Ch. 2

A/N: Thanks so much for all your reviews! I feel so special and loved.

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I've been really pushed for time lately, so I did another song fic. I WILL post a full chapter very soon, as soon as I finish writing it. I'm almost done with it, so yay for me. This is a song fic. in Jesse's POV, but I thought it fit this story really well, so here it is. The song is Only One by Yellowcard. Anyone ever heard of them? They rock! I wanted to use their song Ocean Avenue (isn't that music video weird? With the guy jumping out the window? I love it!) but it didn't fit. Sad yet…hee hee. Okay, without further ado (okay, after the disclaimer) here is chapter two:

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Jesse's POV:

Only One:

I wish I could go back to that day three years ago. The day my life lost its meaning. The day Susannah left.

Broken this fragile thing now

And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces

And I've thrown my words all around

But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I never knew that would happen. I wouldn't have been pleased if she'd come home, kissing Paul or someone, but I don't mean that. I would never have don't that to her. I really wasn't cheating on Susannah. I had no idea that Shannon would do that. I had invited her to dinner and she insisted to come over first and help me cook it. Since I hate cooking, I agreed. I knew that she was an excellent chef.

I feel so broken up (so broken up)

And I give up (I give up)

I just want to tell you so you know

I never gave up looking for Susannah. Every day I try to find out where she is. I've tried everything. Eventually I had to resume a normal life. But it wasn't the same. How could she think that I would do that? I would never want to hurt her.

My querida.

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only one

I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do

You are my only, my only one

I tried to explain, but she wouldn't listen to me. She ignored me. I tried everything to get her to listen. But I knew she couldn't forgive what she thought she'd seen. And I do admit. That's what it looked like. We walked in the door and Shannon pinned me against the wall, kissed me. I was so shocked I froze. And then Susannah walked in.

Made my mistakes, let you down

And I can't, I can't hold on for too long

Ran my whole life in the ground

And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

I admit. I'm not perfect. I made mistakes, but never anything that would cause her to think I was being unfaithful. But all those nights that I'd come home late from work…she must have thought that Shannon and I had been…'hooking up', she would have said.

And something's breaking up (breaking up)

I feel like giving up (like giving up)

I won't walk out until you know

I took a month off of work. I said I was taking a vacation. Since it was almost summer, I took the last two weeks of my classes and used every minute to try and find her.

Susannah…I kept every picture, hung on to every available source that connected her to me. Kept every memory. Anyone who might know where she was. I know someone has to know where she is. I just don't know who. So many times I wanted to give up, but I never let myself. I told myself that one day I'd find her.

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only one

I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do

You are my only my only one

She was my only one. The person I loved. The only person that I'd ever love. I still am desperate to find her, just to see her one more time. I tried everything I could think of, every conventional method, every unconventional method. I believe I even went to a phychic. Madam Zarra? Was it? Yes, that was her name. She told me that Susannah was my 'only one'. That she missed me as much as I missed her. I had trouble believing that. If she missed me, why didn't she come back?

Here I go so dishonestly

Leave a note for you my only one

And I know you can see right through me

So let me go and you will find someone

And Jake's getting married Sunday. I'm happy for him, the two of them are perfect together. Only…I can't help but think that that might have been Susannah and I—if everything hadn't fallen apart. I know that if I ever found her, I would never let her get away. I would make her understand.

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only one

I let go, there's just no one, no one like you

You are my only, my only one

My only one

My only one

My only one

You are my only, my only one

One day we will meet again. I know it. I just have to keep trying. And I can never give up.

A/N: So now you all know the truth! shock Now review and give me incentive to finish the next chapter.