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My Sin is Loving you
3° Chapter: "When the dream turns into a nightmare."
I specially remember a Monday, when we were lying in the bed and you were holding me and you said: "I could spend all my life with you in my arms. You are the first thing I think when I wake up and the last when I go to sleep. You have changed my life. Sometimes I think I am living in a dream because I have never felt this kind of love, You are my sun and my moon, the blood in my veins. With you by my side, I don't know what fear, sadness, loneliness and impossible mean. With you my world has no end. I have been thinking about us and I believe is time to be together, Are you ready to defeat all the obstacles and fears that separate us? I just looked at you with tears in my eyes and kiss you with every piece of my heart and without words you understood that I was ready.
After that night, we began to investigate a way to get our divorces in the best way possible. But although I spend all the day, thinking in a way I could convince Richard to accept the divorce and both of us go to present the documents, which is the only way the Magic Law accept to carry on the divorces, I could not think in any good reason and to tell the truth never was an option.
I remember that Friday, I sent you a note to meet me at our table in the same restaurant, I wanted to see you and hold you and I didn't care if it was not Monday, I just wanted to be with you. I also explain in the note that I had an appointment with the Doctor at 12:00 and after that I was free to have lunch with you.
It was time to leave and I didn't have yet an answer about the lunch. I was really sad, lot of thoughts came to my head to make my life more difficult but when I opened my office's door, you were there smiling and the peace return to my body. You explain that you have time to go with me to see the Doctor and then take lunch.
When we were waiting for the Doctor, you began to question me, Why are you seeing a Muggle Doctor? and What's wrong with you? You look very healthy and beautiful to me and you give a kiss. I really had to answer and I didn't know how. I took your hand and told you the truth, " I can go to see our healers because if what I think I have is true, we could be in the eyes and mouths of everyone and you being a celebrity player are used to this but I don't want to try. And the answer to your other question is, well here I go, I thing I am pregnant. I waited to see your reaction but you just look at me with a smile in your face, then took my hand and kissed it, then you kissed my mouth, you looked straight to my eyes and told me "I am the happiest man in the world" and in that moment I was the happiest woman in the world too.
After the doctor had confirmed my suspicions, we went to take our lunch. I could not stop talking about the baby, names, books for the baby. We began to plan our future, our family, we were so happy. You kissed me again and when the kissed ended, a tall, blonde woman, said: "Ron, Hermione do you remember me?" by the way we looked at her, she notice we didn't, "of course you don't, I am Kate, Susan's Cousin, we met at the wedding" and you and I staid speechless but she took sit and continued "I was in this table near of you and I am sorry but I listened your conversation, I didn't know you and Susan are not together anymore, I have to call her. I am so sorry, you are celebrating and I am interrupting. Nice to see you both of you and by the way congratulations for the baby" and she left. I can not believe what happened, life was playing with us, what seemed to be the happiest day of our lives would end as the saddest.
I arrived to my house. It was all dark and I felt a little better, It meant that Richard was not home and I didn't want to deal with him in that moment, when I felt that everything I wanted had began to fall in pieces.
When Susan came at my house, seemed like other person, her look was lost in anger, she looked like a crazy and she began to say me a lot of names that I am not going to mention for respect to myself and to be honest with you because those names hurt me in a deep way. But the names were not the only thing she came to say, she began to accuse me of stealing you from her, that I was trying to break up her marriage, that I was the reason you don't love her any more, that I just wanted to get your money and the benefits of being with you. I just let her finished but I had to say something in my favor, I had to let her know that I have not stolen nothing from her, I cannot steal something that didn't belong to her, I didn't break her marriage, when I came to your life it was already broken. You had a sadness and loveless life that she was the responsible of, not me. That she was not a victim and I was not the bad of the story. The only thing I could be blame of was making you the most important person in my life, was making your arms the only ones I can be held, making your lips the only ones I want to kiss and making your skin the only one I want to feel, in few words my only sin was loving you.
She was at the middle of the door when she said "I promise you, Hermione, I am going to do everything what is my hand to regain what is mine, you had won the battle but not the war. I don't let go Ron so easy, I am going to fight, and be careful because I am not indulgent with my enemies" and she slam the door.
Susan was right this was our war but we were fighting for different reasons. She didn't want to quit to this easy life full of benefits and none responsibility, she wanted to be in every cover of a magazine to be introduce as your beautiful wife, to attend to all this dinners and parties where all the important and famous wizards and witches appeared, to be treated as a celebrity just because she is your wife. My reasons were totally different, I couldn't lose you because this would not just mean losing you, it would be losing my heart and soul, my hopes and my dreams of being with you and being a real family, my reasons were not selfish because I was not just thinking in me I was thinking also in the baby, in our baby.
As soon as Susan left, Richard opened the door of the studio and said: "You always thought se was a little stupid but this time she was more intelligent than you. She came to see me first and asked me for help and I cannot say no to the wife of my wife' best friend. We had a nice talk and as the good persons we are, we understand you so you have to understand us. Sometime ago you told me that life doesn't give you everything and you have to choose. Now its your time to choose and these are your options: FIRST you can leave and go with Ron, but I know how much you care about the Weasleys, and it would be such a pain that because of you, something happened to them. Just think for a moment Charlie and Bill, never return to home, No one knows anything, they just disappeared they could be dead but they can be closed in a place they didn't know because they don't have any memory. For Fred and George, I don't thing they have so bad luck, but unfortunately their stores will be put on fire and everything they have would be lost. For Ginny, poor Ginny, she will have to deal with the rumors of being the one who tried to kill his husband, just to take advantage of the Malfoy's money. When you say a lie 10 times it became true and you know the character of that Family they are going to do anything to destroy her. For Percy don't worry, he works for me and I know his a loyal worker, so I can leave him alone. But I was forgetting the principal, the one who causes everything, for him, being such a good quidditch player, no one will contract him, and both of you will have to live with the anguish that someone has taken you baby away, poor of you this is going to kill you in a slow and painful way as you deserve. Poor Molly and Arthur, they are going through much suffer.
I could not believe what he was saying, "You cannot dare to do such things, They are people, no toys you can move as you want". I jelled at him, he just smiled and then said: "prove me. You know me and you know I am not going to do this by myself, obviously, but people for money and power can do anything you ask them".
I was in his hands and he knew it. "but you have other option" he continued. "You can go to break up with him, then we can left London and go to live in Italy, I can pretend this baby is mine and you always know that no one can take him away of your side and the Weasleys can be safe. What do you think? I know you are an intelligent witch and you are going to take the best choice, and as soon as he finished he left.
I staid there, crying and thinking that our war is lost even before it starts. I began to think how works in estrange ways and when you feel that nothing can't stop you and that you are so strong and intelligent to win any battle, without a notice, life hit you with so intensity that you realize you are not invincible and so intelligent and so strong as you thought you were. You have to accept your defeat and go on as if nothing had happened, you have to smile although your are death inside.
ThinkingOfaName: Thank you for your words, you are an angel. I hope you enjoy this chapter
Kristi: Thank you so much, you are very sweet with me I hope you enjoy this chapter
