Chap. 13 "Do ye love me?"
'I think yer room is even bigger than mine.' Jack said looking around, still in the doorway.
'Isn't it beautiful? Will and Elizabeth have made such a nice home for themselves.'
Jack walked over to Kaillyn, and stood close against her.
'Do ye wish to 'ave a home like this? And live like this?' he asked her.
'Jack, it would be lovely, but I don't need all this. Just the fact that I know you'll be there for us is all I need, really. And I know you love the Pearl, so as soon as you feel you need to go out and pilage and plunder, go. I don't want to hold you back.' she said this sincerely, putting her arms around his waist.
Jack put his forehead against hers and put his hands on her arms.
'Aye, luv, and I thank ye for that. I want you to know that I will stay 'ere 'til the baby is born, then soon after I will go out on the Pearl, but you also need to know i'll come back to ye. I'm not going to be gone for years at a time or anything like that.'
'And that's perfectly fine with me, Jack.' she said looking into her eyes.
He moved his lips to her and kissed her passionately, yet gently. She put her hands on his face, and when Jack let go, she pulled his forehead to her lips and she kissed him.
'I've been thinkin' 'bout something, luv. And I would like ye to answer me something.'
'What is it?' she asked, putting her arms about his waist, pulling him close.
'Do ye love me?'
'What?' she asked, dropping her arms slowly.
'Do ye love me, Kailey? Because I know i've ne'er felt the way I do, when i'm with you, with any other person before. And I just want to know if ye feel anything I do.'
'Jack, is that true?'
'What?'
'Your feelings for me.'
'Aye, luv. I wouldn't 'ave said it if I didn't mean it. When I look at you, chills run up me spine. When I hold ye, I don't want to let go. That's why i'm so confident in leaving the Pearl for awhile, because I want to take care of ye.'
'Jack, I had no idea you felt this way. I'm so grateful, of all you've done for James and I, and all you're going to do for the baby. I care for you so much, Jack. I do love you. I never realized it until now, but I do.' she said smiling, eyes watering.
He grabbed her by the waist and kissed her.
'Do ye want to get married?'
'What? No, Jack, no.' she said quickly, 'It's a lovely gesture but you still want to live the life of a pirate and I know if we were married, i'd be holding you down, and you're already doing so much. No, no, we shouldn't get married.'
'You wouldn't be holding me-'
'No, I know you were going to say I wouldn't be holding you back, but I know, in my heart, that I would be. You might say over and over to me that I wouldn't but I couldn't help but think that constantly. It's enough that you are all ready staying until the baby is due and going back and forth from the Pearl to us, but marriage is out of the question, I love you. I love you enough to realize it would be impossible. You love what you do, and you just wouldn't be able to live up to the life of Captain Jack Sparrow with a little wife back home.'
Jack just stared at her.
'Don't be mad, Jack.'
'I'm not, luv. I understand what ye are trying to say, but I know it'd be okay. So, if ye change yer mind, i'll be right 'ere.'
'I know, and I thank you.' she said wrapping her arms around his neck.
'C'mon lets go see that 'ittle tyke of Will's. See what we go to look forward to.' he said smiling.
Kaillyn and Jack walked to the baby's room, finding Elizabeth and Will in it. Elizabeth was holding baby Johnny, and Will was stroking his head gently.
'He's so beautiful.' Kaillyn whispered.
'I hope ye were talking about the baby and not dear William.' he smiled down at her.
She hit him softly and said, 'Of course the baby.'
Will noticed Kaillyn and Jack and motioned them to come in. They walked over to them.
'Would you like to hold him, Kaillyn?' asked Elizabeth.
'Really?'
'Yes, go on.' she said setting Johnny into Kaillyn's arms.
Kaillyn stared at the tiny person, smiling. She started to sway back and forth gently, like it was a natural instinct. The baby started to cry, then Kaillyn hummed into the baby's ear quietly and almost immediately the baby stopped. Elizabeth smiled taking Will's hand. Jack just stared at Kaillyn. Kaillyn was beaming, and Jack noticed. 'She's so beautiful.' he thought to himself, 'Look at the way she handles the child.' He started to scare himself. 'What if I cannot do that?' He started to second guess himself, 'I don't know how to be a father. I've never even held a baby.'
Kaillyn noticed Jack, deep in thought. She walked over to him.
'Here, Jack. Take the baby.'
'No, Kaillyn, you go on. He likes ye.' said Jack backing away from her.
She followed him.
'Please, Jack.'
He opened his arms for her to place the child in them, she did. The baby didn't cry.
'See, Jack, it's not hard.'
Emotions ran through Jack rapidly. He smiled. He walked around the room, baby quietly sleeping in his arms.
'You look good, Jack.' Will said, 'Never thought i'd see you like that, but it looks good.'
Then James walked in.
'Go look at the baby, James.' said Elizabeth.
James walked over to Jack. Jack bent down to James' height.
'He's so small.' said James.
'Aye, that he is.' said Jack smiling.
Jack looked up at Kaillyn, she was nearly in tears. Jack smiled, gold teeth shining brightly. He looked very content.
