A/N: I have finally completed the third chapter everyone! YAY FOR ME! I've already started work on the fourth one but it'll be hard to finish because I have to think of really cute dates and places for them to go and all. But don't worry I'll get in done. This chapter is sad and emotional. Kind of Soap Operay. Hehe. But hey, people are emotional. lol
Confessions
Chapter
Three
Koushiro still hadn't recovered from the utter shock of the situation so he hadn't made any more to break away, but truth be told…he wasn't planning on it anyway. He had to do something though before it went too far. What if Taichi was only fooling around? He didn't was to let his spiky haired friend know that…he was enjoying it. All these thoughts were racing through his head, all meshing together.
'I have to pull back before this goes too far.' This was the only conclusion he had come to, even if it was hard for him to do. 'I …I have to…I have to pull a---' but he didn't. In the end, Taichi was the one to finally break the lip lock with a face whiter than a sheet. Only one word escaped from the boy's mouth, which was the same word that came to Koushiro's mind at the same time.
"Damn it…" Taichi spoke, nearly trembling. He lifted himself off of the smaller boy and began pacing around the room, curing at himself. Koushiro finally composed himself enough to sit up and fill the conversational gap.
"W-what just…happened?" Koushiro calmly questioned with confusion. Taichi didn't stop pacing and took a while to finally respond.
"What happened was I just totally screwed up AGAIN!" The older boy screamed out. He slammed his fist against the wall as his forehead rested upon it, letting the tears from his eyes fall to the floor. Koushiro was still confused to what was going on so he continued to think of something to smooth things out seeing that he thought he was the one who'd screwed up. He gave a slight laugh to try to lighten the tension and then asked, "I knew you loved pocky but I didn't know you liked it that much. You were just messing around…right?" Taichi slammed his fist once more against the wall and then turned around to where the back of his head rested against the wall. Koushiro could hardly bare to look at his friend in all that pain. His eyes were clenched shut, filled with painful tears, both his fists were white knuckled and shaking, and the rest of his body was just completely trembling. He finally looked over to his helpless, confused friend in much terror. Koushiro instantly saw it in his eyes: Taichi hadn't just been messing around. He, too, had feelings for his best friend.
The red heads jaw dropped at the realization while his eyes widened upon his friend. Taichi's heart completely dropped seeing the boy's expression and he made an instant dart for the door, but Koushiro leapt up and grabbed his arm before he could make his escape. Taichi pushed the boy off him and tired once more to leave.
"Taichi! Stop!" Koushiro cried out, somewhat angered with what his friend was doing. The spiky haired boy stopped dead in his tracks, flinching from the tense demand. Koushiro could see the pain his friend was going through and took a calming breath before continuing. Cautiously he brought up his hand and placed it on the boy's shoulder. Taichi, again, flinched from the touch of his hand, but slowly relaxed as Koushiro spoke. "Tai'…where would you go? Just stay here…with me…for now." He chose his words carefully and spoke calmly, never taking his eyes away from Taichi. The spiky haired boy clenched his eyes again and suddenly turned to face Koushiro before beginning to ramble on.
"Look, Kou', I can explain everything. I just got caught up in the moment and reacted to the challenge and just went for it, but yea, I went too far because I couldn't stop myself because I guess I did like it and it felt good and I don't know what came over me and I'm really sorry and just I---" Koushiro tired to get in a word or two but nothing was stopping Taichi. So he too reacted in the moment. He grabbed the collar of Taichi's shirt and pulled him forward in another warm kiss. This time it was Taichi who went through the states of shock, and it'd be Koushiro who would break off first.
"Taichi…it's alright. I understand how you feel." Koushiro spoke directly to Taichi, never looking anywhere except into his big, bright, confused eyes. No words came from the taller boys lips, but more tears still flowed out from his reddened eyes. Finally, letting out on big sob, he wrapped his arms around his friend and cried. Koushiro gently put his arms around Taichi and held him with all his strength, softly whispering claming words in his ear to calm him down. Of course, listening to his friends crying and pain, his eyes too began to tear up, but he refused to let himself weaken because he had to be the stronger one and help Taichi get through.
Finally, after a long time of standing there and holding on to each other, Taichi pulled back. He used the sleeve of his shirt to dry is swollen eyes and then gave a soft smile to Koushiro.
"Thanks, Kou'. Don't know what I would do without you." Taichi gently laughed. "But I don't get it. What brought on this sudden change of emotions?"
"I should be asking you the same thing. And what about Sora? And that note?" Koushiro began interrogating.
"Well, Sora was the one who helped show me who my true affections were for. In, quote-unquote, liking her, I found out just how much un-attracted to her or any girl for that matter. At the time, I realized that the one who kept catching my eye was actually Yamato." Taichi explained as the two went and sat back on the couch.
"So I'm guessing the note was to Yamato and when you parents found it freaked out, disbelief, denial, and disowned you basically." Koushiro said, trying to put everything together. Taichi nearly began to cry again at the mention of his parents and Koushiro noticed this and moved on quickly. "That still doesn't explain how I fit into this."
"Well I'm getting
to that part. First off, that note in particular wasn't to Yamato,
but in fact was going to you. However, I have written to Yamato about
my feelings. He freaked at first and that's why we went that week
without talking earlier this year. He finally returned my note and
explained how he accepted me for who I was but he just wasn't like
that." Taichi was slightly shaking as he recalled all these events
and before he could continue his story, Koushiro did it for
him.
"That's when he and Sora got together. And also when I
found you in the park."
"I had been there crying almost an hour before you got there. And being that it was only the first week into summer I thought the rest of my summer was going to be wrecked, but thanks to you it wasn't." Taichi smiled as he put a hand on Koushiro's shoulder and looked over to him.
"Of course, you had told me you were upset because Yamato had taken Sora from you, when in actuality it was the exact opposite. Then, being the best friend I am and trying to cheer you up, I invited you to come to my families beach house with me for the summer." Koushiro smiled back to him, placing his hand upon Taichi's.
"Just you and me alone for the whole summer away from everything. It was the best summer I've ever had." Taichi folded his hands into his lap and looked away from Koushiro as a scarlet blush crossed over his cheeks and he whispered, "It was also when I first realized how much you meant to me and how much," He turned back to face hi red haired friend with tears glistening his eyes," that I loved you." After holding it in for so long Koushiro finally couldn't take it anymore. His eyes filled with tears and he leaned over in Taichi's shoulder and cried. It was now Taichi's turn to hold Koushiro, but it wouldn't last long. The smaller boy jumped up from his seat and stood with his back to Taichi. He was losing it. He was completely falling apart on the inside. "Koushiro?"
"Is…is that…what I'm feeling? Is that the reason I've stayed up almost every night since we came home from the beach house because I couldn't stop smiling or…or thinking about you?" Koushiro turned around, screaming at Taichi. The spiky haired boy looked in terror at his friend's rage. He was speechless. "I've been so confused and freaked out for the past three months that I haven't been able to think straight because of it. I didn't know what was wrong with me, and now you're telling me it's all because…because…"
"…Because what, Kou'?" Taichi timidly asked, never taking his eyes off him.
"Because I'm…in love with you." Koushiro quietly responded. Taichi's eyes widened at his response and he immediately leapt up and wrapped the smaller boy in a securing hug. "I didn't realize any connection between these feelings and you until today. And I was scared. I was scared of being…in love."
"Oh, Koushiro. It's okay. I'm here to help you. Whatever you need I will do everything I can to get it for you. Anything." He took a hold of his younger friends shoulders and pulled back to look straight into his eyes. Koushiro was still in near hysterics trying to deal with all the emotions that were screaming through him and out of his heart. By looking into Taichi's eyes he slowly felt reassurance and hope and was able to let out a few more words.
"Taichi…what I want….is you," As his eyes fell close, Taichi leaned over and, sweet and gently, placed his moist lips upon the feather soft lips of the helpless red haired boy he securely held in his arms. Giving all of himself to the boy he loved.
A/N: Well there you go! They're finally getting together. Hehe. Well, please leave reviews. More reviews means the faster I get around to finish more chapters and the faster you find out what happens! Love you all!
