Hello! I was bored and started to type this off the top of my head so yeah. It's pretty crappy but enjoy =) R&R!!

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Trying to Start Over

Kawaiiangel20

As I gazed upon the silver mirror

I wondered if this person was really me

I wore a beautiful white flowered wedding dress

With lace around the end

Was I really ready to take the next step?

Could I risk all I had ever had and go for it?

Push all the memories I wanted to hang onto and push them behind?

Yes, I could.

I confronted myself.

I

Am

Going

To

Do

This.

No backing down.

"Yuu...You left me two years ago next month. I'm putting you behind me. I'm putting you in the past. You caused me more pain and sorrow than one can ever imagine. But he was there for me. I used to just think of him as a friend. Then a lover. Then the best guy friend I could ever have. Then nothing at all. And then a lover yet again. He helped me through this. Betrayal, Backstabbing, heartbreaking. Those were all the things I could think about for the next 4 months. Everyone told me it would be okay and that soon enough I would forget. But I didn't forget. I still haven't forgotten. I'm going to stop this and move on. Yuu, I loved you and never though you would do such a thing to me. But it's over. It's in the past and it's going to stay there. Goodbye Yuu. Hello new life." Those were my last thoughts, which were interrupted when my father came into my dressing room.

"My, Miki. You're finally getting married. I've raised you for 24 years, and now you're leaving me," My father said. I could see tears welling in his eyes.

"Dad, it's not like I'm leaving forever. You know that I'll be right across town. I'm only 13 minutes away!" I said comfortingly.

"Yeah, you're right. Why do I care anyways?" My father said, tears disappeared, happy.

An anime sweatdrop appeared across my forehead. "DAD!!" I exclaimed.

Just as I did, a familiar male walked in. My stepfather, whom I'd known for about 7 years now.

"Youji!" I exclaimed as I turned around. "I though you wouldn't make it," I said.

"Why wouldn't I?" he asked as he put a present down beside my dresser, along with a million others. "Your mother and Chiyako are already seated. It's almost time!".

"You're right," I said as I heard the organ begin to play the traditional Japanese wedding music. "I'm ready. I'm taking a step forward from my past and letting go of what I want to forget,"

"Miki.." said my father, half trailing off because he was unsure of what to say, and half because he was anxious to get out there, just like I.

"Dad, I'll be fine. Yuu is gone. I'm over him," I said. Was I really over him? Was I lying to myself? No. I love him and only him. He was there for me and helped me through this all. I love him with all my heart.

"Dad, Youji, I'm ready," I said. I was ready, but scared out of my wits.

Youji opened the door, and signaled with his hand for the two of us to follow. We walked silently down the stairs, my parents on either side of me. At the bottom of our staircase that had once been shared by 6 crazy family members, my best friend who'd been there for me also when I went through it all, held the door open for me.

She looked speechless. "Miki-san. I can only say that you look as radiant as I on my wedding day, if not more. I wish you good luck in your future, and to remember the good times from your past," said Meiko, tears dripping down her face.

I gave her a medium smile, then strutted forth with both my parents. I couldn't stand looking at her crying, for if I did, then I doubted I wouldn't cry. We came down the aisle where nearly 200 of my family members, relatives, friends, neighbors, and others were seated. All eyes gazed upon me. Some smiling, some crying, some just starring in admiration. It was silent, except for the organ player.

I looked around the crowd, then up to the priest, then Ginta. My, I thought, oh my, does he look handsome. I couldn't take my eyes off him as we walked down the aisle. Eyes locked together. It seemed a magical moment that would never be forgotten was being created.

I was walked up to a step, where around us was a gazebo and dozen of roses and dandelions. My favorites. Just then, I saw it. It was him. With her. The worst memory that had haunted me so many times. No, I thought, why now? This is supposed to be my time! I shouldn't be thinking about this. Trying to concentrate on the music and the priest's words, I still could not shut the horrifying memory out of my mind.

Flashback

I was so full of joy. Yuu was coming back from his college for a visit. It was late, but he promised to make it that Friday night. The Friday that would change my life forever. I skipped up to the gate of our front house. The one I had moved into nearly 4 ½ years ago. I opened it, feeling like I was floating on a cloud ever so high in the sky. It was around 8:30, the sun setting, and I had just come back from the grocery store, getting a few items for Yuu's return.

"Dad? Mom? Chiyako? Youji?" I yelled. "Anyone home?". I had then suddenly remembered they had gone out for the night and said they wouldn't be home until later. I would be home alone with Yuu. Just us. I was so happy. I though Yuu would have been back by now. He said around 7:30, and I had been out since 7:00. I dropped the grocery bags on the kitchen counter and walked upstairs.

"Yuu?" I asked opening the door that lead to his bedroom.

That was the part that had changed my life forever.

No. NO!! It wasen't. I was imagining this. I ran downstairs. I ran all the way to Meiko's house, tears falling down on my clothes and the street. But I didn't care.

The next day Yuu had called Meiko's house. He knew I would be there. He explained, or rather lied to my parents, and said that I had decided to spend the night at Meiko's. But I didn't have a lot of other choices.

"Miki. I didn't mean for you to see that. Actually, I didn't mean for that to happen,"

"DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT blame this on Arimi. I come home to find you two doing it. Explain that,"

"We had a lot to drink. She heard Ginta talking to you saying that I was visiting and she wanted to say hi. We went out and got drunk, came back here, and she pressured me into doing what you saw,"

"Yuu, don't blame Arimi, drinking, and pressure for your stupidness. What you did was wrong and I can never forgive you for it,"

"Miki..."

"Yuu, over and over you told me that you loved me, but tonight showed that it wasn't true. I'll never forgive you. You broke my heart. Leave me alone,"

The next day, I went over to Ginta's house. I told him what had happened. I could tell by the expression of his face that he might be more hurt than me, like when he was hurt so long ago by me. But this was different..

After that day, Yuu disappeared. He left the architecture institute he was at, packed what few belongings he carried at his home, and left. I couldn't believe that he would backstab me like that and then run away, throwing away all he had ever worked for. I shed so many tears for him over these years that I showed so much empathy, love, kindness, compassion, and everything else that a girlfriend could show. But he was gone, and I had to put that behind me.

End flashback

The memory which had stabbed my heart so was being brought back at one of the most important times in my life, if not the most important. I looked deep into his eyes. They showed courage that kept him through all he had been through. But this was supposed to be in the past. It was OUR turn to forget the past.

And we were going to.

All the bad memories.

Everything.

At the after-wedding party

I had gotten married. This was my next big step in life. All I could think about was our future. Together. The two of us. We would move into a house overtime, have children, and they would have children. Become grandparents. Grow old together. It seemed like every wife's dream.

The party had just about ended when I sat down. I was exhausted from all the hugs, kisses, dancing, present-opening, and conversations. There were still about a good 20 guests left. I decided to freshen up in the bathroom. I walked into the marble-stoned floor bathroom. It was beautiful. We had had a beautiful wedding in the backyard of my home, then went over to one of the most expensive hotels that you would ever find in the humble city of Kyoto.

I then overheard a conversation between my mother and step mother

"I can't believe it. Our Miki. Married!"

"I know. I can't believe it either. She was once the loud-mouthed, hot tempered girl that disapproved of our crazy family so much"

"Yeah. I know this is rather odd, but I recently got a call from Yuu. I only told Youji though,"

"Wow. What did he say? Where is he? Is he okay"

"He said he's been leaving with a few room mates for the past 2 years from his high school. He's in Seoul. He wouldn't tell me much though. He did say he was coming to visit on the 5th of August,"

"REALLY? What will Miki do. How can she face him? That's only a couple days away!"

"Hm..I never really thought about what she would do. I'm so worried. She never told us why the split up and he ran away. To tell you the truth, I don't think we will ever find out,"

Before anyone could say anything else, I had tears running down my face. Why did I have to hear that. I wasn't supposed to know. Especially on the day that was supposed to help me take a step to my new life. I ran out the two large wooden doors into the lobby, then out the main doors. Ginta had seen me run out, and started after me.

"Miki!" he yelled as he tried to keep up with my pace, which was quite easy, considering I was in an oversized dress and high heels. I turned around and thrust myself at him after running two blocks, winding my way through the city with pedestrians starring.

All I could do was mutter the same name over and over.

Yuu.

Aloha! I know this story really sucked like hell but I was bored and decided to write the fic. It's off of the top of my head so I just started typing. The next chapter should be a lot better but don't blame me if I don't update anytime soon. Schools starting and I have 2 other stories that are posted and I'll get around to posting my other one when I feel like it xD. Well anyways please R&R and please don't flame unless you feel the need to because it's that bad. Heh..See you all next time =)