Stranded Memories

Rating: PG-13 for language

Disclaimer: I own crap. They wouldn't even give me the bloody Lost poster at Disney, and that ruined my day. FOX owns all OC characters and OC related thingys… and ABC owns sobs all Lost related things… even my Charlie…

Summary: Little things can push people over the edge. That very thing happens to Seth Cohen. When something happens to him that sends him into a crashing situation, who knows how he will survive. Seth-centric. Lost/OC Crossover.

A/n: I wrote this right after posting the other part. I think I might be coming down with the flu, so if it is shitty, please tell me.

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"Fading Into Nothing"

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"Charlie?" Claire asked. She released her death grip on my arm.

Suddenly I found myself looking down the barrel of the same gun that had killed Kate… and Ethan. Behind it I could see Charlie glaring at me.

"Charlie, what are you doing?" I heard Jack ask. He sounded upset. Then again, why wouldn't he be? Everyone knew he had feelings for Kate, I mean I saw him look at her the same way I used to look at Summer, or Aerin.

Charlie didn't respond. He just continued glaring at me. I could feel his eyes trying to bore holes in my head.

"Charlie," Claire said, starting to move towards him.

"You… you," he got out in an angry yet very exhausted voice. "You stay away from me, and Claire, and everyone… everyone else? You got me?" I could hear the hatred in his voice, I could see it in his eyes. And once again, I was terrified.

What had I done to this guy? But before I got a chance to ask him, he fell to the ground, the gun falling out of his hand. I heard Claire shout out "CHARLIE!" and rush over to him. I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief. I mean, I was so confused and so… hurt. I didn't know the guy except from what Claire had told me about him, and this wasn't what I had gotten from her descriptions.

I could feel eyes looking at me, making me feel so uncomfortable. Then without warning, my mind told my feet to run, and they did.

"SETH, WHERE ARE YOU GOING?" Jack was shouting after me. I didn't stop. I just let my legs carry me to where it was they were going, but wherever it was, it was far away from Charlie, Claire and Jack.

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I couldn't understand. I didn't get it at all. I wish I knew what I had done to the guy. Had I done something? I must have judging by the way he acted.

By now, I was exhausted. Exhausted and lost. I must have been going crazy because everywhere I turned, I heard voices talking. Maybe Jack was right, maybe I was going crazy.

I took a deep breath as I stopped running. I had gotten tired a long time ago, but I kept on running. I felt the need to get away to escape from everything again. To get away.

So I sat down and looked around the jungle, at the leaves (quite an interesting sight). I was alone, it was quiet. I tried to fight the urge, but everything was getting to me. Slowly, I fell asleep.

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"Seth, you silly goose!" Aerin laughed. I smiled. Why did she always have a way of making me smile? "Why are you being such a stupid idiot?"

"Huh?" I asked her, feeling really confused. What was she talking about?

"I think he just likes running away," Summer said as she walked up right next to Aerin.

"Wait… what?" I asked, looking between the two of them? Why were both of them here, in this odd place that I didn't even know where it was?

"Do you ever think about other people Cohen, or just yourself?" Summer snapped angrily. I tried to talk, but she wouldn't let me. "Running away solves nothing. It just causes pain for the people around you, you know that right? Remember when you were twelve Cohen? Where were you going? Do you wanna know the truth Cohen? I was worried about you… what were you going to do? Huh? Did you really think that no one would care?"

I was shocked. Was I hearing this right? She had worried about me? Other people had worried about me? Miss popularity and the center of all my affections for all those years?

"I mean come on Cohen, running away won't solve any of your problems. It'll just make your life even more fucked up than it already is? Remember Portland? Hello! How much… horribler was your life after that?"

My eyes wandered over towards Aerin, who was just staring at me. I wish I could hear what was going on in her head, but I couldn't. She looked like she wanted to cry.

"And then Sydney? Less than two weeks before graduation none the less! Talk about stupid Cohen! Did you even realize how many lives you stopped and ruined because of that? And I'm not just talking about your parents here! Going to Sydney pretty much sealed your fate Seth! You're never coming back now!"

By now Aerin was crying. "You're dead Seth, you know that right? They're never gonna find you. You're never coming back." I blinked a few times. Last time I checked I was still alive. "You went on that plane and just disappeared off the face of the planet. Everyone on the plane just disappeared Seth!"

She sniffled. I didn't realize that I was crying too as I walked over to her and pulled her into a hug. I felt like such an idiot. A 'silly goose' in Aerin's words.

Aerin pushed me away. "Seth, stop. Don't you get it?" Summer snapped. "You had the world and left it behind."

"Wait? What are you talking about, is it my fault that the fucking plane crashed?" I said angrily.

"No, if you would have stayed in Newport and finished out school and never went to Sydney, then none of this wouldn't have happened and you wouldn't be dead."

"Hold on here. Don't tell me that I fucked up! If I would have never gone to Sydney, then I wouldn't have met Aerin!"

Summer was silenced and just looked at me.

"He's been gone for six months, half a year," I recognized that voice. I turned around and looked right into my mothers face. "Two messages in six months, and that was four months ago. Face it, he's never coming back."

It wasn't like my mother to lose hope like that. What was wrong with her? "HEY!" I shouted, when suddenly I felt the ground from underneath me fall in and I fell down through dark clouds. A few random flashes of lightning lit up the sky as rain began to fall rhythmically on my head.

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My eyes opened with a quick blink as rain pounded hard on my head, getting me soaked in the process. While it felt good on my arm, it was just uncomfortable everywhere else.

Using my good arm, I pulled myself up and stared off in search of some sort of shelter. The rain was coming down harder and harder, and I could feel myself getting sick already. Somehow, by pure dumb luck, I found a small cave nearby that I fit under with just a slight bit of discomfort.

So this is what I had turned to. Maybe dream-Summer was right. Maybe I just liked running away from all my problems. Was that why I always left when things got too hard to handle? There had to be some sort of reasoning behind it.

I felt warm salty tears mix with the cold rain water on my face. I went to wipe them away, but trying to wipe away water with a wet hand never worked very well.

A bad feeling grew in me. I could be here for a while. I knew it would be stupid to leave while it was still raining. I'd only get sicker than I already was and more lost too. I couldn't afford either of those happening.

I was going to be a long day… night… time…

I sighed and watched and listened as the rain fell. I couldn't fall asleep. The truth was, I was terrified, just like every other time I tried to run away. I just never openly admitted it.

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It rained for a long time. A very long time. And that in turn gave me a very long time to think. While I was sitting under some rock formation in the middle of the jungle, there had to be someone back at the caves, or at the beach, who was just a bit worried about me.

And back home. My parents. I felt so guilty for leaving now. I must have torn their lives apart. With Ryan dead, and now me 'dead' too, I couldn't imagine what was going through their minds right now. Had it really been six months? Six months seemed like an awfully long time, but being lost and stuck on an island, time seemed to move quite slowly, or quickly. Actually, there was no really measure of time, except for the rise and fall of the sun, and those people who had working watches, and even those were just about worthless now.

A picture flashed in my mind of Charlie holding that gun, pointing it right at me, ready to shoot if it wasn't for pure exhaustion. I was scared, terrified. My life very well could have ended right there, at that very moment. But it didn't.

I had a strange feeling that that wasn't the first time I had faced death while here on this island. I didn't understand it.

What I did understand was that Charlie for some reason hate me, and the farther away from him I was, the better. But I couldn't just stay away from the only form of civilization here. How would I survive? My one arm didn't work, and I was a weak piece of shit to boot. And the best part of all this was, I was already getting hungry.

There was no way I could do this on my own. People, someone, somewhere, must have been worried about me, but I couldn't seem to grasp that concept as I slowly drifted off to sleep once more.

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Luckily, I had a dreamless sleep. But when I woke up, none of my muscles wanted to work, and I was not only soaked to the bone, but freezing cold too. Those two things were never a good combination.

The rain had yet to stop. I knew that no one would find me now, except by luck, and luck wasn't on my side right now. The rain had washed away my trail. I was up the river without a paddle. I had seriously fucked up.

My left arm was killing me and I was shivering like crazy. I had only a t-shirt and a pair of jeans on, and then one good arm to try to keep warm with.

This was gonna be the end. I knew that I was gonna die. Right here, under this damn thing. I probably would have fared better if I would have just stayed with everyone else. More salty tears fell down my freezing cold face.

I knew why I was crying, and for once it wasn't just about myself, but for everyone else. Now even if they got rescued, I wouldn't be with them and I could clearly see my parents there with all the other castaway's friends and family. Aerin was with them too. They were waiting for me. But I wouldn't be coming, and they just stayed there for such a long time. Everyone else had left and they stayed there, not wanting to believe that I was actually gone.

The thoughts made me so upset. Slowly, I was going to die and there was nothing I could to do stop it. I think that thought would be enough to make anyone upset.

Dream-Summer had been right. What was I good for other than trouble and heartache, and at the moment, I couldn't think of anything.

This was the end of everything. I just knew it. It was one of those bad feelings you could do absolutely nothing about. Maybe I was just over reacting, but who wouldn't over reacting in a situation like this one.

My eyes grew heavy as I began to feel weaker and more tired. It was at this moment that I noticed how weak and frail I actually was. I hadn't really eaten much since, well, wince before the crash and to think that I was small before was an understatement compared to now.

My stomach grumbled, as if yelling at me to eat and the harsh yet steady pounding of the rain was beginning to drive me slowly to insanity. But for some reason, it was relaxing at the same time.

That was the last thing I heard. Slowly, sleep began to pull at me, but I wouldn't fall asleep. I was afraid that if I did, I wasn't going to wake up again.

My eyes closed, but I didn't fall asleep. Maybe I did. I don't even know anymore.

But I did know that I felt someone picking me up like I was nothing more than air before I fell into a deep sleep.

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A/n: I hope that this was good. Tell me wacha think… review pwease!

The Pirate Illusionist - Haha. That is really funny actually, since I haven't watched the OC in a while. Stupid sickness, work, vacation… xD

alexis - I don't think I will, but I have changed the plot line in my head once again, so who the hell knows what is gonna happen if the author themselves isn't quite sure. Haha. And I don't hate you for trying, I just… I don't know what's going on in this story and I totally changed the plot of the sequel. xD.

GermanAbercrombieChick - Awesome!

paige fan - Haha. More Sethness. Yeah, the time frame is the same, it is just gonna get a little screwy and bumpy in the future, but we're trying to keep it the same. Haha. And I wont, I wanna write the sequel! And the sequel to the sequel!