Hey guys. Hope you like this songfic. If you don't, just let me know. I know there are a lot like this one, about Vaughn and his dad but I just thought this song was "perfect". Just for those living under a rock, Perfect is performed by Simple Plan.
It takes place right after the first episode of the third season. Sorry, I can't remember the name.
"Perfect"
Hey dad, look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
This morning I woke up and I realized today was different. I went to school, talked to my friends, talked to her. I went to football practice, the science club. My every day's routine. Yet, it was different.
Do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do?
'Cuz it hurts when you disapprove all along
You don't get me. I've been alive for 16 years now dad. How much do you really know about me? You didn't even try, did you?
I betrayed my friends for you, the only ones I've ever had. But it was never good enough. It wasn't your fault that everyone hated me. It was my decision. A very wrong decision. But don't worry dad, I won't make that mistake twice.
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I was 8 when my teacher told you I was dyslexic. That was the first time I saw that look on your face. That disappointed look. You couldn't cope with the fact your only offspring wasn't as smart as you. The seed of Pearson being less than perfect. I had to deal with that by myself. All the nights I spent awake trying as hard as I could. But trying isn't winning. And if you can't win, why to even bother right?
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me
It was cloudy that morning I came crying from the kinder garden. You just asked who had hit me this time. "Why don't I have a mom, dad?" You seemed puzzled, trying to figure out why I had asked something like that. It had bee mother's day and every kid had brought her mom to school. I was just sitting in a corner and a big bully came to me and told me that I was such a hideous boy and that my mother went away cause she didn't love me. "You shouldn't be talking about things you still don't understand". You didn't hold me nor show any emotion. You walked away and let me standing there with a million questions floating in my head. Even if mom had loved me, what about you dad?
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts for ever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I went back on time. I saw you and mom at school. I remember seeing a sparkle in your eyes. You looked so alive; I've never seen you like that. What happened that make you so bitter? Was it just the accident? It may sound silly but perhaps… it was me.
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
I imagine life with mom, the three of us together. Maybe I'd be happy. Maybe you'd be too. But we'll never know cause she's gone and I can't bring her back. Wishing doesn't make it truth. If it would, I wouldn't be a Pearson.
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
I'm just an instrument dad. You use and then you blow me off. I'm just a tool, an experiment that went wrong.
I told you about my feelings for her but you couldn't stand it. You wanted me to think she was using me. Newsflash dad, not everyone is like you! Some people can actually love someone without asking for anything back
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
She taught me what trust meant. FRIENDSHIP. She showed me all the things I could be. She told me I could be good.
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
You don't own me anymore dad. I've given my heart to someone else now and I don't care if it gets broken. I'm not afraid to use it. I don't wanna feel empty. I don't wanna be you.
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts for ever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I really tried to be who you wanted me to but it took me a while to realize that it wasn't the person I wanted to become.
Nothing is gonna change the things that you said
Wish you understand
Nothing is gonna make it right again
I got to find out who I am
Please don't turn your back
In the end, you'll always be my only family
I can't believe it's so hard to talk to you
And I can't tell if you care
Cause you don't understand
But that's ok, really. Maybe one day you'll get why today was different cause this day I finally understood I'm not just a Pearson, I'm not just your son. I'm a living person dad, and I wanna know who Vaughn is. And if you don't love me anymore then, I guess there's a price to pay for freedom and I'm more than willing to accept it.
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts for ever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
