Innocence

Chapter 14 The Balance

"John?" I sobbed.
It was no use I had been questioning him for almost an hour trying to find the truth.
So far all I had learned was that he had gone to see Gabriel but that was it.
He had gone through a pack of cigarettes and had just lit another.
"John"
I needed to know, if he had sold his soul I had to speak to Lucifer I was not going to be responsible for John's eternal torture.
"Why won't you answer me"
"Because it's none of your god damn business!" He spat back.
"Yes, it is! This is all my fault John please tell me"
"Tell you what? Huh what do you wanna know? Yes, I made a deal with Gabriel if I can save the whole bloody universe I'm willing to make that sacrifice"
"But I'm not! John I can't have that on my conscience I can't be responsible for Lucifer finally getting his hands on you! Are you really ready for eternal torment? Are you"
"NO, Gaia you don't understand what's going through my head! I'm going to hell either way"
"No!" I shook my head violently refusing to give up so easily.
"No, you're not John I won't let you"
"Fuck you Gaia! This is my life okay fine maybe it's not a good life but since you asked for my help things have just been so screwed up"
Ouch, that was below the belt and John knew it. He opened his mouth ready to apologise.
"Don't, just don't." I said sadly falling onto the couch in a heap.
"John I respect you, hell I even like you but if you do this you're not just fucking up your own life. What about Chas? What about all the balance breaching half breeds that you send back to hell? Who's gonna help the innocents caught in the middle? Who's gonna help me"
"Don't be soft Chas will always be here for you"
"What if we bind my powers"
"There's no one powerful enough to do that besides what if they fell into the wrong hands"
It was hopeless. I couldn't stop him making the biggest mistake of his life. I had so much power yet I could do nothing.
"John I WILL NOT let you do this"
"Gaia shut the fuck up! God you're worse than Chas"
"Good!" I said angrily.
My heart had been torn to pieces. I was walking around carrying so much pain, so much guilt. No one knew how I felt.
"I'm going out." I said "Where"
"I think it's time I spoke to Gabriel, if I can't get through to you maybe I can persuade him"
"Gaia…"
I ignored him walking out heading for the one place I hadn't been, the one place I should have visited moths ago.

"Gabriel." I said softly heading for the half angel.
His wings opened making him seem so tall, towering over me.
"Luceria, I was wondering when you would honour me with a visit"
"John doesn't know what he's talking about, you know he doesn't! He isn't thinking"
"Oh but he is my child! He's right. Lucifer want's John, God wants peace"
"So! I don't see how it's gonna help! What will John's soul achieve"
"Let me explain. John has the ability of great things, he has the gift of sight. He is capable of maintaining the balance so he is good. If John goes to hell the balance will be disrupted there will be a shift, more evil than good. That's where you come in. You are capable of great evil Luceria you are aware of your destiny however the balance must remain. You will be unable to turn evil thus becoming good, permanently"
Great more confusion, my head was ready to explode! There was just too much to take in my tiny brain couldn't cope!
"I thought I was the ultimate violation of the balance. That keeping it meant nothing to me"
"Yes true but there are greater powers in the world right now you are not yet at your full power they still have control. They will not allow a new evil when there is already too much"
"So wait a minute, they'll let me turn evil and destroy the universe when the balance is kept but not when there's a tiny bit more evil"
"We aren't talking a 'tiny bit' we're talking hundreds of demons and that's LA alone without Mr Constantine evil will prevail"
"So what happens when I'm good? The demons will keep coming"
"No. You will be just as powerful my dear, all the powers you now posses only you will have the key you will unlock them for good not evil. Thus allowing you to maintain the balance becoming the new Constantine so to speak."