Chapter 10 : Waiting
MEGAN'S POV
Three days had passed and Sesshomaru says that my side is healed enough for me to be able to move.
Thank god. I love Rin with all of my heart but when she sits beside you for three days asking question after question… it can get a little bit annoying.
Putting on a red kimono with black and silver dragons embroidered across the sleeves I went into the garden to think for a little bit. It was already getting late out and I could barley see the sun on the horizon. I watched it as it struggled to give of its last rays of light, and then it disappeared and the moon ruled the night sky once again.
I sat on the edge of the fountain and dipped my hand into the water. The water was chilled and very refreshing against my skin.
My god I needed a bath or something!
Before the attack on the castle Rin's maid had shown me where I could bath. I went down the hallway she had shown me now.
I don't know if you have ever been in a castle at night, but it's kind of creepy. The floor gets twice as cold and every shadow appears as if it is going to jump out at you…
Walking into the hot spring located under a gathering of thick tree I quickly stripped and got in.
God that feels good.
I relaxed against the side and put some conditioner into my hands that I had brought from my backpack. Quickly lathering and rinsing I sunk under the water and sat there for a while. When I emerged from the steamy depths I grabbed my pajamas from my time and got out of the water.
When I was fully dressed and clean I checked my watch… midnight.
Deciding that I would wait for my hair to dry before I went to bed I went to the garden.
When I got there I was surprised to find that I wasn't alone.
Sesshomaru was sitting on the edge of the fountain, looking up at the statue of his mother.
He probably wants to be alone right now…so if I just turn around slowly and…
"Megan," his voice was soft but clear in the night air.
Caught. Damn it.
I turned around and smiled slightly.
"Come, sit," he gestured to the space beside him.
Nodding I sat beside him and looked at him.
Nothing.
I may be stupid but when someone invites me to sit with them I normally expect some sort of conversation…but hey that's just me.
I looked up at the fountain instead.
She really was beautiful, his mother I mean. He looked like her a little bit I guess. Same eyes. Her of course were filled with love and emotion and Sesshomaru's were always cold and distant. He didn't know it, but I have watched him when he is with Rin and I notice that when he is around her his eyes shine with love and adoration. I wonder if he even knows it.
"She was beautiful," I said after a while.
He nodded softly. His eyes flickered with pride for his mother. He loved her.
"Do you mind me asking how she died?" I asked softly.
The look in his eyes instantly vanished.
Oops, my bad…
"I'm sorry Sesshomaru. I didn't mean to bring up painful memories," I looked at him.
He stood up and began to walk away.
Not again!
"Wait!" I called after him and he stopped.
Wow. It worked.
"I may be out of line and everything but… why have you let this effect you so much? When I look at the statue of you, you look so happy. But ever since I met you, you've been so distant. I think the only time I see emotion in your eyes is when you are in battle or when you are with Rin," I bit my lip. Maybe everything I said had been a mistake.
He turned to look at me.
"I am demon lord. I cannot afford to show emotion. I only end up getting hurt," he said blankly.
I felt my chest tighten. He was afraid to get hurt…
"How do you know that you'll get hurt? How do you know that you aren't missing out on something great?"
"What is so great about having weak emotions like love?" he asked his tone growing harsh.
"Because!" I exclaimed, "You can't keep pushing people away Sesshomaru! It's not healthy! I see the way you look at Rin. You love her as if she was your own child, and she loves you! Why do you deny that?"
"Why does it matter to you what I do with my emotions?"
Whoa. He's got me there…
Why did I care?
"I, I care because… well you … I mean…I…I care about you I guess," I said softly.
And I really did.
The next thing I knew, he had pulled me into his arms and embraced me. He held onto me as if he never wanted to let go. I went ridged for a minute, but then I returned the embrace. I couldn't help but let a single tear fall down my cheek.
SESSHOMARU'S POV
I embraced her.
I don't know why, but it seemed so right.
She hugged me back and I could smell her tears. I pulled away just enough so that I could see her face. Lifting one of my hands I softly brushed away her tear. Her skin was soft, like a rose petal…
"Don't cry," I said softly, "I hate seeing you cry."
She smiled.
I embraced her again.
I don't know how long we stood there in each others embrace but when I pulled away I was surprised to find her fast asleep. Her head rested against my chest and both of her arms were wrapped around my neck.
Picking her up bridal style I quietly carried her back to her room.
Pulling back the cover I set her down softly and then pulled the covers over her body.
I stray curl had fallen in her face and I brushed it to the side. Before I realized what I was doing I leaned over and kissed her softly on her forehead.
Feeling too… well… relaxed to go to sleep I went back into the garden and lay in the grass, looking up at the moon.
A few minutes later I few asleep, the sent of vanilla still teasing my senses.
