Smemily: (writer) This fic starts right exactly after Fruits basket ends, like the exact moment! Lol I wanted to make it realistic, this is my (very extended) version of what would happen if fruits basket did not end where is did. all flames will be ignored and the senders, incinerated. I will warn you again this is a SHOUNEN-AI story and may include some YAOI so if that is "unclean" or "wrong" to you SOD OFF. Phew glad I got that out of my system -. Alright this first chapter is a little angsty attempted suicide and whatnot so be forewarned. On with the show.

Yuki's thoughts in italics

flashbacks with these nifty sguiglys

Abandoned Realities

Chapter the first

Endings...

Yuki walked into his room, they had just gotten back from the main house where Miss Honda had once again worked her magic on none other than the leader of the Sohma family, Akito. Yuki was surprised but not as much as he thought he would be, Miss Honda had that effect on people, always smiling and unselfish, constantly saying she is sorry for nothing at all. Yuki smiled

And she loves him.

The words pained him in his mind, just after they had gotten back from the main house he had walked in on a conversation between Miss Honda and that stupid cat. He had caught the last few words she had said to him before she ran away blushing.

"I...I love you Kyou. I have for the longest time, I want to help you. I hope you don't hate me, I'm so sorry" She said and ran away,

There's that word again "Sorry...." and this time I think I needed it more than Kyou.

Kyou however was just standing there blushing. Yuki had the urge to just go out there and give him what he had always wanted, a fight. He had never felt such a mixture of hate, anger, sadness, jealousy and every other painful emotion in existence. All he wanted to do was scream out to the heavens and beat the living shit out of that imbecile of a feline. He got everything, he fit in school so well, even the family has started to accept him for who he is, and now he has Tohru, and all he can do is stand there. As far as Yuki was concerned Kyou could have the friends, the family, the glory, but Tohru was his.

At least that's what I thought...

I thought she liked me, although it's hard to tell with that girl, I'll bet if she had the ability to hate she would hate me, but no she is filled with happiness and love...

for him.

Yuki sighed and lay down on his bed and closed his eyes immediately falling asleep and for the longest time all he saw in his dream was Tohru, her smiling face, the softness of her hand the way he treasured the few times she had accidentally hugged him he kept running over these memories in his head over and over again perhaps to another person this would be a dream any one would love to have, but for Yuki these memories were not enough and it hurt him everything he saw her smile. He concluded when he woke that he hated that smile and convinced himself that he hated her. He then walked downstairs and said quietly.

"I'm going out."

"But Yuki dinner is almost ready..." Shigure protested

"I'm not hungry, I'll be back...whenever." He said in a daze and walked out of the house, as he walked he heard Shigure talking to Tohru.

"What's the matter with Yuki?" She asked with that candy sweet voice.

"Well, I may not be an expert but he looks upset, more so than I have ever seen him show before...almost heartbroken." Shigure sighed and Yuki rolled his eyes at his cousins disconcerted tone but kept walking. His legs led him to a large pile of dirt, when he examined it quickly he noticed some little wooden sticks poking out and what looked like a yellow tarp.

Ah yes...this is where it all began, the tent

Yuki smiled sadly and sat down on the ground next to a tree and he thought. Almost having an argument with himself, which he would later on realize was somewhat creepy.

So... It's all over...

No, it isn't just, she is

But she is everything to me and...She. Loves. Him

He finally let the word sink in as two drops of salty useless water flowed down his face, followed by two more until he was truly crying, sobbing .

She loves him, he probably loves her and together they will find some way to lift the curse and live happily ever after without me, without the rat. I should have known not to fall for her the second she said she loved cats, it was like a sign! Gods Yuki! You are so blind! She never loved you! How could she, you are cold and distant you barely ever smile and even when you changed and started laughing more, even though you did it just to please her, she still loves him, him that stupid cat. the one who attracts people to him so easily, he is warm and happy, he van be funny and get along with people and be goofy. I cannot believe I just used the word goofy. See there you go again! So concerned about what every one else thinks that your even hiding from yourself! That is why she loves him and not you, that is why they all gave up on you! remember?

"Yuki I give up!! You won't let me in at all! I know you told me you would try when you were at my shop but it doesn't look like it! You are so cold Yuki how can you be that way? I do not want to be your big brother any more!" Ayame whispered the next part "You are dead to me Yuki." Yuki was shocked but had to keep his cool, his brother, Ayame had actually given up on something.

Congratulation Yuki, you've officially destroyed your brother.

Ayame made an exasperated sigh and stormed out of the room proceeding to tell Hatori and Shirgure that he had given up on his little monstrosity of a brother, Shigure did agree that Yuki was very distant and Hatori said nothing, maybe it was because he was kind of the same way. No sooner had Ayame left, Haru had walked into the kitchen hand in hand with some black haired boyYuki didn't know

"Oh hey Yuki." Haru had said slightly embarrassed "This is Kenji Sohma, he already knows about the curse so don't worry about anything." Yuki was shocked and slightly disappointed, Haru had a huge crush on him since they were kids and now he had this "Kenji Sohma"?

"But I thought... you" Yuki tried to explain but only blushed and began to walk away.

"You thought I still liked you? Oh, I'm sorry Yuki I've gotten over that." Haru said apologetically. Yuki nodded and looked at Kenji.

"I would advise you don't make him too angry, an aroused black Haru with the person he wants is dangerous." Yuki said, Kenji looked at Haru and Haru laughed nervously blushing.

"Bastard." he whispered under his breath.

Yuki had successfully gotten the two members of his family who were most obsessed with him to hate him and as much as their obsessions had annoyed him the lack thereof was more painful.

So now what did he have? He had lost his family and the girl he loved to Kyou. He balled his fists in rage and began to shake. He hated Kyou for stealing the girl he loved. He hated Akito for making him the way he was. He hated Shigure for... being Shigure! But most of all he hated Tohru for ripping his heart out and burying it underground with her tent. He hated the world and he wanted to end it. He walked to the beach that him Tohru and Kyou had been on when Kyou turned into his true form he sat on the rock that him and Tohru had sat on and just sat. He had no thoughts. In his mind he was dead all he had to do was make it official. He stood up subconsciously and in the same state picked up several rocks stuffing them into his pockets into his socks and he held two particularly big ones in each hand, he slowly walked into the water. It was cold, freezing but he didn't care he kept walking without so much as a shiver until he was up to his neck in the icy water.

With 3 more tears Yuki let his head go under the water ignoring a voice shouting at him from the back of his mind he kept walking on the lakes floor and closed his eyes, letting his legs go. Letting his mind and breathe slip slowly away into the lake releasing all of his hate and sadness and emotions into the water in his last few minutes of consciousness Yuki had imagined having a conversation with Tohru.

"So, you are going now?" She asks

"Yes" I say plainly

"I will miss you, we will all miss you." She says giving me a sad smile

"No you won't"

"Oh yes we will, but it won't destroy us, we will stick together as a family and eventually forget about you, you may think by doing this you will change out lives and hurt us but you will only be in out minds for a short time until we get over it, sad I know but it is the truth, you were a ghost in that house, you won't make any difference in this world. You are just another rat stuck in a mousetrap. No one misses the rodents." She says and she is no longer making any sense, although the first part was clear enough and it was true.

With his last blink he let go of any and all love he had for Tohru, and is family. And not hearing anything around him Yuki Closed his eyes with his last thought

Goodbye, I loved you

Smemily: Wow, intense no? I tried to make it a bit angsty even though that wasn't my intention when I first thought of the plot for this story. This is the first chapter obviously and my first fic on this site, so be gentle with the reviews, people. Poor Yuki!! I am really sad for him and I'm pissed at Tohru If I had my own way I would have made so he hated her from the beginning but he needs a reason and I can't just write that without a reason, I really want to keep the characters the same and if they do change it will be because of something, IE: the girl you love telling the person you hate most in this world that she loves them. Anyway Is Yuki dead? You'll just have to find out. STAY TUNED

Kuhu: cries AHH It's so sad!!! Don't Die Yuki I'll save you!!

Smemily: sigh hopeless