Title: Taking Care Of Me
Author: Katie, OompaLoompa1212@aol.com
Story Summary: Starts at Teach Me tonight and goes from there
Spoilers: Up to and including "Teach Me Tonight"
Pairing: Rory and Jess
Authors Note: This is my very first fanfiction so PLEASE send me Feedback. Good or bad!
Distribution: Please . . .if you want to put it somewhere do, all I ask is that you send me the URL to wherever you put it. Thanks
Disclaimer: I don't own anything Gilmore Girls. I wish I did though.
Chapter: Twenty-two, Those Damn Elevators
Jess exited the room and saw Luke standing there. He sighed slightly not sure how to explain this to Luke. He told Luke to follow him out in to the living room, which he did.
Luke could tell something had happened. Something bad. He hoped that it was something little that could be solved quickly but the look on Jess's face told him that there would be no such luck.
Jess took a deep breath, "Rory and I went to get food earlier and we ran into one of my old friends. He took us back to another old friend of mine's house where a party was going on." Jess glanced up at Luke who obviously had no idea where Jess was going with this. "At the party Rory's cell went off so she left to answer it and Josh . . . attacked her" He said not sure how to phrase it.
"What?!?" Luke exploded. "What do you mean attacked her, is she okay, what happened?" Luke asked trying to calm down.
Jess swallowed, "She went into this little hallway in the back of the house and I guess Josh just followed her, and I didn't notice, and when I went to look for her I found them. Josh tried to rape her, but he didn't, I mean I think he kissed her, and he unzipped her pants but nothing beyond that. She has some bruises, and she's upset but she's okay" Jess said not entirely sure she was okay. He sighed softly wanting her to be okay.
Luke nodded slightly realizing that this was hard for Jess to talk about, "It's not your fault" Luke told him. He could tell he was blaming himself. He looked like he did right after the car accident.
Jess only shrugged in response. "We shouldn't of even went to the party, I should have went with her when she answered her phone, I should have noticed that Josh followed her, I should have found them sooner, I should have done a million things differently." Jess said.
Rory was sitting on Jess's bed. Her arms wrapped tightly around her legs and her chin resting on her knees. She listened to Jess explain everything to Luke. She listened to Jess list the things she could have done differently. After a few more minuets they finished talking and Jess came into the room with a pizza box.
"Hungry?" He asked setting it on the foot of the bed. She opened the box to see a few pieces missing that Luke had took for himself before giving Jess the pizza. She took a piece out and put it in napkin picking at it, not really eating it. Jess watched her for a moment. He slowly sat down next to her and got a piece of pizza for himself.
"Thanks" She said softly and he simply nodded in return. She finally ate her pizza. She glanced at Jess out of the corner of her eye. As hard as she tried she couldn't get the question out of her head. Had he ever done anything like that? Would he of, back then, we he lived in NY, if the opportunity presented it's self, would he ever do anything like that. The rational side of her brain knew he would never, ever, even consider doing anything-even remotely like that, but the insane, hurt part just kept hearing him say 'I used to be just like him'.
She picked up the pizza box and set it on the table by his bed. She threw away her napkin and lay down. She rested her head lightly on Jess's chest. Jess lightly ran his hand through her hair and kissed the top of her head lightly. "I love you so much" He whispered into her hair.
Rory smiled softly, "I love you . . . " She whispered back. Rory slowly fell asleep. Jess didn't fall asleep until after Rory did.
Rory was the first to wake up. She blinked a few times and glanced around herself. She remembered where she was and everything that had happened in a second. She sighed softly and slowly sat up trying not to wake Jess as she did so. She glanced at the clock, 7:30am. She didn't think she'd ever gotten up this early when she didn't have school. She sighed softly and looked down at Jess. She smiled as she watched her boyfriend for a moment. She leaned back against the wall staring off in to space.
Jess slowly woke up about 5 minuets later. He looked up at Rory who looked like she was deep in thought. He slowly sat up beside her and it seemed as if she didn't even notice. "What are you thinking about?" He asked softly.
Rory jumped slightly. She hadn't even realized he had woken up. Truth be told, she was thinking about Jess and if he had done anything like what had happened to her. It scared the hell out of her to think that he had. "Nothing" She lied quickly. She sighed softly and stood up and grabbed a change of clothes, "I'll be right back" She said and walked off in the direction of the bathroom.
Rory went and changed before walking back out and going to the kitchen looking for coffee. After finding none she sighed and as she was about to turn around she heard Luke's voice behind her, "We'll go get coffee later if you want"
"Oh," Rory turned around "Thanks." She said with a small smile. She tucked her hair behind her ear.
"So . . . " Luke said not sure what to say, "How are you?" He asked.
"I'm fine, Luke, really" She promised.
Luke only nodded as Rory walked past him with a reassuring smile. Rory walked back into Jess's room. He was getting a change of clothes; "I'm going to go take a shower." He said as he walked out of the room.
Rory nodded slightly and turned on her heals to walk out to the main room. After everyone was ready they went to a small coffee shop that Luke knew about. They were all sitting at the table, no one speaking. Finally, Rory lost all resolve. She asked Jess if she could speak to him and they went outside the coffee shop to the practically abandoned street.
"Jess, I have to ask you something. And you have every right to hate me for asking you this because it's horrible, and I hate that I even thought it, but it's been bugging me and I need to ask you so that I can stop thinking about it." Rory said quickly and looked up at Jess.
"Rory . . . Just say it" Jess said looking as his overly nervous girlfriend wondering what could possibly be so bad.
"Jess, do you remember when you said that you were just like Josh when you lived here?" She asked and received a nod from Jess. "Did you ever . . . I mean, would you ever . . . " Rory tried to ask but found it difficult. "Have you ever done anything like what Josh did to me to someone?" She asked in one breath and immediately wanted to take it back. She saw the way Jess's face fell when she asked him.
Jess heard her question and couldn't believe what he was hearing. Did she honestly think he would do anything like that? He didn't say anything for a long moment. He didn't know how to answer her question, how to respond to her. "Do you really have to ask me that . . . shouldn't you know if I was capable of something like that?" He said getting angry.
Jess turned and went back inside. Rory followed closely behind him. Jess grabbed his jacket and told Luke he was going home. Before Luke could answer Jess turned and left. Rory went up to Luke next and told him she was going after Jess and she also left a stunned Luke behind. Luke decided to wait about half an hour before heading back to give them time to work whatever this was out.
Jess got back to the building first and went to the elevator and Rory got in the same car by seconds. They were standing in the elevator in silence for a few moments before Rory finally looked over at him. "Jess, I'm sorry, okay, I'm really, really sorry." She said and sighed when he didn't say anything back to her.
Jess wanted to say something but couldn't. He couldn't tell her that it was okay when she had asked her if he had ever raped a person before.
The elevator car jerked to a stop suddenly and the lights went out. Rory screamed softly but remembered what Jess had told her previously about the power going out. Rory gathered herself and went to move closer to Jess and try to talk to him again when the elevator car dropped down a floor. Rory fell to the floor and gasped as the car halted suddenly once again.
Jess remained standing but his legs had buckled for a moment. That had never happened before, at least never to him. Jess heard Rory fall to the ground and gasp softly and wanted so much to go over to her and wrap his arms around her but he quickly remembered that he was mad at her. He slowly walked over to the spot she was and sat down on the floor near her, but not overly close. "Are you okay?" He asked casually.
"I'm fine" She said and slowly stood up. She was shaking slightly and used Jess's shoulder to help her up. "Sorry" She mumbled when she realized that she had done that. I was second nature for her to trust Jess, to lean on Jess when she needed something.
Jess also stood up. He turned to look at her but she was facing the elevator wall.
"Jess . . ." She started and turned around to see Jess looking at her. "I am so sorry that I had to ask you that. I mean the rational side of me knew that no, you would never do anything like that, but I was so hurt, and so scared, and I don't blame you for what happened but I just kept hearing you tell me that you used to be just like him." Rory said desperately trying to explain herself.
Jess nodded slightly, "Rory, you asked me if I had ever raped someone . . . I didn't think that you would even have to question something like that, I never thought that you would think I could do something like that." Jess wasn't sure what to say because he didn't want to be mad at her. Because he wanted to understand and just move on.
"I know, Jess." She said and looked over at him. "And I'm sorry, I know that you would never do that, I know that you are not capable of that, I'm sorry, please . . ." She almost begged just wishing they could forget about it.
Jess looked over at her and sighed softly. He slowly reached out and lightly grabbed her wrist to pull her closer to him. But as soon as his hand wrapped around her small wrist she pulled in a sharp breath. Jess looked over at her and walked close to her. He pulled up her shirtsleeves a little to see small rings of bruises going all the way around her small wrists. "Shit" He mumbled to himself. He couldn't believe all the things that Josh had did to her. Jess closed his eyes and kissed her forehead softly.
"I'm so sorry, Jess" She whispered as he kissed her forehead.
"I am too, Rory" He answered and pulled her close to him.
Jess lightly put his hand under her chin and tilted her face up to meet his. He lightly kissed her and she deepened it telling him that it was okay. Jess slowly walked her backwards until she lightly hit the wall. He slowly moved his hands from her waist to one in her hair the other resting on her back. Rory had on hand on Jess's arm the other lightly on his chest. They quickly broke apart as the elevator started again.
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A/N: Okay that's it for this chapter. My longest ever. It would have been up earlier but FanFiction.Net was being mean again. So, PLEASE review. I haven't been getting many lately so I may just stop writing it. I don't know I'd like to keep it going if people are reading it. So, PLEASE let me know if you like it!
Author: Katie, OompaLoompa1212@aol.com
Story Summary: Starts at Teach Me tonight and goes from there
Spoilers: Up to and including "Teach Me Tonight"
Pairing: Rory and Jess
Authors Note: This is my very first fanfiction so PLEASE send me Feedback. Good or bad!
Distribution: Please . . .if you want to put it somewhere do, all I ask is that you send me the URL to wherever you put it. Thanks
Disclaimer: I don't own anything Gilmore Girls. I wish I did though.
Chapter: Twenty-two, Those Damn Elevators
Jess exited the room and saw Luke standing there. He sighed slightly not sure how to explain this to Luke. He told Luke to follow him out in to the living room, which he did.
Luke could tell something had happened. Something bad. He hoped that it was something little that could be solved quickly but the look on Jess's face told him that there would be no such luck.
Jess took a deep breath, "Rory and I went to get food earlier and we ran into one of my old friends. He took us back to another old friend of mine's house where a party was going on." Jess glanced up at Luke who obviously had no idea where Jess was going with this. "At the party Rory's cell went off so she left to answer it and Josh . . . attacked her" He said not sure how to phrase it.
"What?!?" Luke exploded. "What do you mean attacked her, is she okay, what happened?" Luke asked trying to calm down.
Jess swallowed, "She went into this little hallway in the back of the house and I guess Josh just followed her, and I didn't notice, and when I went to look for her I found them. Josh tried to rape her, but he didn't, I mean I think he kissed her, and he unzipped her pants but nothing beyond that. She has some bruises, and she's upset but she's okay" Jess said not entirely sure she was okay. He sighed softly wanting her to be okay.
Luke nodded slightly realizing that this was hard for Jess to talk about, "It's not your fault" Luke told him. He could tell he was blaming himself. He looked like he did right after the car accident.
Jess only shrugged in response. "We shouldn't of even went to the party, I should have went with her when she answered her phone, I should have noticed that Josh followed her, I should have found them sooner, I should have done a million things differently." Jess said.
Rory was sitting on Jess's bed. Her arms wrapped tightly around her legs and her chin resting on her knees. She listened to Jess explain everything to Luke. She listened to Jess list the things she could have done differently. After a few more minuets they finished talking and Jess came into the room with a pizza box.
"Hungry?" He asked setting it on the foot of the bed. She opened the box to see a few pieces missing that Luke had took for himself before giving Jess the pizza. She took a piece out and put it in napkin picking at it, not really eating it. Jess watched her for a moment. He slowly sat down next to her and got a piece of pizza for himself.
"Thanks" She said softly and he simply nodded in return. She finally ate her pizza. She glanced at Jess out of the corner of her eye. As hard as she tried she couldn't get the question out of her head. Had he ever done anything like that? Would he of, back then, we he lived in NY, if the opportunity presented it's self, would he ever do anything like that. The rational side of her brain knew he would never, ever, even consider doing anything-even remotely like that, but the insane, hurt part just kept hearing him say 'I used to be just like him'.
She picked up the pizza box and set it on the table by his bed. She threw away her napkin and lay down. She rested her head lightly on Jess's chest. Jess lightly ran his hand through her hair and kissed the top of her head lightly. "I love you so much" He whispered into her hair.
Rory smiled softly, "I love you . . . " She whispered back. Rory slowly fell asleep. Jess didn't fall asleep until after Rory did.
Rory was the first to wake up. She blinked a few times and glanced around herself. She remembered where she was and everything that had happened in a second. She sighed softly and slowly sat up trying not to wake Jess as she did so. She glanced at the clock, 7:30am. She didn't think she'd ever gotten up this early when she didn't have school. She sighed softly and looked down at Jess. She smiled as she watched her boyfriend for a moment. She leaned back against the wall staring off in to space.
Jess slowly woke up about 5 minuets later. He looked up at Rory who looked like she was deep in thought. He slowly sat up beside her and it seemed as if she didn't even notice. "What are you thinking about?" He asked softly.
Rory jumped slightly. She hadn't even realized he had woken up. Truth be told, she was thinking about Jess and if he had done anything like what had happened to her. It scared the hell out of her to think that he had. "Nothing" She lied quickly. She sighed softly and stood up and grabbed a change of clothes, "I'll be right back" She said and walked off in the direction of the bathroom.
Rory went and changed before walking back out and going to the kitchen looking for coffee. After finding none she sighed and as she was about to turn around she heard Luke's voice behind her, "We'll go get coffee later if you want"
"Oh," Rory turned around "Thanks." She said with a small smile. She tucked her hair behind her ear.
"So . . . " Luke said not sure what to say, "How are you?" He asked.
"I'm fine, Luke, really" She promised.
Luke only nodded as Rory walked past him with a reassuring smile. Rory walked back into Jess's room. He was getting a change of clothes; "I'm going to go take a shower." He said as he walked out of the room.
Rory nodded slightly and turned on her heals to walk out to the main room. After everyone was ready they went to a small coffee shop that Luke knew about. They were all sitting at the table, no one speaking. Finally, Rory lost all resolve. She asked Jess if she could speak to him and they went outside the coffee shop to the practically abandoned street.
"Jess, I have to ask you something. And you have every right to hate me for asking you this because it's horrible, and I hate that I even thought it, but it's been bugging me and I need to ask you so that I can stop thinking about it." Rory said quickly and looked up at Jess.
"Rory . . . Just say it" Jess said looking as his overly nervous girlfriend wondering what could possibly be so bad.
"Jess, do you remember when you said that you were just like Josh when you lived here?" She asked and received a nod from Jess. "Did you ever . . . I mean, would you ever . . . " Rory tried to ask but found it difficult. "Have you ever done anything like what Josh did to me to someone?" She asked in one breath and immediately wanted to take it back. She saw the way Jess's face fell when she asked him.
Jess heard her question and couldn't believe what he was hearing. Did she honestly think he would do anything like that? He didn't say anything for a long moment. He didn't know how to answer her question, how to respond to her. "Do you really have to ask me that . . . shouldn't you know if I was capable of something like that?" He said getting angry.
Jess turned and went back inside. Rory followed closely behind him. Jess grabbed his jacket and told Luke he was going home. Before Luke could answer Jess turned and left. Rory went up to Luke next and told him she was going after Jess and she also left a stunned Luke behind. Luke decided to wait about half an hour before heading back to give them time to work whatever this was out.
Jess got back to the building first and went to the elevator and Rory got in the same car by seconds. They were standing in the elevator in silence for a few moments before Rory finally looked over at him. "Jess, I'm sorry, okay, I'm really, really sorry." She said and sighed when he didn't say anything back to her.
Jess wanted to say something but couldn't. He couldn't tell her that it was okay when she had asked her if he had ever raped a person before.
The elevator car jerked to a stop suddenly and the lights went out. Rory screamed softly but remembered what Jess had told her previously about the power going out. Rory gathered herself and went to move closer to Jess and try to talk to him again when the elevator car dropped down a floor. Rory fell to the floor and gasped as the car halted suddenly once again.
Jess remained standing but his legs had buckled for a moment. That had never happened before, at least never to him. Jess heard Rory fall to the ground and gasp softly and wanted so much to go over to her and wrap his arms around her but he quickly remembered that he was mad at her. He slowly walked over to the spot she was and sat down on the floor near her, but not overly close. "Are you okay?" He asked casually.
"I'm fine" She said and slowly stood up. She was shaking slightly and used Jess's shoulder to help her up. "Sorry" She mumbled when she realized that she had done that. I was second nature for her to trust Jess, to lean on Jess when she needed something.
Jess also stood up. He turned to look at her but she was facing the elevator wall.
"Jess . . ." She started and turned around to see Jess looking at her. "I am so sorry that I had to ask you that. I mean the rational side of me knew that no, you would never do anything like that, but I was so hurt, and so scared, and I don't blame you for what happened but I just kept hearing you tell me that you used to be just like him." Rory said desperately trying to explain herself.
Jess nodded slightly, "Rory, you asked me if I had ever raped someone . . . I didn't think that you would even have to question something like that, I never thought that you would think I could do something like that." Jess wasn't sure what to say because he didn't want to be mad at her. Because he wanted to understand and just move on.
"I know, Jess." She said and looked over at him. "And I'm sorry, I know that you would never do that, I know that you are not capable of that, I'm sorry, please . . ." She almost begged just wishing they could forget about it.
Jess looked over at her and sighed softly. He slowly reached out and lightly grabbed her wrist to pull her closer to him. But as soon as his hand wrapped around her small wrist she pulled in a sharp breath. Jess looked over at her and walked close to her. He pulled up her shirtsleeves a little to see small rings of bruises going all the way around her small wrists. "Shit" He mumbled to himself. He couldn't believe all the things that Josh had did to her. Jess closed his eyes and kissed her forehead softly.
"I'm so sorry, Jess" She whispered as he kissed her forehead.
"I am too, Rory" He answered and pulled her close to him.
Jess lightly put his hand under her chin and tilted her face up to meet his. He lightly kissed her and she deepened it telling him that it was okay. Jess slowly walked her backwards until she lightly hit the wall. He slowly moved his hands from her waist to one in her hair the other resting on her back. Rory had on hand on Jess's arm the other lightly on his chest. They quickly broke apart as the elevator started again.
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A/N: Okay that's it for this chapter. My longest ever. It would have been up earlier but FanFiction.Net was being mean again. So, PLEASE review. I haven't been getting many lately so I may just stop writing it. I don't know I'd like to keep it going if people are reading it. So, PLEASE let me know if you like it!
