Title: Envy
Fandom: Angel
Rating: PG
Words: 100
Disclaimer: Not mine, they're Whedon's. sob
Written for: LJ Community Spillyria's "Envy" challenge.
Notes: Wesley's POV, as the outsider looking in...and still feeling pain over Fred.
I contemplate Spike and Illyria as they spar verbally and physically in the training room. Their snarky camaraderie, in contrast to my discomfort around her, grates on me. Spike's willingness to study Illyria without prejudice puts my teeth on edge and rubs my nerves raw.
But I envy the vampire's ability to take life as it comes. He has something with Illyria that I'll never have, because I can't forget what she was. He realizes Fred's gone and there's nothing anyone can do about it...so he moves on.
I think I'm just a bit bitter that he can do that.
