Innocence

Chapter8 Over the Edge

Have you ever woken up after one of those really great dreams, they seem so real the perfect situation. Everything was so peaceful I had a normal life a proper family then I woke up to the Chaos that was my life. I lay for a while my eyes closed I could hear Chas and John in the kitchen talking, they thought I was sleeping.
After Mammon had left after reeking havoc on my life, Chas had been so torn up he couldn't understand why I didn't blame him for what Mammon had done. Of course I was a little shocked, I had a two inch long gash along my cheek. I was just so tired of my fucked up piece of shit life.
John had sent me to his bed with a large whiskey telling me to rest. So here I was after a nice long sleep rested up and feeling better except for the knot in my stomach.

"You know it's not your fault kid you just have to accept it." John said.
"John you have no idea how much I hate this knowing what I've done to her, I just feel like there's more to her than you think. She's been through more crap than most people and I go making it worse. She's just so amazing I feel like we have a connection. John I think I'm falling for her…"
Silence.
Wow. I never thought I would see the day I'd hear someone saying something like that about me.
"Jesus Chas! She's in a barrel load of shit and it's getting deeper by the second"
"Fuck John I can't control who I fall in love with no one can"
"You're probably right kid it's your life"
Silence.
"So what are we gonna do?" John asked seriously.
"Well, I dunno… Should I tell her"
"For fuck sake Chas, what are we going to do about Mammon"
"Right." Chas said sheepishly obviously embarrassed.
I rolled over smiling. Everything about Chas Kramer was just so sweet. I reached up touching a large bandage covering the gash on my cheek. Softly I applied a little pressure. Yup, still sore.
John and Chas had tried and failed to persuade me to get my wound checked over at the hospital of course I had refused. How could I go to a hospital after I had run away from my foster home somebody was bound to be looking for me.
Sighing I grudgingly dragged myself from the warm bed, stumbled across the room and pulled back the heavy drapes ravelling a miserable rainy day.
When I was little I always loved sitting for hours watching the rain fall. As it splashed in the deepening puddles creating ripples. I always stared transfixed amazed by the beauty of something so simple. I wish I was back there. A 5 year old kid splashing in the rain only worrying about the occasional grazed knee but that never was how my childhood turned out. No, I was moved from place to place, home to home, stranger to stranger.
My stomach rumbled loudly telling me it was time to eat. I tried to remember the last time I had eaten… Maybe yesterday morning I wasn't sure.

"Hey." I said walking into the smoke filled kitchen coughing.
"Jesus how can you two sit in here!" I choked.
"Good morning to you too." John replied grumpily.
Chas just smiled guiltily. Guilt, I could see it just behind his handsome features.
"Sorry, wow I'm starving is there anything to eat?" I asked cheerfully.
"Yeah…" Chas said softly rising to his feel.
"I'll get you some cereal corn flakes okay"
"Yup." I nodded sitting in the chair he had previously occupied.
"So… How are you both this morning"
John raised an eyebrow.
"Are you okay"
"Yeah course I am why wouldn't I be"
"You're just way too happy for a girl that's just been attacked by a demon and doesn't know when he's gonna strike again"
"John chill, I'm fine my face hardly hurts Mammon can't hurt me, I'm more worried about you guys you know? You saw how close he was to hurting Chas and all I could do was watch…"
Chas put the cereal in front of me pausing before turning away.
"Chas I don't blame you! It's not your fault! I'm fine"
"Gaia that just isn't the point, if he can just use me whenever he wants. I don't even wanna think about what he could do"
I put my head on my hand, my elbow resting on the table and sighed. How could I get through to him? This was just way too confusing for me I needed to tell Lucifer what was going on but would he listen? Would he pay me the slightest bit of attention?
"I'm going for a walk." I said rising.
I needed some air, some space to think.
"Hey!" Chas said blocking my way.
"It's not safe." He said.
"Oh shut up! Who are you to tell me if it's safe or not, you have no idea what I'm going through you have no idea who I am!" I screamed storming out of the apartment.
I screamed kicking the door in frustration. I needed to get out of this place before I went insane.

As soon as I stepped onto the street I regretted leaving my jacket inside all I was wearing was some sweat pants, a tank top and a pair of trainers not exactly attractive but like I cared.
I inhaled deeply smelling the fresh rain on the LA street.
Icy sheets poured down on me soaking my body almost instantaneously.
I was known for my temper. I just went mental at the smallest things I probably got it from my demonic parents. I took a short cut through an alley heading for Midnite's bar maybe someone could help me there.
"Hey darling you looking for some fun?" Some guy in jeans and a tee asked.
"Yeah you wish." I spat.
I knew my way round LA I'd lived here my entire life, used to the low life's bothering me.
"Hey bitch don't talk to me like that"
He grabbed my arm pulling me towards him.
"Don't touch me!" I screamed kneeing him in the balls.
He collapsed in pain screaming after me. Yeah yeah I thought I didn't have time for him.
I neared Midnite's starting to feel a little nervous. Midnite's words had stuck with me. I'm sure there were a lot of angry half breeds on both sides wanting to get their hands on me.

I entered the familiar bar finding myself in front of the same bouncer holding another card up to me.
"Bear in a trap." I said glancing quickly at the card.
He removed the velvet rope allowing me to enter the dark bar.
I felt hundreds of eyes turn to me as I entered. I picked every single half breed out by the glint in their eyes. I saw a young guy downing drinks in the corner sorrowful looking.
"Hi." I said taking a seat beside him.
He glared.
"What?" He snapped taking another gulp of a red coloured liquid.
"You're a half breed right? A demon"
"What of it?" He asked eying me suspiciously.
"Don't act like you don't know Jack. I know what Mammon is planing and I'm betting you do too. I need to stop him"
"Ha good luck with that babe"
"If he takes over the thrown do you know what's gonna happen? Hell on earth do you know who I am"
The guy looked at me realisation dawning in his eyes.
"Luceria…"
I nodded.
"You don't remember me? Of course you don't you were only a baby. We don't age you see. You're beautiful. I'm Murphy your 'bodyguard' or at least I was supposed to be"
Okay what were the changes of that… He would know my father, know how to get to him.
"Good lets talk."