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Chapter 12 – blessings of silence
Seeing my parents actually was a huge surprise to me. I didn't think that they would come, and I am not sure that I wanted them too. When my mom just blew me off it hurt like hell, and I don't really need to deal with her right now. I wonder why they even came though; probably just to sign some papers and pay the bill, after all that is what parenting is to them. Brooke is still hugging me and my parents are just standing in the doorway, watching. Until my mother finally says something.
"Haley, we were so worried about you. I am so glad that you are okay." I want to believe her, but I cant, I don't think they even got here until today.
"I'm sure you are. I am shocked that you could cut your vacation short, I thought that you couldn't get home." I am pissed and I want my parents to know that. Brooke and Nathan don't know why I am so mad at my parents so they just stand quiet off to the sides.
"Haley, hunny, you have to understand that it was a very important trip, your father and I couldn't just leave."
"Your trip was more important than your daughter! How does that make any sense mom? I needed you and you just blew me off, like you always do!" I need to say this; I need to get this off my chest. I know that now is the worst possible time to do this, but I have to.
"Don't talk to your mother like that Haley, we have given you everything, a beautiful home, every CD you have ever wanted, a expensive car and-"
"That is just stuff dad, it doesn't mean anything. A house is just a bunch of bricks, and who cares if I have every CD known to man, it only covers the silence. I needed people who love me, and care about me to be there, I didn't need a car. I would gladly walk everywhere if it meant that I could come home to someone instead of a deafening silence. All that you guys have done for me is bribed me with stuff while you went on vacations. You don't love me and you defiantly don't care about what I need." They don't even display any type of emotion on their face. They should be upset and tell me that they are sorry and do really care, but they just stand there.
"I am sorry that you feel like that Haley." My dad remains silent, he doesn't care how I feel, and he never has, and never will.
"I need my rest, so you two need to go." They don't even argue, or say another word. They just exit my room. Brooke comes over and gives me a huge hug telling me that it will be okay. She doesn't sound very convincing, but I know that she is trying. Then Nathan comes over and hugs us both telling us both that it will be okay. He sounds so sure that I start to believe it.
"Haley, you should probably get some sleep, you look exhausted."
"Nathan you're right I am exhausted, I think Ill try and sleep." I closed my eyes and after a few minutes I heard Nathan and Brooke leave the room. I pen my eyes again. I am not really that tired, but I wanted to be alone for a while. My parents are back. It is what I originally wanted, but now, I wish that they would just leave.
Nathan came back the next day to bring me home. He told me that Brooke was going to stop by my house later. No sign of my parents at the hospital. We got to my house and when I went inside I found that my parents were eating lunch. They didn't even acknowledge that I was home, not even a glance in my direction.
"Home sweet home." I cant help but be bitter, I think that I preferred it when no one was home, because having them ignore me like that was unbearable.
We get upstairs and we go into my room. I start to break down into tears, I can't help it. I just want my parents to care about me, is that too much to ask?
"I look like a mess right now."
"No you don't Hales, I think that you look beautiful." I can't help but laugh a little, Nathan is so good at cheering me up.
"I'll go and get you a tissue from the bathroom."
"Thanks Nathan."
"Haley, what the hell happened in your bathroom?" Oh crap, I forgot about how I left he bathroom. Pills everywhere, and I trashed it before I left to find Nathan.
"Umm…" well that was good, um, not even a full sentence.
"Why are there pills all over the place?" I can tell that he is trying to stay calm, which I appreciate.
"I took a bunch of them, because me and Brooke had a huge fight, and I was so upset that I didn't even think. I realized what I did and I quickly threw them up. I'm really sorry. It was really stupid." I realized another presence in the room and turned around so I was face to face with Brooke. Her face was twisted with agony.
"I…I am so sorry Haley, I didn't mean…. this wasn't…I didn't …I'm sorry." Brooke looked so lost and I didn't have the words to say to her. Nathan looked like someone knocked the wind out of him. I look at he pain and hurt on their faces and realize that I put it there. I can't help the tears that start to spill over.
"Tigger, it wasn't your fault, it was mine and I know it was stupid." I sit on my bed and Nathan walks over and sits beside me putting his arm around my shoulder.
"Haley, neither one of us is mad at you, okay. We just want to help you." Brooke nods her head in agreement and sits next to me on the bed also, leaning her head on my shoulder.
"Ya, Hales, we are going to be here for you no matter what okay." I look over at Brooke and then at Nathan and realize that I am the luckiest person alive to have such amazing friends.
"Okay, I love you guys."
"We love you too." We were having a perfect moment. A moment that nothing could ruin, nothing besides my parents that is. They took this moment to come into my room and talk.
"Haley, sweetie, your father and I have something to tell you." She just looks at me before continuing. "We have decided that we liked it so much in Hawaii that we want to move there. We are going at the end of the week, so start packing." Then they just leave. This can't be happening. I cannot be taken away from the only two people who really care.
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