Thank you for all of the replies! The song was called "from my head to my heart' and is by evan and jaron, as I-Cant-Think-Of-A-Name-Lol reminded me! THanks for reading, and here is the next chapter!
Chapter 17 – Letter of the heart
Dear Nathan,
I know that right now you hate me for leaving you. You are angry and have every right to be, but I am really sorry. You are the only one for me, and if I can't be with you then I don't want to stay I n this place at all. I know that it is wrong to just leave you a letter, but I can't face you. My parents are moving today, and while they gave me the option of staying a little while longer to work things out with you, I decided that I need to go with them now. I hope that someday you will forgive me, but I m not sure that will happen.
I really do love you Nathan, and regret nothing more than pushing you away. I understand that you don't want to talk to me right now but I need you to know that I want to be with you and was just running scared.
I am truly sorry for all of the pain that I put you through, I love you Nathan, and even though I am leaving today, you will never leave my heart.
Love,
Haley
I folded up the letter and put it in an envelope. Most people would call me a coward, for leaving like this. But I know that he doesn't want me anymore, and that I cant stand to see his face and know that even though I love him with all of my heart, he wont love me the same way. In the back of my mind I always knew that I would end up hurt, and that I would only have myself to blame. Nathan deserves better, and I guess he finally realized it.
I walked up to his door and slipped the note through his mail slot. Its 5am, so I know that he wont be awake yet, and I don't have to worry about him finding me at his door. I get into Brookes car and she heads off to the airport with me.
"Hales, are you sure that you want to go. If you stay I'm sure you and Nathan can work it out. Even if you cant, you will always be able to stay with me." She looks so broken, and it kills me to know that I did this to her.
"Brooke, you are my best friend, and I wish I could stay, but its just too hard." She looks almost angry now, and I guess I don't blame her. I should stay her with her, but I just cant.
"It too hard Haley? Its life, it's supposed to be hard. God, sometimes you are such a coward. It makes me sick. So what if its hard for you, what about Nathan huh? Don't his feelings matter?"
"Of course they do but-"
"No, no buts Haley, I know that you are upset about Nathan right now but you are making a huge mistake by walking away. That's what got you here in the first place. If you hadn't pushed Nathan away then you two could still be together." People say that best friends should be honest with each other, but right now I have to say the I totally disagree.
" I know." I answer quietly, defeated, I don't want to argue with her, not now, not here. Brooke must have picked up on the sadness in my voice because she softens her tone, and looks at me concerned.
"You left him a note Haley. You didn't even say goodbye. That's just not right, he deserves better that that, and I know that you are better than that."
"He deserves better than me Brooke, I messed up and I can't fix it, it's too late."
"Haley, if you are going to board that plane and make the biggest mistake of your life, than I can't be here to watch it. I'm sorry, but I think that we should just say goodbye now and get it over with."
"Okay." It hurts that Brooke cant even stay with me until I have to get on the plane, I still have a while left, but I know that she is trying to do what best for me. I know that she is trying to make me change my mind, but it wont work.
Brooke left about 15 minutes ago, after tears and hugs. We promised to keep in touch, and I hope that we do. The airport just announced that first class is boarding now, that's me. I take a deep breath before handing the desk me ticket.
Nathan got out of bed and was walking into the kitchen to get something to eat, when he saw an envelope with his name on it. He could tell from the handwriting that it was from Haley. He quickly ripped open the envelope and read the letter. His heart practically stopped beating when he realized she was leaving soon. Without another second off thought he got in his car and drove to the airport.
He got inside and he read found the only flight that morning going to Hawaii, and read what the board said. It said it had already had its departure. Nathan let one tear slip down his cheek as he realized that he may have just lost Haley forever.
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