Silent Bonds
Shelby fiddled with the cigarette lightly resting between her index and middle finger of her right hand while Jules looked around the dorms her eyes darting from place to place.
Jules's question swam around in Shelby's mind over and over.
"Why am I a mess?"
Why was anyone? Why were they all here at Mt. Horizon? Shelby shook her head; 'good question' was really the best way to answer that. It was a good question, which really needed an answer.
She looked down at her cigarette and the craving to place it in her mouth and take a deep puff from it started to itch inside of her. Shelby's hands started to dart around her body searching every pocket for a match. But failed.
Great, why can't it work out for me? Shelby thought. All I want is a damn cigarette. Shelby pleaded with no one.
Shelby suddenly remembered that she was here to give Jules her 'shock treament' and looked back over at the girl she couldn't stand.
What am I supposed to say to her? Shelby wondered to herself.
Seeing the long face that Jules had Shelby decided to stick with a joke and/or poking fun. Rearranging herself on the bed and seeing Jules's eyes dart to her Shelby started to talk. "But there are worse things that could happen, like turning into a size fourteen." Shelby joked laughing halfway through.
Jules laughed at the joke welcoming and when their eyes met Shelby felt like she had a connection with Jules. One she never thought she would share with the girl. They were talking nicely and connecting. It seemed like they had more in common then they really wanted too.
No wonder Hanahah wanted me to do this. Shelby thought to herself, as she watched Jules relax by her.
And as Shelby watched Jules laying in her bed after they laughed her question still rang in her mind.
"Why am I a mess?"
Shelby glanced back down at her cigeratte and all of her innear scars reflected from the object.
"Why am I a mess?"
She wanted to answer her with full detail, give Jules all the answers that she wanted but Shelby didn't even have them yet. But maybe one day she would and she could turn their silent bond into a real one.
Shelby smiled and stood up off the bed feeling content in her 'shock treatment' to Jules.
