whatever it takes right? We're all cogs for your impossible mission right? One of us dies you don't care, its just another casualty of war, you keep on going, thinking of it as another step closer to Voldermort," Sirius shook his head, "I'm through with this," he said.

"Sirius, don't do anything crazy," James said looking into Sirius eyes, grabbing his color and starring at him he said, "if you did do something crazy, you know for a fact that I'd die right?"
A weak smile appeared on Sirius's face, "at least I'd be with them right?"

"But there are still people here that need you, Piper and Rose are strong, they'll make it, and I'm sure they're gonna be behind every step of the way," James smiled, "but there are still an unbiased amount of people on earth that couldn't make through another day without your protection and presence."

"Stop going fruitcake on me," he said. James had had stood up and offered his hand to Sirius who took and stood up, they again embraced, a brotherly hug.

Suddenly an old song fluttered through Sirius head, one of the lines said:

Through heaven & always,

She is standing by my side

She's my inspiration,

She's my battle cry

And in her eyes, it's the only place I know

Where peaceful waters flow.

And if you don't know right now

you never will

Only love can find the door,

If you could see it now, its in your hand

Only love can reach for sure forever more

(( AN: I LOVE THIS SONG! Chris de Burgh's where peaceful waters flow))

It was then that Sirius could come to terms with Pipers death, it was then that he accepted the face that they were in a far better place. It was then that he knew Piper was gonna be with him through every step of his life.

It was as he had told Harry fifteen years later, the dead never truly leave us, and we could always find them in our hearts.

Dumbeldore had never fully recovered from the guilt and hatred Sirius showed towards him, and he had accepted it. It had been true, he had always seen the Order members as cogs, and it hadn't been until that day, that painful Boxing Day, that he saw the Order member as people who had more to live for then just killing Voldermort. It was then that Albus Dumbeldore got in touch with his human side, having forgotten it when he discovered just how powerful he was.

END FLASHBACK