Ok, I decided to explain the forgiving and tormenting thing in this chapter. This part is a lot less detached then the one previous. It's really short. It's set at Lily's funeral.
Logan stood behind Duncan Kane and stared into her grave as Jake Kane shoveled the first pile of dirt into his baby girl's grave and Celeste Kane cried into the shoulder of her stoic son. Veronica Mars stood beside him, her tiny hand, in comparison to his, clung to his, he was sure his clutch was much stronger, as tears slid down her perfectly done up face.
It was a cold and dreary day, perfect weather as the background of this day of horror for all those in attendance of this young woman's funeral. It started to rain the moment Jake Kane stepped away from her grave. Fitting.
The hard rain broke Logan's stare and he gave Duncan's shoulder a hesitant squeeze and then held the broken girl close to him; she was all of Lily he had left. And she was Lily's protégé; the way she saved him from himself, the way Lily used to; the way her blonde hair shined in the light, just like Lily's had.
He led her to her car with his arm around her shoulders and his jacket above their heads to protect them for the tears of the people who cried for Lily. She felt like Lily beside him and he suddenly went rigid and Veronica noticed and looked at him sympathetically. But he smiled tight and walked slightly faster to her car, dropping her off, telling her he'll talk to her later.
But he had no intention of calling her because she was all he had left of Lily. He couldn't get too close or else she'd burn him. He'd already been burned by Lily because of her, now he wouldn't let himself be burned directly by her.
He knew he had the capability of loving her, not because she was like Lily, but because she was Veronica Mars. She was one of a kind, and she had been the closest person to Lily. She was still close to Lily. If he fell for her and something happened he wouldn't make it.
So he chose to hate her. To torment her. To cause her pain. To ensure she wouldn't cause him pain.
He watched her drive away and stared after her car, knowing he'd be miserable until he let himself feel for anyone the way he felt for Lily.
