Author's notes: This is my first AWTR piece. At the moment it's just a stand alone but I'm hoping to add some more if I get some positive feedback.
DEAR JAMIE
Dear Jamie,
This morning I held you in my arms as you took your final breath. We both knew it was time and so you went quietly. As serene in death as you were in life.
Over the past few weeks I could see you getting weaker to the point where it was a challenge for you to get up in the morning. Last night though, you were as awake as I've ever seen you.
We lay in our bed in your father's house and talked through the night. We talked about everything that had happened to us: our hopes, our fears and our dreams.
We were thankful for everything we'd had and we cried for the things that we never would. We cried for the house we'd never own; our children who we'd never know and all the promises left unfulfilled.
Then as dawn broke and the sun rose you slipped silently away.
I lay there with you for a moment then went and got your father. As he entered the room he said a prayer then the two of us just stood and said our final goodbyes.
Now as I sit here on the porch writing this I'm reminded of all the times we've sat here. Sometimes talking, sometimes not, mostly just enjoying the evening and each other.
There doesn't seem to be a moment when there isn't someone walking past wanting to offer me their condolences but mostly I send them inside to your father.
Right now I just can't face them.
I have lost my one true love and nothing can ever make it right.
