TaraYuki-Uesugi here. I'm back with a new fic. I just got the idea for this fic about 2 hours ago lol and I just had to write it. I already know what direction it's going in and the ending. lol Yes people I know, I need a life. Well anyway, I hope you enjoy it.

Disclaimer: Nope. Gravitation is not mine.

And know on with the show...


I dont remember exactly when I fell in love with him. It was sometime ago. I liked him from the moment I saw him, though I think it was for different reasons back then.Back then he just looked like a good lay. But now, now he is the most beautiful thing to me. No one can ever compare.No one. But it doesn't matter how much I love him, he is untouchable. Completely unreachable. So close and yet so far away from me. He's...not mine.

Now that I think about it, I think I do remember when I first fell in love with him. It was at a concert. He was on stage performing . Now I had seen him perform many times before, but like I said , I would just see him as a good lay. But this night, this night was special. I even remember what he had on. Tight leather pants and a white shirt with all the buttons open, exposing his chest. That beautiful chest that's so small yet so defined. The band had finished through most of the concert and of course there was a bulge in my pants from watching him, but then they started a slow song. It was a new song and they were debuting it for the first time. As the music started I became lost in it. I was completely mesmerized. My eyes transfixed, only on him.

He gripped the mic and closed his eyes, letting the music take over him. He was completely covered in sweat and his shirt was sticking to him. Then he began to sing. His voice was so pure, so crisp, I had never heard anything like it. I've heard him sing many times and I always thought he was an amazing singer. But this time had been different. Each note had resonated within me , sending shivers down my spine. I don't think I blinked even once throughout the whole song.

By the second chorus he opened his eyes. Since Tohma is my brother-in-law, I get front row tickets to any concert for any N-G artist, and on this night I was greatful for that. For when he opened his eyes, he looked at me. He looked straight at me and winked. And you know what I did? I blushed. I blushed! I never blush, for anyone! But I did this time and only for him. My heart began to beat so fast, I thought it would pop out of my chest. And I think it would have if he looked at me any longer. But he turned away to look at the other lucky fans that had front row seats, smiling at them as he passed. And then I knew. I knew that moment was only special to me. Not him. To him it was nothing more than acknowledging someone. He didn't feel the love for me that I felt for him at that moment. And how could he? How could I ask that from him ? He would never look at me in that way, and I knew this.

So that night I fell in love. I fell in love and I fell hard. When I was awake, my thoughts were only about him. And when I went to sleep, he was the only one I saw in my dreams. Nothing else mattered to me after that. It was the greatest feeling to be in love and yet it pained me to no end. It hurts so much to know that you love someone and you're not able to tell them. It hurts so much to see them and know that they will never feel the same way you do. So close,so close...but I cant touch. He's not mine. Nope. Not mine.

At first I tried to get rid of the feeling. I knew I didn't have a chance at being with him, so I tried to rid myself of the love in my heart. I mean, why torture myself, right? So I started dating more and more girls.Now, I know what you're thinking, "Thats nothing new for you Tatsuha" and you're right, but hey, I needed to get him off my mind. It was driving me crazy. So I dated and fucked, dated and fucked, dated and fucked, chick after chick after chick. Hell, I even slept with some dudes. But the more I did, the more unfulfilled I felt. As odd as it sounds, it felt as though I had been cheating on him. I knew he would never do what I was doing. He was too pure and innocent for that. I on the other hand, a so-called monk, am impure, tainted. I've had many sex partners. Not girlfriends, not boyfriends, not even lovers, but sex partners. I'm sure he hasnt had many. Probably only one. And I love that about him. He doesnt sleep around like I do.

People call him stupid and an idiot but i'm the stupid one. I'm the stupid one for thinking that sleeping around could "cure" love. Now I will admit, he is a little strange, but that's another thing I love about him. It's very rare you find someone so innocent, someone so...different. Someone who has such a zest for life. Someone who can walk into a room and completely change the mood for the better. You can't find that anywhere. But like i've said before, he's not mine and never will be.

It's early saturday morning and i'm laying on the couch fliping through the channels on the television. I stop as I see a familiar face. The face of the one I love. His video is on and I'm drooling. I mean it, I'm seriously drooling. He's so beautiful . His body is perfect . Small but ripped. The gods only know how badly I want to run my hand across his abs. His skin is like a baby's. So clear and pale. I know if I had the chance to touch it, it would be as soft as silk. Shit, I'm getting hard. I hear someone walking down the hallway into the living room. Damnit, I need to get rid of this hard-on quick. I switch the channel. An informercial for knives. This'll do. I hear a yawn.

"M-morning Tatsuha"

I turn to my left. There he is perfect as always. The love of my life. He's wearing blue boxers and a white wife beater thats too large and hangs off his shoulder.He's beautiful. It's hard, but I answer him.

"Morning Shuichi"

There goes trying to harsh my boner.

End of Chapter 1


Did you like chapter one? Should I continue? Now I know what you're thinking, "Shtara, I thought you were the biggest YukiXShu fan?" My answer to that, I AM! I Love YukixShu. I hate when they are not together but I just felt totally compelled to write this fic. I wanna see what twists and turns this will send the Gravi characters in. Now I know I said I know what direction this ficis going in but I know myself. Most likely it wont go anywhere near that direction lol So imma just go with the flow. Follow my heart. Well Tell me whatcha think ! Thanks for reading and I hope to update soon.

Until next time...

Zaijian