Title: In Your Dreams
Author: Blair Lebeau, SocialButterfli
Summary: The memory of her is still clear in his mind. He'll never forget how his heart stopped when she turned her back to him and flew away, never to return. But when they find each other again, will their destined love finally become reality? Or can they only be together in his dreams? RobStar
Disclaimer: I don't own Teen Titans, but if anyone wants to buy it for me, feel free!
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Chapter 3
I woke up to worried voices outside my door. The voices belonged to my friends . . . er, teammates, and it was obvious that they were once again talking about me. It seemed everyone had something to say about me nowadays. And I didn't blame them.
"Should we wake him up?" came the voice of Beast Boy.
"Why?" Raven's voice responded in question. "If he's still asleep, let him sleep."
"He's never slept past the crack of dawn, not even if we just got in at 3 AM from a mission. And now it's noon. That throws up a warning flag for me," Cyborg explained. I looked over at the clock next to my bed. The red digital numbers read 12:04. I couldn't believe it, I had never slept this late in my life, not even when I was a normal boy. That was strange, no wonder they were worried about me.
Wait, worried? Were my fri . . . teammates genuinely worried about me? What did that mean?
"So maybe he's just tired," Raven suggested. "Let him sleep." There was a pause, and then Beast Boy cleared his throat.
"There might be something else," he said, finally. "You guys didn't see the kidnaped boy. He, I don't know, maybe leaving Robin to take him home by himself was a bad idea."
"What do you mean?" Cyborg asked.
"The boy sort of . . .I mean, maybe it was just me, but he looked like . . ."
"Starfire," Raven finished, and my heart jolted in my chest at the name. I had thought of her many times, but her actual name hadn't been voiced since The Mistake. No one ever brought it up, and I was never sure if I was grateful or hateful for that.
"How did you know?" Beast Boy asked in a surprised voice. "Did you see him?"
"No. When Robin came home . . . it was obvious that he was in a weirder mood than usual, so, I don't know, I checked out his mind to see what had happened, if anything, and I saw the boy. That resemblance is too similar to be coincidence, especially because I have yet to see someone from Earth that looks like that." There was another silence, and I felt like yelling at them. They were rekindling my hope all over again, and it hurt because I knew that it wasn't possible. His sister was Kori Anders, not Starfire. If he was related to Starfire and he knew that I was Robin, wouldn't he have said something? No. I would not get my hopes up again. I will not open myself up to that kind of hurt. The Mistake lives on, and I can't fix it.
"So what does that mean?" Cyborg said after a while.
"I don't know," Raven said, sighing. "I don't want to believe something just because I want to. If he's related to her, if Starfire is still here on Earth, I want to be sure before I get my hopes up."
If only I had done that.
"Yeah, but how do we find out?" Beast Boy asked. I listened intently, interested in what sort of plan they would come up with to find out if my beautiful Starfire had finally returned.
Although I suppose I don't have the right to call her mine. Subconsciously I've always referred to her that way, because what I felt . . .feel . . . for her was something strong that just doesn't come along every day. In fact, some people never have the chance to feel it. It was, and is, something that . . . okay, the feeling is love.
To be in love is hard to explain. It's blissful, it's a miracle, it's amazing, and it's something you shouldn't ignore. I, however, tried to. I tried desperately. You see, I'm supposed to be the strong, capable leader of the Teen Titans. Starfire was a member of the Teen Titans. If there was something between us, it could ruin everything the Teen Titans stand for, and I couldn't risk that. If I admitted my feelings and she didn't feel the same, it would be awkward and our teammate relationship would be strained. If I admitted my feelings, she did feel the same, but we broke up later on or had complications, same scenario. How many relationships do you know of that work perfectly forever? That's how it would have to be if we were to have an in-team relationship, and it's just not likely, even though when I'm with her or I think about her, it seems like the most destined thing in the world. But I had to learn that Jump City came before my feelings. I had to be content with just being her best friend.
But being best friends with someone as caring (not to mention touchy-feely) as Starfire made what I was trying to do near impossible. I managed to hold myself together, but one night I just couldn't stand it anymore. I blew. And that was the night of The Mistake.
I suppose I should explain The Mistake.
It was a normal night at Titans Tower, and we were all carrying about our business as usual. Raven was reading one of her old dusty books and growled at anyone who dared to interrupt her, Beast Boy and Cyborg were battling it out on video games, and I was in the weight room, pounding out my frustrations on the punching bag with Starfire watching me. Every now and then I would glance over at her, and I loved the way her eyes moved when I moved, as if she were actually fascinated with me. I loved to think that, even though I knew that was impossible. I was her best friend, and only her best friend, in her eyes. Besides, we couldn't be anything more anyway. No matter how much I wanted it.
"Perhaps you could show me how to do that," her sweet voice rang out after I did a complicated double swing-back kick (AN: I totally made that up), and I was more than eager to oblige.
"Okay. Come here." She flew over and landed next to me, lightly brushing my arm. I almost had a seizure right then and there from the touch. I knew the only way to show her how to do the difficult martial arts move was to guide her by actually making physical contact with her (what a concept, I know) and I wasn't sure if I could handle that. But the one thing I did know was that I wasn't going to pass up this opportunity. I'd segregated myself from her physically for too long to let this go. Gently, I rested my hands on her upper arms. I almost felt her shiver, but I'm not sure.
"Show me," she whispered, and I carefully directed her, pulling her back, pushing her arm forward, tentatively placing a hand on her waist, and even more nervously lifting her leg into a kick. The whole time I was touching her I felt electricity crackling through my body. She learned quickly, too quickly if you asked me. I was reluctant to let go when she wanted to try it on her own. But I didn't have to despair for long, because she messed up and fell on the ground. I jumped forward to help her immediately, worried, but she laughed her sweet, musical laugh. She took my outstretched hand and stood up.
"Guess we'll have to try it again," I suggested, and she nodded. I was just about to put my hands back on her waist when the door slid open, revealing Raven with a piece of paper in her hand. She raised her eyebrows.
"Hope I'm not interrupting anything," she said. I blushed and began to stutter, but Starfire, always the innocent, smiled and shook her head.
"No, of course you are not. Welcome, friend Raven!" she chirped, and I mentally cursed Raven for intruding. She must have been reading my mind at the time, because she smirked at me. Then I noticed the paper in her hand.
"What's that?" I asked. Little did I know that just that simple question would change everything.
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HAHAHA SUSPENSE!
Now, a lot of people have asked me about The Mistake, and I bet you guys got all excited when my next update is a chapter where Robin says "I guess I should explain The Mistake." But, sorry, guys, this chapter only contains the setting of The Mistake. I've been writing every chance I get and I'm already up to Chapter 7, so I can tell you that The Mistake is completely explained in Chapter 5. Sorry, guys, but I'm a big fan of leaving my readers in suspense, if you didn't know that already, which you probably did. I'll probably update tomorrow if I can, but you never know, I might not just to elongate the SUSPENSE. SUSPEEENSE. Love it.
Going to stop being weird now. Review if you're NOT a fan of the suspense and you want an update soon. Actually, review if you like suspense too, or if you're indifferent, eh, just review!!!
Blair
