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Chapter 13 – healing raindrops
After my parents told me that we are moving I had Brooke and Nathan leave so I could try and deal with the news. After about an hour of trying got get the courage to confront my parents I finally went downstairs and found them in the kitchen.
"We're MOVING!" How could this be happening? Thing just started to get good and now we have to move. To Hawaii! This sucks. I hate my parents how could they do this to me.
"Yes Haley, we are, so I suggest that you get your friends to help you pack everything up and enjoy your last few days together."
"Mom, you cannot just uproot me, this may not be your home, but I have lived here my entire life, and I don't want to move."
"It isn't always about what you want Haley, there are other people in this family you know."
"Ya, unlike you I realize that there are other people besides myself, I am surprised that you even remember that you have a daughter." She looks over at me and lets out an exasperated breath.
"Sometimes I wish that I didn't." With that she looks over at me and leaves the room. I don't want to cry, but I cant help it when the tears start to fall. Not wanting my father to see me crying I run upstairs to my room and just start bawling. I can't be strong, I never really was. When my parents ignored me starting when I was so young it just tore me apart. I never really healed from that. The only one who ever really understood was Brooke, and now Nathan, and my parents just want to make me move to the other end of the country. I wont be able to survive it.
I have just been lying here on my bed looking at the ceiling. I am trying to convince myself that my razor won't help this situation. I get up and go into the bathroom and pick up my razor, so much is running through my mind right now, Brooke and Nathan's worried faces, and my mom telling me that she wishes the she never had a daughter. I finally can't take it anymore and start to cause myself pain, with vicious strokes of my razor. I look in the mirror at myself and drop the razor, I can't believe who I have turned into. My parents did this to me. It all started because of them, because they never loved me and never will. I don't need them in my life and they don't want me in theirs.
The reality of the situation its hard and suddenly I cant breathe. I can't even think. The house fells too small, too cold. I run down the stairs and outside. When I get there I realize that it is raining, but I don't care. Each drop of rain washes away a little bit of the pain. I am standing in my front yard, soaked and just looking up at the sky. I can hear my parents telling me to come inside, so I start to run. I don't even know where my feet are carrying me until I get there. I knock on the door till someone answers.
"Haley." Nathan looks at me confused and raises and eyebrow. "Did you just feel like getting wet?" I laugh and it feels good. He invites me inside his apartment. He lives alone because he was emancipated from his parents.
"Sorry to just barge in here but I needed to get out of that house, It just felt so small and suffocating."
"Its okay Hales, you can come over whenever you like." He smiles at me, but I don't return the gesture. I know that in a week I wont be able to just stop by.
"Nathan," I hesitate, I don't want to start being negative, but I know that we need to face reality. "When I found out that I was moving I went downstairs to talk to my parents, and the conversation ended with my mom telling me that she wished that she never had me. So, I was really upset, and I just cracked, and well I…" Instead of finishing my sentence I roll up my sleeves and show him my arms. He nods, showing that he understands. "I didn't want to, but something about my parents, just makes me crack, I can't handle it anymore, I just can't." I start to cry and he just holds me letting me cry on his shoulder. In this moment everything seems to fit, but in the back of my mind I can here my parents saying, were moving, and I know that in a week, nothing is going to be the same again.
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