Chapter 10: Thoughts

I couldn't believe it… I felt like a coward! WHY? I should have taken her back to Tokyo. It's sad but after that incident, we went back to Tokyo. Everyone now continue on they regular routine, trying to forget about Elli but it always failed as we always heard news on the Shizaki's. The worse thing of all is when Ray tried to asked me to go to Arizona again but… I won't go.

Everyday, more news about the Shizaki's is on Television like about their business, their business report and worse of all Elli's marriage. Even do, I managed to move on but I felt the sorrow and loneliness inside of me. Sometimes I felt like talking to her on the phone but… I couldn't do it. I couldn't face her like this.

This is the first time in my life I felt worried and scared. I am scared Viktor will hurt Elli again. The day when he stabbed Elli was the worst day of my life. I am standing in front of Elli without even blocking the daggers. I just stand there and looked.

I felt like tryingto suicide but I can't. Every time I want to do it. The thoughts of Elli make my heart feels that I can't just abandon Elli alone with Eric. But as you know, I didn't do anything. I just stand here .

Ray and Hilary have always tried to lift me up but it always failed. Especially when Hilary talks about Elli. Hilary always asked her friends in Arizona about Elli and mostly she will say, "Elli is still waiting for you Kai Lift your spirit up and save her! You can't just stay here"

I always ignore them. Even do my thoughts in only at Elli but I …I… I couldn't believe I just sit here! I am a coward, a loser, a useless piece of junk! Even do I miss her so much I felt so stupid to let her go. I just told Elli on the Great Wall that I wouldn't let her go with them. I did not keep my promise and I…

Anyway, I am so glad that both Tyson and Max are okay. They are beginning to recover. Tyson has a broken arm and leg while Max just hit his head badly. Anyway now they are okay but some of Max's memories are …

Everyday seeing Tyson and Max getting better is the good part of my life. But somehow seeing them gives me the headache when they keep asking me to get Elli back as their request to me. Since they are not being polite, I totally ignore them.

Everyday passes by with a life filled with adventures. We just met up with Ozuma and his saint shield, some crazy peoples, the beyblade hunters, Zeo and many more. ON these passing days, I seem to ignore and almost forget about Elli. But why does it come back to me?

Sometimes I don't want to believe it but it is true… four years have already passes by and I am just standing here without a plan. I am so dame stupid! Thought Kai.

Kai is still thinking about his past with Elli. He didn't even move away from the window or even move a muscle. He felt so wrong but what can he do? Four years have pass by and he is still here doing nothing.

Back in the Shizaki's Mansion, Elli was doing the same thing too. She also felt wrong about escaping with Kai.

Kai… Four years have pass by. Why you ever came. How can I return your scarf? Since I return to my house, my father has been treating me badly. Mostly every time, he gave me food hardly enough for me and every time I talk about Kai, He will beat me using a whip. Not only that, when I started to talk bad about Eric he will use a knife and cut me. It hurts a lot. There are many scars on my leg. It can never be heal. I wonder if Tyson and Max are all right. They are hurt badly because of me. I can never forgive myself! I shouldn't have escape from this mansion or else nothing will happen! Thought Elli

Not matter what they think or said now. They are too late. What has been done is over. Now is how Kai face Elli again. He did not make any mistake is just, he couldn't see Elli being hurt by her own family.