Never Say Never
Chapter 18
It had been a month since Lorelei went out with Chris for the first time and Paul was not a happy camper. He wished that Lorelei could just lie to him; he'd be happier that way. He knew that Lorelei was going out with Chris on a semi-regular basis. She'd been up front with him like she always had been.
His onscreen relationship wasn't fairing to much better than his personal relationship with Lorelei. Now that Evolution was no more, and he'd rejected Stephanie's most recent advances his relationship wasn't exactly going the way he liked it. Not that it was when the cameras turned off. His life wasn't going very well at the moment.
"Either give up or keep trying, but whatever you decide to at it full throttle. Whatever you two have going on now isn't healthy for either of you," Ric advised. He hated seeing those two in so much pain. They were going to kill each other
"I'm trying. I just don't have any ideas. Everything that I do has met with failure. She's going out with Chris, but she hasn't decided where we stand in this mess. I'm so confused," Paul told the older man hoping for some advice.
"If she's that worth it then keep trying. Eventually the message will sink in. If you want to give up I wouldn't blame you," Ric said. "She's young and confused. It's like trying to imagine Randy in a serious relationship, and you've already crushed her."
"It's not like I'm ever going to forget that I was the one who brought this on. You, Randy, Dave, Shawn, and everyone else insists on reminding me about every five seconds. I guess you're right. She's barely 21. God, I wasn't anywhere near settling down at that age. Hell when I married Lorelei I wasn't ready to settle down," Paul said. "Maybe I should just file the papers and keep trying, but give her, her freedom back. It's not like she was thrilled about marrying me to begin with."
"Or it could look like your giving up on everything that you had. Trust me something had to have gone right to keep her from wanting to file divorce papers. If you file them then it's going to tell her that you have no hope and are throwing away everything you have more than sleeping with anyone ever would," Ric said. "Just think about everything before you do anything. Women are to damned complicated."
"You're telling me," Paul agreed.
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"We can't keep going like his. I really like you. I have since I saw you the first time. I haven't felt this way in a long time, but you need to decide where you and Paul stand in this," Chris told her. He wasn't going to end up getting his heart broken again.
"Chris, if I knew where Paul and I stood then you would be one of the first people to know, but I don't," Lorelei had been trying, but hadn't been able to explain the extremely strange relationship between her and Paul. "I love him or at least thought I did, but I really like you too. I don't know things are confusing."
"How the hell do you think I feel? I don't know where you and your husband stand. You've been honest with both of us about each other. It's like I'm sharing you and I'm losing. If something more happened between us I'm sure Paul would know, and you keep telling me you thought you loved him, but you won't even file papers to legally separate from him," Chris said. "This is one messed up triangle, and I can't keep being part of it to only get my heart broken in the end. That's what's going to happen because you and Paul have a history together."
"A history that includes him buying me from my father an cheating on me with the woman he told me he didn't care about. He obviously lied to me. It's not like many people would be able to survive that,": Lorelei said.
"Then why don't you file the papers? It's not like you have anything to stay for. If he loved you he would do something to try to win you back," Chris said.
"He's talked to me and done a few things, but I'm not sure. I don't want to close the door that I might want to keep open in the future," Lorelei tried to explain.
"And I can't keep a door open that I'm constantly afraid will get slammed in my face," Chris said.
"I'm not asking you to stay. Every time we've gone out you've asked me, every time we've done anything you've initiated it. You're the one expecting heartbreak out of this not me. I'm letting what comes come. I can't do more than that right now," Lorelei told him resolving to be honest with him. She was determined not to string anyone along. "I'm not as mature as you are. I don't have the experience under my belt to know exactly what I want and when I want it."
"Right now it seems like all you want is Paul. You're always so willing to do whatever I want like you're trying to keep yourself from thinking about him and loving him. It's not going to work. If you love him your never going to be able to stop no matter what. Trust me I know," Chris said. "You need to chose you can't keep playing the field while your married to Paul. I think you already know that though."
"Could I add how much this sucks because I really don't know what to do. Part of me wants to go back, but the other part won't let me get hurt again, you know self preservation. I don't think I could go through getting crushed again by anyone I care about," Lorelei said. "I know that you're right, and since I'm not ready to file any sort of papers even considering ending my marriage to Paul,. I think I need to do some serious soul searching. I'm not sure what to think now."
"Life isn't always easy. You have to do what makes you happy," Chris said giving her a kiss on the forehead. He didn't waste anytime leaving the room.
Lorelei was left in her locker room wondering how exactly she was going to get away from the mayhem that was constantly the WWE so she could figure this out. She didn't think she had any vacation time coming and where would she go? She'd been spending much of the last several months in hotels even on her vacation time. It was eating a hole in her money, but she couldn't ask anyone else to take her in for break.
She decided to worry about it after the show. She had an important match against Victoria tonight and didn't want to blow it. She was still new enough to get relegated to T&A like she was so set against. She didn't think that she could deal with that along with everything else that was going on right now. She decided to talk to Bischoff or Mr. McMahon if she had to later.
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Paul was sitting in the locker room thinking of another way to get Lorelei back, but all the ideas he had wouldn't work. He was almost positive that he hads messed everything up more when he asked Lorelei to mary him again when they were fighting right after she found out about him and Stephanie. At the time it felt like it was the right thing to do.
That night he drove to the hotel obviously distracted. He was doing okay until he saw headlights coming at him.
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