Special Note: There are no bold, italics, etc. in this chapter because it
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Not My Own
Author: EbonyQuill
Summary: Narcissa Black had her life laid before her, she had to read it, memorize it, and follow it. But now she disagrees with one of the rules befallen upon her. "Never fall in love." RL/NB What happens when fire and ice clash.
Disclaimer: Five reasons why I'm not J.K. Rowling. 1) I'm not British. 2) I don't have blonde hair. 3) I don't have half the imagination to come up with Harry Potter. 4) I live in America, don't have a British accent, and have black hair and brown eyes. Oh – and I don't have an ounce of such a good imagination in me. 5) Repeat all of the above plus oodles and oodles of money.
A/N: I have the thank you's at the bottom since there's so many. Twelve people to review Chapter Four, which made me superificly happy. Sorry for the long, long delay, but life being a little itch behind the ear – well, you get it. For anyone who cares, Internet Chat got taken down by fanfiction.net.. it wasn't my doing, well it kind of was, kind of wasn't. I'm thinking of putting it up on a personal site, so if you want just email me at angel_in_ruby@yahoo.com. Spam me and I spam you even harder, ;).
Special, special thanks goes to my betas who are so encouraging and helpful. You know who you are.
Chapter Five Narcissa walked through the halls with grace, in the direction of the Defense Against the Dark Arts classroom. She strolled on the sidelines of some sort of fight between the Marauders and some Slytherins, Snape being one of them. She rolled her eyes.
"Professor?" A head of auburn stuck out from a filing cabinet.
"Why, hello Miss Black, feeling better?"
"Somewhat," Narcissa replied, the volume of her voice soft.
"Good to hear," the Professor said cheerfully. "How may I help you dear?"
"Just wondering if I can take the test I missed yesterday," Narcissa said
nonchalantly.
"It's not like you need it, you have a very high B in this class but I
suppose you can if you want," Professor Drinn said, looking through some
files.
"A B?! Is there any way I could get a tutor?" Narcissa asked, appalled at
the below perfection grade.
Professor Drinn gave Narcissa a funny look, but smiled. "I don't think
you need one, my dear. I'm not so sure about that Goyle boy in your
class, though. Tell you what, I'll give you that A if you tutor someone
for me."
Narcissa grinned. "Alright then."
"Great, I'll give you all the details at lunch through owl. Oh - and I
excused you from the test."
"Great, thanks Professor," Narcissa replied, smiling; however, as soon as
she walked out she held a melancholy look.
"Stupid Professor, making me baby-sit some twit for a grade that gives me
perfection. Perfection is the only thing my parents want," She muttered
bitterly. She walked to the third floor corridor talking to herself
amidst the presence of numerous portraits.
"Why hello, Narcissa!" A portrait said happily.
"Hello Great Aunt Marianon," Narcissa greeted pleasantly.
"How are you?"
"Quite fine, but if you'll excuse me, I really have to get going,"
Narcissa started and waved goodbye to her pictured relative. Walking
towards the fourth floor corridor she noticed boys running to the
Hospital Wing. Curious, she followed them and laughed at what she saw. It
was Sirius and Severus trying to kill each other - except they were both
frozen by hexes.
"Humorous, isn't it?" A voice beside her said. Narcissa looked to her
side.
"I suppose, granted, I know both of them," Narcissa commented
nonchalantly. Remus laughed.
"I suppose that does help. Are you alright? You know - since your, well,
collapse," Remus asked out of pure concern.
"I'm not in bed, moaning in pain, now am I?" Narcissa replied,
sarcastically. Remus smiled widely.
"I suppose not." Madame Pomfrey had come in the scene, red in the face,
screaming at the two boys. Remus laughed amused.
"Mr. Lupin! I hope you had nothing to do with this!" Pomfrey screeched
angrily.
"Nothing, nothing at all, Madame," Remus said, casually.
"Do you have an alibi?" Madame Pomfrey asked suspiciously.
"Yes, he was with me, we were working on some plans for the next Prefect
meeting," Narcissa said, staring at her fingernails. Remus looked at her
with wide eyes and a dropped mouth.
"Alright then," Pomfrey replied skeptically. And then she left to tend to
the 'stupid boys who I'm surprised even passed first year.' Remus looked
at Narcissa with grateful eyes.
"Thanks, I honestly didn't want another detention to taint my record."
"It was nothing. I mean, you did somewhat help me to the Hospital Wing
when I fainted," Narcissa said, walking away. Remus followed her.
"How did you -? Did Pomfrey tell -? When did you -? I mean, you must be
thinking about someone else," Remus question, coughing innocently.
Narcissa stopped and turned around, leaving only a few inches between her
and Remus.
"You know, I wouldn't become an Auror or Unspeakable if I were you,
because you're a really bad liar," Narcissa expressed with sarcasm.
"Yes, well, I wouldn't have been able to be any of those occupations,
anyway," He said bitterly.
"I'm sorry," Narcissa apologized softly, somewhat confused at what he
meant. A disease, maybe? It couldn't have been his grades or maybe he
couldn't – Narcissa didn't want to ponder or think right now, her eyes
somehow drifted to Remus' lips and wondered how they would feel covering
her own.
"Doesn't matter," Remus replied, brushing it off. Narcissa smiled
unconciously, feeling her heart flip and her throat tighten at the sound
of his voice.
"For some reason, I don't know why, but you have this really awkward way
of making me feel bad for you one second and the next, I want to wring
your neck," Narcissa said, her voice airy. Their eyes met for a few
seconds and Narcissa felt blood rushing to her head.
"For some reason, I have this immense hunger to kiss you," Remus said,
before closing in the space between them and kissed Narcissa lightly on
the lips. Surprised at first, Narcissa relaxed into the kiss and returned
it. Narcissa broke away, turning away, causing her cheek to brush against
Remus' lips. Narcissa looked at the ground in confusion.
"I'm sorry, I know we, somewhat, just met and we have great differences -
but.." Remus started, but was interrupted by Narcissa.
"I have to go," Narcissa said, then walking away to the Slytherin Common
Room not waiting for an explanation, leaving Remus stunned. Narcissa sat
on the nearest chair, twirling a blonde hair on her head, touching her
lips with two fingers, then mentally pushing away her fingers. She was
about to wipe her lips with the sleeve of her gray sweater, when she
delicately put her arm back down on the armrest. She felt so confused and
kept thinking of Lucius and her betrothal to him. It wasn't official, but
it was quite real. She felt tears prick at the back of her eyes in a
flustered and angry manner. She didn't allow them to fall on the already
horrendous features that she hated to call her own. She walked to her
dormitory and closed her curtains, lying on her stomach, elbows on her
pillow.
'This is crazy! Bloody lunacy! How dare he kiss me! But damn me for
kissing him back. He's a friend of Sirius! There's no way we can be, even
if I wasn't betrothed to Lucius. He's in Gryffindor! And I'm in Slytherin
- and - and. Oh god - I'm just making excuses to forgive myself for
kissing him back.. damn his lips for being so kiss-able and - soft,'
Narcissa thought angrily.
"Narcissa?" A voice in the distance asked in a snobby matter.
"What do you want, Nott?"
"Did you hear about the fight?" Coral Nott went on to fill her in with
the 'juicy' facts. Narcissa pretended to look interested, but her
thoughts drifted off to the Gryffindor who didn't seem to take part in
the fight.
"And then that stupid Lupin boy froze them both just when it was getting
good. Such a damn pity, too," Coral finished.
"Lupin stopped it? I was almost sure that he started it," Narcissa said,
surprised.
"No, it was that undeserving cousin of yours," Coral replied, holding her
mascara in one hand, then applying it to her face, which had too much
makeup already.
"What a dumb ass," Narcissa said, trying to sound like the real Slytherin
she was, but kept thinking about Lupin and his good morals.
"Oh my god, I am so hungry, do you want to go down to the Great Hall?
They should be serving lunch, now."
"Oh, yeah.. sure." They went down to the Great Hall, Coral giving rude
looks to anyone whom dared to look at them.
"Yeah, Mudblood. Walk away." Coral said to a small Hufflepuff girl who
was scurrying away under the glare of Coral. Narcissa sighed and rolled
her eyes. When going through the great oak doors of the Great Hall, she
dared a glance at the Gryffindor table where she noticed Remus trying to
catch her eye. She looked away quickly and followed Coral to the
Slytherin table where she was welcomed with sneers and pleasant smiles.
Having had a very popular older sister in this House had many great
advantages and earned Narcissa great respect. She sat down and a random
owl flew to her side. Coral gave her a look.
"What the hell is that?" Narcissa gave her a look, also.
"An owl, duh."
"Well I know that, I meant the thing attached to its foot."
"A letter, idiot," Narcissa commented, rolling her eyes.
"Well, what's in it?" Coral asked, flipping her brown hair.
"I don't know, I haven't opened it yet, you twit," Narcissa replied.
"Well, then open it!" Coral said, annoyed. Narcissa opened it and scanned
the words quickly,
'Miss Black,
I would first like to thank you for your dedication to your schoolwork
and helping a student in the study of Defense Against the Dark Arts.
Second of all, I assure you, if you do this assignment, I won't only give
you an A in my class, but I will also give thirty points to the Slytherin
House. Good luck! The Student information is in the other page of this
letter.
Dayanora Drinn.'
"Tutoring?" Coral asked, quite rudely.
"Anything for the good of Slytherin house," Narcissa replied,
convincingly. She looked at the second page and frowned.
'Narcissa,
You have been assigned to tutor Nina Jorkins, year 5, because of her poor
grades in Defense Against the Dark Arts. You will both meet at the
Defense Against the Dark Arts room on Tuesdays and Thursdays from 6 to
7:30 P.M. The Hogwarts' staff is very thankful for your participation in
making this student's academic life better.'
"Chatterbox the Second?!" Coral laughed loudly, which sounded quite
similar to a banshee.
"Great, just great," Narcissa said, licking her teeth distastefully. She
shot glances at Nina, who didn't seem to know who her tutor was. She put
a scarce piece of chicken on her plate and nibbled on it for a few
seconds, then claimed she was full.
"I'll meet you back at the Slytherin Common Room, Coral," she said,
before walking out. She walked to an empty classroom and waited beside
the entrance, as though hiding from anyone who was outside, intending to
keep suspicion low. She heard footsteps and braced herself. She saw a
head of black. Narcissa widened her eyes in surprise, showing the
slightest hint of fear.
A/N: It's here! It's done! It's out of my hair! Now to the oh-so patient reviewers, what lovely people they are. (Ivy Crane) You're a very lovely reviewer and somehow always review first. ï I hope this chapter doesn't disappoint you! (mystic fire demon) I love it, too!! (Christy Corr) This isn't *as long*, per se.. but we have to keep the suspense going in short little ones.. not as short, but – okay, I'll stop typing now. :D. (Asian Angel) I'm sooorry! But I think I apologized to you in Yahoo as well as the rest of the readers.. well, now. Narcissa digging her knee into Sirius' ahem wouldn't be so lady-like. Hehe. (elvencherry07) I need to read the Herald soon.. I haven't been to fanfiction.net in uhh forever. (Morgane) I looove your story, but never get the chance to read it! Slytherin Narcissa is so fun to write. (Alexia Lupin) Remus is lovely, lol. And Narcissa's just rawr.. hehe. (Jolinar of Malkshur) Ack! I have to make Sirius loveable again! (Incognito 00) Reminds me I need to read the rest of 'Bonds'. Remus/Narcissa is just such a great pairing, never really gave it any mind until.. until.. hmm. I guess, sometime, on a rainy day, long ago. Heh. (Burning Flam3) Ah, the ever changing name person. I like all of them, actually, lol. I was grounded because my – hmm, so far along ago I can't remember why. Hehe, thanks for reviewing TWICE! You rock. (Foxy Bon Bon) If soon is a couple of months I guess its ok..heh. (Quill of Eccentricity) You're so sweet for reviewing all my stories, very very kind of you. Even the ones I haven't considered in months.
Not My Own
Author: EbonyQuill
Summary: Narcissa Black had her life laid before her, she had to read it, memorize it, and follow it. But now she disagrees with one of the rules befallen upon her. "Never fall in love." RL/NB What happens when fire and ice clash.
Disclaimer: Five reasons why I'm not J.K. Rowling. 1) I'm not British. 2) I don't have blonde hair. 3) I don't have half the imagination to come up with Harry Potter. 4) I live in America, don't have a British accent, and have black hair and brown eyes. Oh – and I don't have an ounce of such a good imagination in me. 5) Repeat all of the above plus oodles and oodles of money.
A/N: I have the thank you's at the bottom since there's so many. Twelve people to review Chapter Four, which made me superificly happy. Sorry for the long, long delay, but life being a little itch behind the ear – well, you get it. For anyone who cares, Internet Chat got taken down by fanfiction.net.. it wasn't my doing, well it kind of was, kind of wasn't. I'm thinking of putting it up on a personal site, so if you want just email me at angel_in_ruby@yahoo.com. Spam me and I spam you even harder, ;).
Special, special thanks goes to my betas who are so encouraging and helpful. You know who you are.
Chapter Five Narcissa walked through the halls with grace, in the direction of the Defense Against the Dark Arts classroom. She strolled on the sidelines of some sort of fight between the Marauders and some Slytherins, Snape being one of them. She rolled her eyes.
"Professor?" A head of auburn stuck out from a filing cabinet.
"Why, hello Miss Black, feeling better?"
"Somewhat," Narcissa replied, the volume of her voice soft.
"Good to hear," the Professor said cheerfully. "How may I help you dear?"
"Just wondering if I can take the test I missed yesterday," Narcissa said
nonchalantly.
"It's not like you need it, you have a very high B in this class but I
suppose you can if you want," Professor Drinn said, looking through some
files.
"A B?! Is there any way I could get a tutor?" Narcissa asked, appalled at
the below perfection grade.
Professor Drinn gave Narcissa a funny look, but smiled. "I don't think
you need one, my dear. I'm not so sure about that Goyle boy in your
class, though. Tell you what, I'll give you that A if you tutor someone
for me."
Narcissa grinned. "Alright then."
"Great, I'll give you all the details at lunch through owl. Oh - and I
excused you from the test."
"Great, thanks Professor," Narcissa replied, smiling; however, as soon as
she walked out she held a melancholy look.
"Stupid Professor, making me baby-sit some twit for a grade that gives me
perfection. Perfection is the only thing my parents want," She muttered
bitterly. She walked to the third floor corridor talking to herself
amidst the presence of numerous portraits.
"Why hello, Narcissa!" A portrait said happily.
"Hello Great Aunt Marianon," Narcissa greeted pleasantly.
"How are you?"
"Quite fine, but if you'll excuse me, I really have to get going,"
Narcissa started and waved goodbye to her pictured relative. Walking
towards the fourth floor corridor she noticed boys running to the
Hospital Wing. Curious, she followed them and laughed at what she saw. It
was Sirius and Severus trying to kill each other - except they were both
frozen by hexes.
"Humorous, isn't it?" A voice beside her said. Narcissa looked to her
side.
"I suppose, granted, I know both of them," Narcissa commented
nonchalantly. Remus laughed.
"I suppose that does help. Are you alright? You know - since your, well,
collapse," Remus asked out of pure concern.
"I'm not in bed, moaning in pain, now am I?" Narcissa replied,
sarcastically. Remus smiled widely.
"I suppose not." Madame Pomfrey had come in the scene, red in the face,
screaming at the two boys. Remus laughed amused.
"Mr. Lupin! I hope you had nothing to do with this!" Pomfrey screeched
angrily.
"Nothing, nothing at all, Madame," Remus said, casually.
"Do you have an alibi?" Madame Pomfrey asked suspiciously.
"Yes, he was with me, we were working on some plans for the next Prefect
meeting," Narcissa said, staring at her fingernails. Remus looked at her
with wide eyes and a dropped mouth.
"Alright then," Pomfrey replied skeptically. And then she left to tend to
the 'stupid boys who I'm surprised even passed first year.' Remus looked
at Narcissa with grateful eyes.
"Thanks, I honestly didn't want another detention to taint my record."
"It was nothing. I mean, you did somewhat help me to the Hospital Wing
when I fainted," Narcissa said, walking away. Remus followed her.
"How did you -? Did Pomfrey tell -? When did you -? I mean, you must be
thinking about someone else," Remus question, coughing innocently.
Narcissa stopped and turned around, leaving only a few inches between her
and Remus.
"You know, I wouldn't become an Auror or Unspeakable if I were you,
because you're a really bad liar," Narcissa expressed with sarcasm.
"Yes, well, I wouldn't have been able to be any of those occupations,
anyway," He said bitterly.
"I'm sorry," Narcissa apologized softly, somewhat confused at what he
meant. A disease, maybe? It couldn't have been his grades or maybe he
couldn't – Narcissa didn't want to ponder or think right now, her eyes
somehow drifted to Remus' lips and wondered how they would feel covering
her own.
"Doesn't matter," Remus replied, brushing it off. Narcissa smiled
unconciously, feeling her heart flip and her throat tighten at the sound
of his voice.
"For some reason, I don't know why, but you have this really awkward way
of making me feel bad for you one second and the next, I want to wring
your neck," Narcissa said, her voice airy. Their eyes met for a few
seconds and Narcissa felt blood rushing to her head.
"For some reason, I have this immense hunger to kiss you," Remus said,
before closing in the space between them and kissed Narcissa lightly on
the lips. Surprised at first, Narcissa relaxed into the kiss and returned
it. Narcissa broke away, turning away, causing her cheek to brush against
Remus' lips. Narcissa looked at the ground in confusion.
"I'm sorry, I know we, somewhat, just met and we have great differences -
but.." Remus started, but was interrupted by Narcissa.
"I have to go," Narcissa said, then walking away to the Slytherin Common
Room not waiting for an explanation, leaving Remus stunned. Narcissa sat
on the nearest chair, twirling a blonde hair on her head, touching her
lips with two fingers, then mentally pushing away her fingers. She was
about to wipe her lips with the sleeve of her gray sweater, when she
delicately put her arm back down on the armrest. She felt so confused and
kept thinking of Lucius and her betrothal to him. It wasn't official, but
it was quite real. She felt tears prick at the back of her eyes in a
flustered and angry manner. She didn't allow them to fall on the already
horrendous features that she hated to call her own. She walked to her
dormitory and closed her curtains, lying on her stomach, elbows on her
pillow.
'This is crazy! Bloody lunacy! How dare he kiss me! But damn me for
kissing him back. He's a friend of Sirius! There's no way we can be, even
if I wasn't betrothed to Lucius. He's in Gryffindor! And I'm in Slytherin
- and - and. Oh god - I'm just making excuses to forgive myself for
kissing him back.. damn his lips for being so kiss-able and - soft,'
Narcissa thought angrily.
"Narcissa?" A voice in the distance asked in a snobby matter.
"What do you want, Nott?"
"Did you hear about the fight?" Coral Nott went on to fill her in with
the 'juicy' facts. Narcissa pretended to look interested, but her
thoughts drifted off to the Gryffindor who didn't seem to take part in
the fight.
"And then that stupid Lupin boy froze them both just when it was getting
good. Such a damn pity, too," Coral finished.
"Lupin stopped it? I was almost sure that he started it," Narcissa said,
surprised.
"No, it was that undeserving cousin of yours," Coral replied, holding her
mascara in one hand, then applying it to her face, which had too much
makeup already.
"What a dumb ass," Narcissa said, trying to sound like the real Slytherin
she was, but kept thinking about Lupin and his good morals.
"Oh my god, I am so hungry, do you want to go down to the Great Hall?
They should be serving lunch, now."
"Oh, yeah.. sure." They went down to the Great Hall, Coral giving rude
looks to anyone whom dared to look at them.
"Yeah, Mudblood. Walk away." Coral said to a small Hufflepuff girl who
was scurrying away under the glare of Coral. Narcissa sighed and rolled
her eyes. When going through the great oak doors of the Great Hall, she
dared a glance at the Gryffindor table where she noticed Remus trying to
catch her eye. She looked away quickly and followed Coral to the
Slytherin table where she was welcomed with sneers and pleasant smiles.
Having had a very popular older sister in this House had many great
advantages and earned Narcissa great respect. She sat down and a random
owl flew to her side. Coral gave her a look.
"What the hell is that?" Narcissa gave her a look, also.
"An owl, duh."
"Well I know that, I meant the thing attached to its foot."
"A letter, idiot," Narcissa commented, rolling her eyes.
"Well, what's in it?" Coral asked, flipping her brown hair.
"I don't know, I haven't opened it yet, you twit," Narcissa replied.
"Well, then open it!" Coral said, annoyed. Narcissa opened it and scanned
the words quickly,
'Miss Black,
I would first like to thank you for your dedication to your schoolwork
and helping a student in the study of Defense Against the Dark Arts.
Second of all, I assure you, if you do this assignment, I won't only give
you an A in my class, but I will also give thirty points to the Slytherin
House. Good luck! The Student information is in the other page of this
letter.
Dayanora Drinn.'
"Tutoring?" Coral asked, quite rudely.
"Anything for the good of Slytherin house," Narcissa replied,
convincingly. She looked at the second page and frowned.
'Narcissa,
You have been assigned to tutor Nina Jorkins, year 5, because of her poor
grades in Defense Against the Dark Arts. You will both meet at the
Defense Against the Dark Arts room on Tuesdays and Thursdays from 6 to
7:30 P.M. The Hogwarts' staff is very thankful for your participation in
making this student's academic life better.'
"Chatterbox the Second?!" Coral laughed loudly, which sounded quite
similar to a banshee.
"Great, just great," Narcissa said, licking her teeth distastefully. She
shot glances at Nina, who didn't seem to know who her tutor was. She put
a scarce piece of chicken on her plate and nibbled on it for a few
seconds, then claimed she was full.
"I'll meet you back at the Slytherin Common Room, Coral," she said,
before walking out. She walked to an empty classroom and waited beside
the entrance, as though hiding from anyone who was outside, intending to
keep suspicion low. She heard footsteps and braced herself. She saw a
head of black. Narcissa widened her eyes in surprise, showing the
slightest hint of fear.
A/N: It's here! It's done! It's out of my hair! Now to the oh-so patient reviewers, what lovely people they are. (Ivy Crane) You're a very lovely reviewer and somehow always review first. ï I hope this chapter doesn't disappoint you! (mystic fire demon) I love it, too!! (Christy Corr) This isn't *as long*, per se.. but we have to keep the suspense going in short little ones.. not as short, but – okay, I'll stop typing now. :D. (Asian Angel) I'm sooorry! But I think I apologized to you in Yahoo as well as the rest of the readers.. well, now. Narcissa digging her knee into Sirius' ahem wouldn't be so lady-like. Hehe. (elvencherry07) I need to read the Herald soon.. I haven't been to fanfiction.net in uhh forever. (Morgane) I looove your story, but never get the chance to read it! Slytherin Narcissa is so fun to write. (Alexia Lupin) Remus is lovely, lol. And Narcissa's just rawr.. hehe. (Jolinar of Malkshur) Ack! I have to make Sirius loveable again! (Incognito 00) Reminds me I need to read the rest of 'Bonds'. Remus/Narcissa is just such a great pairing, never really gave it any mind until.. until.. hmm. I guess, sometime, on a rainy day, long ago. Heh. (Burning Flam3) Ah, the ever changing name person. I like all of them, actually, lol. I was grounded because my – hmm, so far along ago I can't remember why. Hehe, thanks for reviewing TWICE! You rock. (Foxy Bon Bon) If soon is a couple of months I guess its ok..heh. (Quill of Eccentricity) You're so sweet for reviewing all my stories, very very kind of you. Even the ones I haven't considered in months.
