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Chapter 9 – tears of pain

I've been at the club with Brooke for about an hour and I had more than a few beers. That's why I wanted to come out in the first place, to get wasted and forget all of my problems. So far, no luck. Everytime I see a cute guy that I want to talk to I start to think about Nathan and how much I miss him. I know that it was my fault that we got into the fight, and I told him to leave, but still, I just miss him. Damn him, I have to get over this, he is out of my life. Wow, I've definitely had too much to drink, I swear that Nathan is walking towards me right now, I must be really wasted. Oh wait that is Nathan, well two Nathan's. He is so not who I need to see right now. Brookes coming over, I didn't tell her about the fight Nathan and I had because I didn't want her to ask what the fight was about. She looks really happy to see Nathan, and of course Lucas.

"I didn't know that you guys were coming, Brooke, did you know that they were coming?" She looks like she knew, she probably invited them, and I should have told her about the fight. God, my head in killing me. I needan Advil or something.

"Of Course I did silly, I invited them."

"Why didn't you ask me if that was okay first?" She looks really confused and kind of looks like she is thinking about what to say next.

"Because he is your boyfriend, I thought that you would be happy to see him. Why are you so angry anyway." Before I could open my mouth to say anything Nathan decided to step in and explain it.

"She hates me and doesn't want to deal with me. Right Hales isn't that what you said before you kicked me out of your house." I can't stand to look into Nathan's eyes; they are filled with so much pain. I look to Brooke instead, but she looks so hurt also. Of course she is hurt, She is my best friend and I didn't even tell her that I had a major fight with my boyfriend.

"How could you not tell me? I thought that I was your best friend." She just turns and walks away with a pained expression on her face, Lucas following close after. I watch her until I see her exit the club, wanting to go after her and explain and get her to forgive me. I would have too, if the god dam room would just stop spinning. Wow, I feel really weird I think I am going to pass out.

My eyes fluttered open and I look around, recognizing immediately that I am in Nathan's bedroom. I look to see that no one is in the room with me so I decide to go and look for Nathan. When I get to the kitchen I see Lucas, Nathan, and Brooke sitting at the table laughing. I walk into the room and can feel three sets of eyes on me as I get a glass of water. Brooke jumps up from her seat and gives me a huge hug.

"I am still mad at you for not telling me that you an Nathan had a fight, but I was really worried about you. So we can talk about it later."

"Thanks Tigger, you're the best." I really meant that too. She is so understanding, and puts me above everything else. I am really luck to have such a great friend. Then I look at Nathan, he has bee there for me whenever I needed him, and I just cut him out when I needed him the most. I make a decision right then to come clean about everything and tell him all about it.

"Nathan do you think that I could talk to you alone for a second?" Brooke takes the hint.

"Luke lets go and get something to eat at Karens." Lucas however, cannot take a hint.

"I'm not hungry." Men.

"Ya you are lets go hun." Now he gets it.

"Ohhhh, sure lets go get something to eat." Wow that wink wasn't obvious at all.

Once Brooke and Lucas left an awkward silence took over. I knew that Nathan wasn't going to be the one to start the conversation, so I guess I should just suck it up and talk.

"Nathan, I just wanted to say that I am really sorry that I freaked on you earlier." I look over at him afraid of what I might find. He is just sitting there, smiling, no actually smirking. Oh, god here t comes.

"So, what you're saying is that I was right and you were wrong?" I need to wipe that smirk off of his face. Even though it makes him look really hott.

"No, I still think that you over reacted, but I get it, you were just worried about me. But Nathan, I don't need you to worry about me, I can take care of myself."

"Really Hales, because this doesn't look like you take care of yourself." He pushed up the sleeve to my shirt and pointed to my arm. I didn't like it when he looked at it. Who is he anyway to tell me that I can't take care of myself? I look own and wee the cuts on my arm and realize that if that were anyone else but me that I would think they were crazy. But it makes sense in my situation. I just need to have control of one thing, its not a problem, it's a solution.

"You just don't understand Nathan. I am fine, really, just trust me okay."

"I wish that I could, but Haley, you need help, you're hurting yourself. Its not safe Haley. You need help. Please, let me help you." He looked at me all sad and worried, and it just broke my heart. I didn't want to hurt him. One tear slips down my cheek, followed by another, and another. Soon my face is drenched. My black eyeliner is running everywhere. Nathan comes over and just holds me. It feels so good to be in his arms, I hope he can save me.

"Nathan, I need you, I really need you."

"Don't worry Hales, I am not going anywhere. I love you." WHAT! LOVE!

"I…I…"

I know, another cliffhanger, I am really sorry, I will try to get the next chapter out soon!