Disclaimer: I do not own this song/fruit basket characters. The translation is done by Teresa Ko. ( I don't know her…)
a/n: I came across this song a while ago, and when I found the lyrics it seems to fit SO GOOD with Rin. Especially the part when "I vomited up my loneliness" and "for the sake whom I trust". This is the opening song of Witch Hunter Robin, Shell. ( I only put in the translation, so if you want the whole romanji lyrics you can search for it at animelyrics.) And about the burger Haru was eating, let's pray it's fish/chicken/ham burger. shudders
(It's like I'll disappear as soon as I close my eyes
I feel like I've turned into someone that even I don't recognize)
I set the empty glass down on the table with a sharp "plonk!" I was aware that the whole café had gone silent even when I entered, and everyone was looking at us.
(Sadly, I've become so small)
"Calm yourself down, Haru." I said, my tone icy.
Haru stares at me for a while longer before he shakes his head, closing his eyes. When it opened it was the soft violet it used to be. Though I didn't show it on the outside, relief washed over me. I ignored Yuri's shocked expression. The water had splashed on her too, due that their faces was too close.
Finishing what I came to do, I left them and walked out of the café. Behind me I heard Haru giving chase. I sprinted after I got out of the café and down the pavement. I felt him behind, but not close. When I came to a fork, I took the left one and jumped into the bushes of the owner's garden. A dog, chained to it's kennel, started barking. The sound would attract the owners. Leaping over the low garden bush, I came to their street. Staying behind the cars, I slowly maneuvered my way out of Haru's sight.
(I want to be rescued, but instead of sighing
I vomited up my loneliness, and just lay there, measuring it all up)
I wanted to see him so much, I thought as I ducked, seeing him running past me. He did not pause. When he was gone, I stood up.
(Amidst this drop of time gone dry
My heart is drowning and writhing)
I missed him so much…I was panting a little and my legs felt a bit wobbly. My body hasn't recovered yet?
(These lies that make me dizzy
I took them and tore them up)
I took in deep breaths, trying without success to calm my breathing. It will be a while before it could get normal. My legs felt less wobbly now, and I walked, meaning to get out of here quickly.
(And with that,
I became lost
In a world of thin darkness.)
Yuri's face flashed back to me. What was Haru thinking?? Assaulting her in public?? How dare he? It's not like he doesn't know about her history…I shook my head. …if I had been late, I don't know what would have happened…
(For the sake of those whom I should trust
I chose to come here, a cage into which I've locked myself)
…After years of not speaking, she comes back to see me…you're so stupid…why couldn't you have stayed in Hokkaido? She wouldn't have got mixed up in this thing…you're so stupid…and so brave…
(and now,there's no escape.)
…it just makes me want to push you away even further…away from all this…
(Deep inside my parched throat
Lies the reason for this growing impermanence)
I have to find a way to break the curse. If not, Haru and Yuri will be mixed even deeper into this…
Shigure won't tell me…my eyes narrowed. Is it because I'm not persuasive enough? Should I be more daring next time? A mental picture of a scene in the movie I seen before formed in my mind: the girl was leaning close to the men, making seductive moves. I bit my lips. Is that what I should do? Be like the girl in the movie?
(Scared of the approaching tomorrow
I cower and collapse)
…as long as it will be enough to persuade Shigure to tell me, I will do it. Determination overcame disgust. I will do what is needed to find out. Even if it means selling out my body. My eyes hardened at that thought. Doubt still wavered at the corners of my mind, saying things like: are you sure? After you sell it, you will be dirty. No one will want you. Not even Haru.
The cold truth hit me hard. After I do it, Haru will not want me. Nobody will. I will dirty, tainted.
Your darkness will taint him!! You will corrupt him!!
We don't need you anymore!!
(But it seeks me out and whispers to me
This voice of thin darkness.)
Hai, even so, I will still do it. Tears formed at the corner of my eyes, and I bit my lips harder. Even if no one wants me, I will do it to free Haru. A tear trickled down my left cheek. If he's happy, then it will be enough by me.
(Amidst this drop of time gone dry
My heart is drowning and writhing)
I was breathing normally now. No time to lose. I brushed the tears away.
(These lies that make me dizzy
I took them and tore them up)
The next step, the Sohma House storehouse. That would risk a meeting with Akito himself, if I was unlucky. The storehouse must have some things inside which dates about the curse.
Coming to the end of the street, I looked around to go to the Sohma House. It should be around here…I took the right one down.
(And with that, I became lost
In a world of thin darkness.)
My first attempt at song fic. Like it? Hate it?
