TITLE: What was to be
AUTHOR: Anika drama ranting
DISCLAIMER: I own nothing of the The O.C.!
FEEDBACK: Especially for this one. Read the note at the end of story – after you read the story of course!
SUMMARY: Ryan finds out about Kirsten's alcoholism and what Trey has done to Marissa…
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Ok, I wasn't yet up to writing a 'real' story. This is pretty much ranting about Ryan feelings after he finds out about the bad stuff in his life and how he had believed everything would be different in Newport. I would be happy if you read it and afterwards read the note at the end of the story!
Life was supposed to be different.
Ryan walked through the streets of Newport, thinking about what had gone wrong; why everything always had to go wrong.
Five hours ago Sandy had told Seth and him that Kirsten had a major alcohol problem. That she'd been drunk when she's had the accident. Sandy would help her by sending her to rehab. Ryan's world had been shattered.
One hour and a half ago, he found out the truth about Trey and Marissa. By accident, he had heard older voice messages on her cell phone. Trey had tried to defend himself; no, he hadn't wanted to hurt her so bad. It was just the drugs. Otherwise he would have never tried to rape her. Ryan had thrown the phone against the door. It fell to the ground broken. Just like Ryan's whole world.
Outside, he had thrown up twice. He was disgusted by his brother. He hated him. What he had done made Ryan mad. There was this wish inside to kill his brother.
He sat down at the pier. It was fairly cold but Ryan rather enjoyed it. He stared into the open ocean and wished to be out there.
It was almost two years ago that he had come to live with the Cohen's. His life was supposed to become better.
Was it better now?
Five hours ago he would have said yes
Now he would settle for...
He was never the one to hide and give up. But what was there to fight, to do?
His family – new and old- was screwed up and his girlfriend had almost been raped by his brother. He couldn't face her, now could he? She would hate him just as much as Trey. They were brothers. They shared the same blood.
Ryan felt the anger fill his veins. Everything was destroyed. Newport Beach was a bubble but not a happy one. He was trapped in his own life. Ryan couldn't help Kirsten. He knew that from experince with his mother. He couldn't help Marissa because he couldn't turn back the clock. What was he supposed to do?
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I admit this is a weird story and I meant it as such. I wanted Ryan conflicted as well as I wanted to write a little different story. But I also want Ryan happy again. I am thinking about writing another part. Maybe even two or three where I would actually write a real story. So tell me if you are interested in that. This could be seen as the epilogue… I am somehow in a writing mood so better tell me soon!
