Rain
A/N My first fan fic so please be nice and R & R
Disclaimer: I do not own any part of The O.C, if I did I would be an extremely rich and hated woman!
Just a few of Ryan's thoughts of being lonely Set after 'The Rainy Day Women'
Ryan doesn't like the rain anymore
It reminds him of Lindsay leaving
Another one abandoning him
Another one he loved
It reminds him of Marissa comforting him
It used to be the other way around
Ryan comforting Marissa
He preferred that
This pain was too raw
How come she's happy now?
With Alex?
I should be happy
With Lindsay
Don't I deserve to be happy?
Don't I deserve to smile once in a while?
To laugh at nothing
Just to feel something in my heart for once
Instead of feeling numb
Ryan doesn't like the rain anymore
He never liked the sun much after his mum left that morning
She loved the sun
Always had her shades propped on her head of long blonde hair
Whatever the weather
They were near
But after the other night on the pier
The rain pouring down
My mind blank
No thoughts
No cares
Why?
Because no one cares about me
If they did
Why'd they leave?
It doesn't rain very often in Newport
But when it does again
Ryan will remember only too well
The pain
After all who could forget being abandoned?
Again!
