Never Say Never
Chapter 28
Paul was distraught. It was late Monday afternoon and he had yet to see Lorelei. He needed to see her, and, not surprisingly, no one would tell him were she was or who she was with. He had to admit he probably wouldn't tell himself if he knew where she was. There was one person who would at least know if she was appearing tonight. Eric Bischoff.
Paul stormed out of Eric's office pissed. Not only had Lorelei's flight been delayed, he still had no idea where she was. He was almost positive that everyone except him knew where she was.
"Paul, chill out. She'll turn up when she's good and ready," Ric said.
"Don't you get it. She told me to find her. She's not coming back until I find her, which at this rate will b never," Paul said. "I have to find her."
"Getting high strung isn't going to help you right now. Think like she would," Ric said. He honestly wasn't sure where the woman was.
She hadn't confided that information to him or Dave, so they wouldn't be put in an awkward situation, since he was still working closely with Paul.
"Then find her. What's the most important thing to you?" Ric asked him.
"Her," Paul said. "Everything else in the world, aside from my baby, can go to hell as long as I have her there with me."
"Then leave, and do anything in your power to find her. She hasn't filed divorce papers yet, so part of her still wants to be found," Ric said
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Lorelei was excited to be able to spend all day with Randy and not have to deal with her complicated life at the moment.
"What do you want to do?" Randy asked.
"Do you have any wrestling games?" Lorelei asked remembering the fun that he had with Cameron playing them. She was beginning to get pretty good at them. She could almost beat him, even though he was only five.
"I'm honestly not sure. I don't know what I have anymore," Randy admitted. "That also mean's we'll probably be having mac and cheese for dinner tonight."
"Doesn't bother me, although we might not even have that if you try to cook," Lorelei said.
"That's true," Randy said looking through his video game cabinet. "I found it." He pulled out a wrestling game. It was a little outdated, but he was still on it.
Randy and Lorelei sat for hours playing video games and goofing off. It was probably the most relaxing afternoon that she had in a long time.
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Paul was upset. The airport in St. Louis was closed because of an ice storm. He only want to get there to see if she was there. He planned on moving on right away if she wasn't there. He wasn't sure what he would actually do if she wasn't there.
He decided to call Lorelei's cell, but she wasn't answering. That only made him angrier. She was his wife and she was prancing around somewhere with someone, most likely Randy. It seemed like the most logical place she would be right now.
He was also mad at himself considering he let her walk out the door, and, then even stupider yet, he waited for more than three weeks to get her back. It was incredibly stupid, and there were so many things he should have done differently, if he could find a way to turn back time. Unfortunately, no one has found one yet.
He repeatedly tried to see if the St. Louis airport was open, but every time he tired he was informed that all flights in and out were still cancelled. He'd even tried to call Randy, but Randy wasn't answering either. He made the connection in his mind that was unbreakable. There was about a 99.9 chance that Lorelei was with him doing God only knew what.
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Lorelei found that evening that even though Randy was more handy in the kitchen than Paul, it was only because Randy didn't refuse to be in there when she was cooking.
Though dinner almost ended in a food fight it was fun. Randy had t he ability to make her forget about everything that was worrying her or stressing her out.
The last couple days had been the best in a while. "Let's dance," Randy said.
"We don't have any music," Lorelei pointed out. She wasn't sure she wanted to be very close to him right now.
"I can fix that," Randy said hitting the button that turned the radio on. "Now let's dance."
"But the dishes need to be done," Lorelei protested.
"We can do them later," Randy said pulling her into the living room.
She ended up dancing with him, which produced a natural high better than the high the alcohol produced one the previous evening.
When Randy leaned down and kissed her she was pleasantly surprised. She kissed him back for a moment before the alarms rang in her head. She shouldn't be kissing him. She pushed him away gently. "We can't," she said.
"Why not?" Randy asked already knowing the answer.
"Because I'm married. If you haven't forgotten Paul is one of your best friends," Lorelei said.
"Paul isn't coming back," Randy said. "I know this hurts, but it's been over three weeks."
"I know that, but I'm still married to him. That means nothing can go on between us," Lorelei said.
"Then divorce him. You obviously want something to go on because it was the first thing you thought of," Randy told her.
"Randy, marriage is for better or worse. I can't divorce him. My parents went through worse and they managed," Lorelei told him.
"Lorelei, this isn't a matter of pride. You are a smart, beautiful, kind, caring, wonderful woman. You deserve better," Randy said. "He puts everything before you."
"Randy, I can't talk about this right now. I just need some more time," Lorelei said. No one had said anything that nice to her in a long time. Randy was good at saying what she needed to hear when he needed to hear it. It was part of what was luring her to him. He washer knight in shining armor.
"That's the problem. You don't sort through things. What do you actually lose by divorcing Paul?" Randy asked.
"I love him. Part of me will always love him," Lorelei said before thinking about the question. She knew it was going to be her that didn't like the answer to the question.
"You'll loose the doubt, the pain, the mistrust, and the being ignored the second something 'more important' comes along," Randy said. "The past two days you have been happy."
"I was happy because Paul was out of sight and out of mind. Now I'm thinking about him and I'm miserable again," Lorelei said. She knew he was right, but she couldn't admit it yet.
"You can't live the rest of your life like that. Someday this is all going to catch up to you, and you won't have anyone left to help you deal with everything," Randy said.
"Life isn't as easy as you claim, Randy. I love him with all of my being. I gave him everything. If he doesn't come back, I will never get all that back. I will never be the same as before. He was everything I had," Lorelei said.
"You realize you just said everything in past tense. Lorelei, you know he's gone. Why do you keep believing he'll come back?" Randy asked.
"I never said he would come back. I said he was my everything," Lorelei protested. "I don't think he's coming back."
"But the moment he does you'll be right there waiting for him with open arms for him to hurt you again. He's not going to stop," Randy said.
"So what if you're right? I'll still have my heart being ripped apart. That pain is never going to go away," Lorelei told him.
"Never is a long time," Randy said. He knew it was an absolutely crazy idea, but he kissed Lorelei again. He needed to feel her lips against his again.
This time it was Randy who pulled away. He knew that going any further would be out of the question.
"I don't know what to do anymore," Lorelei admitted. "I need some space."
"Fair enough," Randy said. "I know this is going to sound incredibly stupid, but I've wanted to do that for a long time."
Randy watched as Lorelei went into the other room and Randy regretted saying anything. He didn't want to make this any more difficult for her. It was stupid timing.
Randy's phone rang and it was Paul. He decided to answer it for kicks mostly.
"Have you seen Lorelei?" Paul asked.
"Why the fuck would I tell you?" Randy asked.
"Because she's my wife and I love her," Paul answered. "I'm really worried about her."
"Just like you were worried about her when you watched her walk out the door. Just like you worried about her when you slept with that brutal whore," Randy said choosing not to list any more of his discretions.
"Shut it Orton," Paul said. "Have you seen my wife?"
"I'm not going to stop. You're not the one who has repeatedly had to be there after you ripped her heart out. Does it even matter to you that she stood by you, and you put everything in front of her wants and her needs?" Randy asked.
"Lorelei's sleeping in my bed," Randy said. He knew that it was stupid to say something like that. Lorelei would probably kill him for the connotations that the statement held.
Paul didn't have an answer for that so he just hung up
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Paul was pissed. He knew that Randy had to have meant that in the most innocent way possible, but he couldn't help but wonder. Randy had been interested in Lorelei for a while. The young man had never told anyone, but it was pretty obvious.
Paul was also pissed he would at least have to wait until tomorrow to get out there and know what was going on. It was eating him alive she was staying with Randy, and he couldn't know exactly what was going on.
Paul spent the evening in the hotel gym working every muscle in his body until he was so exhausted that he could barely move.
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