A/N I never went through withdrawal and I don't know anyone who did so I did some research about it and tried to write this chapter as good as I could with the information I had. I'm sorry if it is not realistic, I would appreciate it if you let me know though.
Jaka – Sorry, kind of forgot about that. I tried to make up for it in this chapter though.
Thanks and Enjoy!

Part 4

Harm's home
La Jolla
California
Sunday 11 November 1984, 4 AM

Harm woke up to someone trashing beside him. It took him a few seconds to realise why he wasn't alone in bed but when he did he was immediately awake. Sarah was soaking wet and shaking. He wasn't sure what to do, the doctor had told them it would happen to let it go because she would need to get through it in order to get better. He wanted to wake her and let her know that everything was going to be okay but he thought better of it, as long as she was asleep she wouldn't remember it.

He just sat there, watching her, until suddenly she sat right up in the bed, wide awake. Immediately she run to the bathroom to throw up, Harm ran after her, getting a wet cloth to held against her forehead. When she had finished he helped her back to bed and sat there holding her for a while in silence.

After a few minutes: "Thank you so much for being here Harm."

"You're very welcome Sarah." He responded.

For the next few days Harm took care of Sarah. He helped her clean up after she had thrown up, he would hold her when she was scared or woke up from a nightmare and he told her stories when she couldn't sleep. It was still hard on Sarah though. Every second she thought about just getting a drink and it would all be over but she couldn't. Dealing with the nausea, insomnia was okay, the worst were the panic attacks that would suddenly appear and the shaking, for the first two days she had been shaking uncontrollably. It had cost her so much energy that by the end of the second day she just passed out from exhaustion and didn't wake up until over 12 hours later.

Harm's home
La Jolla
California
Thursday 15 November 1984, 12 PM

Sarah was slowly starting to feel better. The nausea started to go away and sweating was getting less as well. Fortunately they had also gotten a call from the doctor to let them know that Sarah didn't have any STD's and that she wasn't pregnant.

Harm, sensing that she wanted to go and do something instead of laying in bed all day asked her: "Do you want to go outside for a bit?"

"I would love to, I'm going crazy here but I'm afraid I don't have the energy yet, I'm sorry."

"That's okay, you want me to read you another story?"

"Yes please." Sarah loved it when Harm read stories to her, she never got tired of hearing his voice and it kept her occupied. After reading for about half an hour Harm suddenly got up and asked her: "Are you going to be okay if I go out for about an hour?" As soon as he'd said that he saw her face fall so he added: "I just want to get you a surprise but it'll need some time to prepare it."

"Yeah sure."

As soon as Harm had gone Sarah tried to get back to sleep. It didn't work though. She kept thinking about Harm and the surprise. Finally 64 minutes later Harm entered Sarah's room with bag in his hand. As soon as the door opened Sarah sat up in bed and told him with a grin on her face: "You're 4 minutes late." She still looked pale and fragile but Harm was happy to see a bit of joy in her eyes, something that hadn't been there at all when she'd arrived in La Jolla. "You don't look completely ready for the surprise though, here, go an change." With that he handed her the bag he'd brought in and left the room to give her her privacy.

Sarah carefully opened the bag not really sure what to expect. When she got the clothing out a single tear made his way down her face. She held a pair of new jeans, a black t-shirt with long sleeves and a soft, dark purple sweater. There was also another bag with a note attached to it. she opened the piece of paper and read:

Dear Sarah,

I have no idea what's in here,
mum bought it and said to tell
you that this is for the new 'you'.

Harm

When she opened the bag she found new underwear and a pair of socks. She was really happy with those as well considering all her money got spent on alcohol so she didn't have any decent underwear. She got changed fast and then called Harm to let him in. When he entered the room he first just stared at her, he knew she was beautiful but he still found himself staring at her. Slowly he walked over and said: "You look beautiful"

"Thank you, for everything." Came her reply. Harm snapped out of his trance and picked her up, before she knew what was happening she was in his arms and he carried her out of the room. Having no clue as to what was going to happen she asked:

"Harm, what are you doing, you can't carry me around everywhere."

"It's a surprise and I can if I want to." He answered as he started down the stairs. When they reached the bottom he put her down in a wheelchair that was waiting there. Feeling a loss when he let her go she asked somewhat incoherently: "How, Why?"

"As for the how, Mum has got a few at the gallery, and why, so we an go outside for a bit." Sarah just looked up at him and stared, amazed at what he'd done for her. She'd never felt herself very worthy of anyone's attention, let alone a men's but here he was, taking care of her and making her feel good about herself without expecting anything in return.

While Sarah had been thinking Harm had pushed her outside into the garden where he had put a blanket down on the lawn for them to lounge and he'd also got a few drinks and some snacks. He helped her out of the chair and onto the blanket. They laid down together and just stared up at the sky. Harm got Sarah to have some juice and half a sandwich but she wasn't hungry. The only reason she actually ate was that Harm had bugged her about it till she gave in. He was right though about her needing to keep up her strength.

Sarah laid with her head on Harm's chest when she heard a soft voice: "Do you have any other family except for your father?" He didn't wan to bring up bad memories but he did want to find a solution for when she had to go back to Arizona. "I have an uncle, uncle Matt, he's my mum's brother. He's a Lt Colonel in the Marines, why?"

"Just wondering."

"What about you, want to tell me about your family?"

"Yeah, sure. Frank has got a sister who has a two kids, they are 5 year old twins. And his parents of course. Mum has a sister as well but she isn't married. She lives in LA so we don't get to see her very often. And of course I've got Grams. She's my dad's mum and she lives on a farm in Pennsylvania. She makes the best apple pie's ever. I love going over there. One day we can go together and I'll show you my tree house." They kept talking about random stuff and just enjoying the autumn sun until Trish came home and found them in the backyard.

In the next few days Sarah kept getting better and better. By Sunday morning she was feeling normal again so Trish took them out to San Diego for the day. They had fun just shopping and going to a dinosaur exhibition at the San Diego Natural History Museum.

San Diego
California
Sunday 18 November 1984, 3 PM

Sarah loved the museum and Harm loved seeing Sarah so happy. Sarah told Harm and Trish lots of stuff about dinosaurs so somewhere during there stay in the museum Trish asked Sarah: "Where did you learn all this stuff about dinosaurs Sarah?" for a moment Sarah got this faraway look on her face and Trish was afraid she'd asked something that Sarah wasn't prepared to talk about but then she got her answer:

"My mum loved dinosaurs, she told me all about them. My biggest wish is to ever go to Red Rock Mesa and dig for bones." Arriving at the next part of the exhibition Sarah started to gush over everything there was to see. By the time they had seen the whole exhibition and looked through the gift shop it was 6 PM and time for dinner. Leaving the museum Trish asked: "So kids, where do you want to eat?"

Harm answered immediately: "Can we go to the vegetable garden?"

Trish and Sarah answered him at exactly the same time: "No, let's get some real food." Then they bursted out laughing at the look on Harm's face. Knowing he wasn't going to win from 2 woman he said he had to go to the bathroom instead and re-entered the museum. After Harm got back they decided to go to 'the BBQ' so everyone could have something they liked. They had a quite dinner before driving back home.

Harm's home
La Jolla
California
Sunday 18 November 1984, 9 PM

Sarah went to bed early since they actually had to go to school again tomorrow. She went upstairs to put one of Harm's shirts on and a pair of his sweats before brushing her teeth and getting into bed. Harm was sleeping in his own room again since she was feeling better anyway so she was laying alone, in a big bed, trying to fall asleep when there was a light knock on the door. After she answered with a "Come in." the door opened and Harm appeared in the doorway. He walked over to the bed and sat down before saying: "I just wanted you to know that I'm proud of you for what you've done this last week and I got you something to remind you what you did it for when things get tough. He pulled a package from behind his back and gave it to her. It was a little box wrapped in dinosaur paper with the museum logo on it. "How?" asked Sarah, stunned that he'd got her something from the museum. Carefully she opened the package and found a jewellery box inside. She looked up at Harm's face for a moment before opening it. Inside was a silver necklace with a dinosaur on it. She recognised it as the one she had been staring at that afternoon. She looked up at him and said a quite "Thank you so much, it's beautiful." Before softly kissing him on the cheek. She then gave him a hug while he kissed her forehead and said: "Sleep tight Princess.". After a moment he let her go and left to go to bed as well.

Harm's home
La Jolla
California
Sunday 18 November 1984, 11:45 PM

Sarah had been trying to sleep for the past 2 and a half hour but it was just impossible. By now she was so used to have Harm hold her that she could only think of one solution. Quietly she got out of bed and tiptoed through the house until she'd reached Harm's bedroom. She opened the door and saw him lying in bed. The covers only reached till about halfway up his abdomen and she saw his naked chest. She wasn't sure what to do now, she really didn't want to join him and find out he slept naked but before she could make up her mind Harm opened one eye, then the other before asking her: "Can't sleep?"

"No, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to wake you."

"You didn't, come here." With that, he opened his arms for her. She climbed into bed and cuddled up to him and soon they fell asleep.