A/N: My shortest chap yet!!!

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters.

Guilt Trip

"Damn! I'm gonna have to report this...!" Kira cursed after he had lost Athrun. Kira had shot and heavily damaged one of Aegis's thrusters. Kira had only seen Aegis go into a nosedive but had then lost track of him.

"How could he vanish?!" Kira yelled smashing his fist into the control panel of the Strike.

Kira searched for as long as he possibly could but was forced to give up. He had been out so long that the Strike was only running on its APU (Auxiliary Power Unit).

Upon reaching the Archangel (an Earth Alliance battle air craft) and exiting the Strike, Kira hurled his helmet across the landing deck. Kira's close friend, Kazui Bushirk, saw his friends anger, "What happened?" he asked picking up the helmet and led the way to a door that hissed opened and closed behind them.

"I failed to protect the capitol.." he clenched his fist.

"But you took them all down! I saw the news. They said the battle was won, all thanks to you!"

"No..I missed one. He crash landed somewhere..I never found him.."

"One Coordinator won't survive in Saylin long." Kazui said confidently.

"But imagine all the trouble he could cause!" Kira fumed.

"Are you gonna tell Captain Murrue Ramius?" Kazui asked softly.

"I have to." Kira growled.

"Well, I guess I'll see you later then.." he muttered, put out by his friends anger.

"Yeah, yeah.." Kira sighed.

Hours after having met with Captain Ramius, Kira sat depressed and tired in the small dinning hall of the Archangel. He was also thinking about what had happened to him in the battlefield. What had happened to him? He had turned into a practical killing machine, so much so that he would even go for his friend who had been trying to retreat. He rubbed his head and sighed. He would never want to kill his friend even though they were on different sides.

There was a hissing of the door to the dinning hall opening.

Fllay burst into the room, "I can't believe you!"

Kira flinched spilling his already cold coffee on the table, "Wha..what?" he asked coming out of his trance.

"You...you let him live!" she raged.

"I..what! Who told you that!" Kira half stood confused.

"You don't need to know my business! The fact is that you failed to protect the city!" she paused and thought for a moment, "What if that had been the Archangel!?" she shrieked dramatically.

"But it.." he began.

"But it wasn't?!" she mocked in a baby voice, "Oh wonderful excuse, the story of my life!" she turned from him, disgusted. She suddenly turned back to him, her expression soft and teary eyed, "Oh Kira! I'm..I'm just sooo scared..afraid of what could happen!" she sobbed, "I'm so afraid that..that this war will drag on and on forever! I just don't want to get hurt!" She threw herself into his arms sobbing.

"I..it's ok..." Kira said a bit taken aback.

She looked up into his face, "Your our only hope Kira. Only you can protect us! I only feel safe with you near..or when your out there fighting people who wish to do harm to me! Yo..you will protect me..won't you Kira?" she whispered to him leaning on him more.

"I..uh...yeah..of course." he stammered.

Fllay slowly smiled at him, "Thank you Kira.." she whispered even more softly.

"Kira Yamoto, report to the bridge immediately." a voice said over the intercom.

"Oh," Kira said snapping out of his trance, "I have to go.."

"Of course Kira..you go.." she cooed timidly.

"I'll see you later." he waved to her and left the room.

Fllay leaned against the wall and watched the door hiss close. She wiped the fake tears from her eyes.

"You will fight Kira. You will fight and fight until you can't fight anymore and you will serve your purpose to me in the end. You will do this because like all men..you 'love' me." she smiled slyly. She poured herself a cup of warm coffee and sat in Kira's seat, congratulating herself on a job well done.